so i figured i'd go attend a meeting yesterday. didnt wanna fall of track with attending my weight watchers meetings. i didnt weigh in. but i did weigh myself at home twice. the day after i got back from ohio my bf's scale said i was 166.2. then on wed. morning i weighed again @ home and it said 164.2. eh, so it must be alot of water weight i gained and even if it is just a pound, thank god!
i ate sooooo much in just one long weekend. if i knew ohio was gonna be all about food i would have prepared better. but im fine with my choices. i counted points everyday and tracked on my iphone except one day and even though i ate shitty things i didnt beat myself up. i was happy. i was with my friends and all was well.
since tuesday i've been eating much better. and i'm just trying to be 163 again by next tuesday and then on from there. i wanna make a video tonight. i was totally gonna do it yesterday but i was (and am) stressed and out and bummed from work. somethings gotta change on that end. anyhoo....back to work i go.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
weighed in today...maybe i'll call it weigh in #1 :)
so i must be a psychic. because i predicted my weight last week to be 163.2 by this week. and this tuesday i am 163.0!!! that is a 1.2 lb loss. woot! i exceeded it by .2. purty happy. :)
i feel really good about last week. i brought in lunches (mostly healthy choice meals) and when i didn't bring in lunch i opted for a salad and some sort of soup. also i made sure to have my oatmeal and actually stayed within points on most days. i think it helped having groceries and meals available to me. because even though i'm not one to plan my meals (never have been) atleast i have access to foods that will help me stay on plan. (mental note: buy groceries for this week)
i cooked my dinner once last week (i made chicken fajitas, yum!) the other times me and my babes got sushi (brown rice spicy tuna = love). i ate all of my weekly points and my activity points. i gained 14 activity points so you know i was in the gym! lol. i really want to take class though
next week i would love to see a loss. but i have two huge challenges. on friday night i leave for ohio to spend 3 days with my friends (happy eating and drinking much? :/) and also on tuesday i'm schedule to get my period. i may not weigh in next tuesday if i feel like i usually feel on my first day. but i also may just weigh in to face the music. its hard facing that music though.
goal for next week: going to aim to lose half a pound for next week. i'm going to the gym today and tomorrrow. after that i'm not able to do so. so i either need to walk everywhere i go while away or be mindful of the foods i'm eating while i'm away. i will try my hardest to lose! even out of my comfort zone...
i was gonna make a video about my weigh in today but i'm too busy tonight to do it. i gotta pack, go to the gym, make dinner...eh. video not on my top priority (but i made one yesterday!). ill make it if at the end of the day if i have 30 minutes to spare.
i feel really good about last week. i brought in lunches (mostly healthy choice meals) and when i didn't bring in lunch i opted for a salad and some sort of soup. also i made sure to have my oatmeal and actually stayed within points on most days. i think it helped having groceries and meals available to me. because even though i'm not one to plan my meals (never have been) atleast i have access to foods that will help me stay on plan. (mental note: buy groceries for this week)
i cooked my dinner once last week (i made chicken fajitas, yum!) the other times me and my babes got sushi (brown rice spicy tuna = love). i ate all of my weekly points and my activity points. i gained 14 activity points so you know i was in the gym! lol. i really want to take class though
next week i would love to see a loss. but i have two huge challenges. on friday night i leave for ohio to spend 3 days with my friends (happy eating and drinking much? :/) and also on tuesday i'm schedule to get my period. i may not weigh in next tuesday if i feel like i usually feel on my first day. but i also may just weigh in to face the music. its hard facing that music though.
goal for next week: going to aim to lose half a pound for next week. i'm going to the gym today and tomorrrow. after that i'm not able to do so. so i either need to walk everywhere i go while away or be mindful of the foods i'm eating while i'm away. i will try my hardest to lose! even out of my comfort zone...
i was gonna make a video about my weigh in today but i'm too busy tonight to do it. i gotta pack, go to the gym, make dinner...eh. video not on my top priority (but i made one yesterday!). ill make it if at the end of the day if i have 30 minutes to spare.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
weighed in today
i duno what made me do it. but i did not eat ALL of my weeklys plus some for the first time in MONTHS last week. i had 18 points left. i am so proud of me for actually sticking to the plan for a whole week. of course no perfection but a huge step towards improvement
i just weighed in at weight watchers at 164.2. that puts me down 0.6 from 2 weeks ago. a lil disappointed because on sunday i stepped on my scale and weighed 161. but i can't expect my weight to just melt off like that and i shouldnt constantly be weighing myself anyhoo. so i'll take the 0.6 loss! and aim for 1 pound next week. aiming for 163.2!!!!
i've kept at it with the gym. i actually feel pretty sore right now. ugh. i'm not going to the gym today cuz i have a date with my sweety and i usually take tuesdays off anyway to hang out. but i'm going 5 times this week.
on sunday i went food shopping and bought a bunch of frozen meals and healthy staples that i used to purchase. it had been literally MONTHS since i went grocery shopping. so sad. so i had to re stock on basically everything. ive been cooking a bit more and feeling a lot better about my choices. i'm not aiming for perfection. i can't because i'll fail. so instead i have made goals.
the first goal is to get back into the 150's. if i enter 159.9 before i step on the plane to puerto rico in 3 and a half weeks i'll be ecsatic. thats about 5 pounds from now. so i'm working on the steps to get there.
i wanna get back into vlogging. but ive been so out of it that i dont even wanna bother with it sometimes. but i know its something that will help me stay on track. so i'm going to force myself to make a video this week. top priority! no more half assing my weightloss.
on and forward!
i just weighed in at weight watchers at 164.2. that puts me down 0.6 from 2 weeks ago. a lil disappointed because on sunday i stepped on my scale and weighed 161. but i can't expect my weight to just melt off like that and i shouldnt constantly be weighing myself anyhoo. so i'll take the 0.6 loss! and aim for 1 pound next week. aiming for 163.2!!!!
i've kept at it with the gym. i actually feel pretty sore right now. ugh. i'm not going to the gym today cuz i have a date with my sweety and i usually take tuesdays off anyway to hang out. but i'm going 5 times this week.
on sunday i went food shopping and bought a bunch of frozen meals and healthy staples that i used to purchase. it had been literally MONTHS since i went grocery shopping. so sad. so i had to re stock on basically everything. ive been cooking a bit more and feeling a lot better about my choices. i'm not aiming for perfection. i can't because i'll fail. so instead i have made goals.
the first goal is to get back into the 150's. if i enter 159.9 before i step on the plane to puerto rico in 3 and a half weeks i'll be ecsatic. thats about 5 pounds from now. so i'm working on the steps to get there.
i wanna get back into vlogging. but ive been so out of it that i dont even wanna bother with it sometimes. but i know its something that will help me stay on track. so i'm going to force myself to make a video this week. top priority! no more half assing my weightloss.
on and forward!
Friday, July 30, 2010
weighed in on wednesday
so i weighed in on wednesday finally! i need to stop erratically attending meetings. i need to make it my religion to go to a meeting EVERY week.
so anyway, i weighed in at 164.8 which was a loss of 0.6 pounds to two weeks prior. eh i duno man. foods not going so great. i'll be good for one or two days then all hell breaks loose. exercise was good last week. but this week with my impending period and me feeling like shit i've only been to the gym once. i plan to go tonight but who knows how ill feel with my period. ugh, hate it.
so i know that next week wont be such a loss because of my poor eating habits and lack of exercise and period bloat but i dont wanna be such a debbie downer. so tomorrow i'm setting up some time for myself to re-evalute what i'm doing. see how i can change things and get back on the path to my goals. nothing can stop me if i put my mind to it. but thats exactly whats wrong. my mind isnt in it.
last weekend i cleaned my room and read a book. i felt so zen. like everything was ok. like i could almost get back on track for just accomplishing that mess of a room. i've been obsessed with looking up trips to just get away and zone out on the beach. but maybe thats not what i need. maybe i just need order in my life in order to take control again of myself. cuz i'm totally losing it.
anyhoo...on to the next week.
so anyway, i weighed in at 164.8 which was a loss of 0.6 pounds to two weeks prior. eh i duno man. foods not going so great. i'll be good for one or two days then all hell breaks loose. exercise was good last week. but this week with my impending period and me feeling like shit i've only been to the gym once. i plan to go tonight but who knows how ill feel with my period. ugh, hate it.
so i know that next week wont be such a loss because of my poor eating habits and lack of exercise and period bloat but i dont wanna be such a debbie downer. so tomorrow i'm setting up some time for myself to re-evalute what i'm doing. see how i can change things and get back on the path to my goals. nothing can stop me if i put my mind to it. but thats exactly whats wrong. my mind isnt in it.
last weekend i cleaned my room and read a book. i felt so zen. like everything was ok. like i could almost get back on track for just accomplishing that mess of a room. i've been obsessed with looking up trips to just get away and zone out on the beach. but maybe thats not what i need. maybe i just need order in my life in order to take control again of myself. cuz i'm totally losing it.
anyhoo...on to the next week.
Friday, July 16, 2010
aw crap..weigh in
aw crap forgot to blog about my weigh in on Tuesday. this week i've been super hella busy and stressed at work so i've had like no time for life. and every time i come home i collapse and zone out.
so anyhoo, my boss is not here so i can breathe kinda. ok so the week prior i didn't go to weight watchers but this past week on tuesday i went (in the pouring rain mind you) and weighed in at 165.4. which was a gain of 1.6. *sigh* its frustrating watching the scale go up and down. especially in the 160's. but i take total blame for this one.
although my exercise has been all good and i've been going to the gym 4 times a week and or trying at home things.....my food...not so good. i have gotten into the habit of not caring about what i ate. and last weekend was like a liquor fest. i drank three days in a row and ate at 3 am knowing i had no points left. so it wasn't a shock that i gained.
i just need the two to work together. hand in hand. exercise and healthy choices. i've slightly been trying this week with food but i think i know where i fail when it comes to food.
its the planning. i never plan my meals. or even bring lunch to work. i mean, i usually have lunch out and a lot of the times its tempting to go over what i allot myself for the meal. or sometimes i really don't know whats in it. so i'm constantly guesstimating my points. which is bad, i know. so this week is pretty much shit, cuz its friday and i've already just come back from buying lunch. (but it was a yummy avocado salad!) so on monday next week i'm challenging myself to bring in lunch for a week. it'll also save me money, which i need to do.
so exercise is good. i'm on week 5 of couch to 5 k. i feel SOOOOO great when i work out. but leme tell you its not easy. last time i did C25k i was 10 pounds lighter. and now i feel the weight gain. i can't do it like i did it man. and i'm determined to get back in my size 8 jeans (currently at size 10)
i can, i will! oh yeah...see ya next tuesday. i think i might make a vlog soon.
but i feel like i wanna get my life back together before that...i duno ill see what the deal is. its just easier and less time consuming for me to type right now.
so anyhoo, my boss is not here so i can breathe kinda. ok so the week prior i didn't go to weight watchers but this past week on tuesday i went (in the pouring rain mind you) and weighed in at 165.4. which was a gain of 1.6. *sigh* its frustrating watching the scale go up and down. especially in the 160's. but i take total blame for this one.
although my exercise has been all good and i've been going to the gym 4 times a week and or trying at home things.....my food...not so good. i have gotten into the habit of not caring about what i ate. and last weekend was like a liquor fest. i drank three days in a row and ate at 3 am knowing i had no points left. so it wasn't a shock that i gained.
i just need the two to work together. hand in hand. exercise and healthy choices. i've slightly been trying this week with food but i think i know where i fail when it comes to food.
its the planning. i never plan my meals. or even bring lunch to work. i mean, i usually have lunch out and a lot of the times its tempting to go over what i allot myself for the meal. or sometimes i really don't know whats in it. so i'm constantly guesstimating my points. which is bad, i know. so this week is pretty much shit, cuz its friday and i've already just come back from buying lunch. (but it was a yummy avocado salad!) so on monday next week i'm challenging myself to bring in lunch for a week. it'll also save me money, which i need to do.
so exercise is good. i'm on week 5 of couch to 5 k. i feel SOOOOO great when i work out. but leme tell you its not easy. last time i did C25k i was 10 pounds lighter. and now i feel the weight gain. i can't do it like i did it man. and i'm determined to get back in my size 8 jeans (currently at size 10)
i can, i will! oh yeah...see ya next tuesday. i think i might make a vlog soon.
but i feel like i wanna get my life back together before that...i duno ill see what the deal is. its just easier and less time consuming for me to type right now.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
weighed in yesterday
so I weighed in yesterday at 163.8 lbs @ WW! woo hoo! down 3.8! I never thought I'd be happy to be in like the lower 160's. But whatever, it's progress and closer to the 150's again.
i was soo not gonna go to the meeting. i think sometimes i talk myself into being a lazy ass. i was like "wah wah i know i'm prob the same weight cuz i ate like shit for some days and blah blah". but i went and was down. smh, i need to give myself more credit. yes, i went OVER my weeklys by 4 points. but I also worked out 4 days doing couch to 5k. much better than doing absolutely nothing as i've been doing in the past.
anyway, i'm trying to tackle my eating this week. i mean, its not been perfect but i'm not looking to be perfect. i'm looking to well atleast first get back in the swing of things. you know, staying within my points (its been AGES leme tell ya) and feeling good about my choices. it doesnt have to be super healthy or super clean. but better than it has been.
hmm....i duno. i just have to trust that if i keep up working out and eating better i will lose. and it will come off. and i have to be positive about this experience or else i'll get no where. these past 6 months have proven that.
positive! positve! positive! i am beautiful today even with this extra jiggle!!
i was soo not gonna go to the meeting. i think sometimes i talk myself into being a lazy ass. i was like "wah wah i know i'm prob the same weight cuz i ate like shit for some days and blah blah". but i went and was down. smh, i need to give myself more credit. yes, i went OVER my weeklys by 4 points. but I also worked out 4 days doing couch to 5k. much better than doing absolutely nothing as i've been doing in the past.
anyway, i'm trying to tackle my eating this week. i mean, its not been perfect but i'm not looking to be perfect. i'm looking to well atleast first get back in the swing of things. you know, staying within my points (its been AGES leme tell ya) and feeling good about my choices. it doesnt have to be super healthy or super clean. but better than it has been.
hmm....i duno. i just have to trust that if i keep up working out and eating better i will lose. and it will come off. and i have to be positive about this experience or else i'll get no where. these past 6 months have proven that.
positive! positve! positive! i am beautiful today even with this extra jiggle!!
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
updated weigh ins
I updated my weigh ins over there. I didnt track it really for the first 6 months of 2010 (fell off). But I'm back to doing it. Starting today. ----------------->
i hate the scale
So I went to WW today and weighed in at 167.6. The last time i was there i was 163 point something. That was late May. So kudos to me for going back. But wtf....so mad. Hate the scale. But whatever we'll see what happens next week.
I worked out 5 days last week and I also made better food choices. It wasnt perfect but I didnt drink (except for on the weekend like in the old days) and I tracked everything. Over all I feel good about how my week went. Which is why the scale is such a bummer. But you know what, the scale will catch up to my good doings.
Also, this may be a lil TMI but my body is so out of wack. Last Monday I took Plan B. (You've heard of it before I'm sure.) So anyhoo...this past Sunday I started bleeding like a period. And I had just recently finished my period so I'm thinking the hormones inside my body is on crack or something. I've been bleeding for 3 days as of now like its a period. I'm going to check with my doctor but I'm sure I'm fine. Just out of wack. So I think it has to do with my weight. Because I also feel heavier and bloated like I'm on my cycle because of the bleeding and such. So eh, maybe that has to do with what the scale says now.
So this week I'm doing the Couch 2 5K again. I feel so good everytime I finish a session. I started week 2 yesterday and I'm continuing on. I ran for 90 seconds and walked for 2 minutes of intervals for 20 minutes. Building my way back up to sexy. Lol. I can feel the difference in my energy and my mood and even in the way I walk now. I'm not as sluggish as I was. I feel good.
Hoping for a loss next week! *crosses fingers*
I worked out 5 days last week and I also made better food choices. It wasnt perfect but I didnt drink (except for on the weekend like in the old days) and I tracked everything. Over all I feel good about how my week went. Which is why the scale is such a bummer. But you know what, the scale will catch up to my good doings.
Also, this may be a lil TMI but my body is so out of wack. Last Monday I took Plan B. (You've heard of it before I'm sure.) So anyhoo...this past Sunday I started bleeding like a period. And I had just recently finished my period so I'm thinking the hormones inside my body is on crack or something. I've been bleeding for 3 days as of now like its a period. I'm going to check with my doctor but I'm sure I'm fine. Just out of wack. So I think it has to do with my weight. Because I also feel heavier and bloated like I'm on my cycle because of the bleeding and such. So eh, maybe that has to do with what the scale says now.
So this week I'm doing the Couch 2 5K again. I feel so good everytime I finish a session. I started week 2 yesterday and I'm continuing on. I ran for 90 seconds and walked for 2 minutes of intervals for 20 minutes. Building my way back up to sexy. Lol. I can feel the difference in my energy and my mood and even in the way I walk now. I'm not as sluggish as I was. I feel good.
Hoping for a loss next week! *crosses fingers*
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
reality check
so i just read my first entry in this blog which was the first day i joined weight watchers (sep. 16th 2008) here were my long term goals:
goals (long term):
weigh 160 (weight watchers says 147)
fit into a size 10 jeans
feel healthier
sooooo...it seems that i made those goals. besides the whole 160 thing. i surpassed it and then went back to it. now have a new weight goal. but all in all. i did it. so proud. 2 years ago i didnt think id ever see it. now im here in it wanting to get smaller. heh, never satisfied.
goals (long term):
weigh 160 (weight watchers says 147)
fit into a size 10 jeans
feel healthier
sooooo...it seems that i made those goals. besides the whole 160 thing. i surpassed it and then went back to it. now have a new weight goal. but all in all. i did it. so proud. 2 years ago i didnt think id ever see it. now im here in it wanting to get smaller. heh, never satisfied.
only one way out this hole
man i feel great! i went to the gym last night and ive decided to not keep trying to put on the jeans that dont fit me. since it makes me depressed. instead ill try them on after each month of atleast TRYING to get back in them. lol
i'm at work right now. debating on getting a second cup of coffee. (had one at home)
last night i got home and was really annoyed! i live in the damn hood. so these kids / annoying hatian men who refuse to get jobs and instead make their job annoying me (for the past 7 years) were bothering me. as they do every time i walk in and out of my house.
my patience is wearing thin. anyway...there is a point to this. so i notice that every time i come into the house annoyed (a.k.a everyday) i storm in kiss my little nephew and make a b-line to the kitchen where i can find something to soothe me. it usually ends up being crackers, bread with raw honey, or whatever my mom had made for lunch for my nephew. so thats got to stop.
only YOU can decide how you react to something or how you want to feel about a certain situation. (atleast thats what i'm learning while reading "the 7 habits of highly effective people") hmmm. i wonder if i can change that come this afternoon. will i allow these thugs to ruin my health and sanity!? lol. either that or i move...in with the boyfriend. but thats a whole other subject.
so yup, going to WW at 12 on my lunch time. dont think im officially weighing in but i wanna just go to a meeting since its been 2 weeks.
did this post have a point? duno. but it was fun. i miss blogging about my daily annoyances.
i'm at work right now. debating on getting a second cup of coffee. (had one at home)
last night i got home and was really annoyed! i live in the damn hood. so these kids / annoying hatian men who refuse to get jobs and instead make their job annoying me (for the past 7 years) were bothering me. as they do every time i walk in and out of my house.
my patience is wearing thin. anyway...there is a point to this. so i notice that every time i come into the house annoyed (a.k.a everyday) i storm in kiss my little nephew and make a b-line to the kitchen where i can find something to soothe me. it usually ends up being crackers, bread with raw honey, or whatever my mom had made for lunch for my nephew. so thats got to stop.
only YOU can decide how you react to something or how you want to feel about a certain situation. (atleast thats what i'm learning while reading "the 7 habits of highly effective people") hmmm. i wonder if i can change that come this afternoon. will i allow these thugs to ruin my health and sanity!? lol. either that or i move...in with the boyfriend. but thats a whole other subject.
so yup, going to WW at 12 on my lunch time. dont think im officially weighing in but i wanna just go to a meeting since its been 2 weeks.
did this post have a point? duno. but it was fun. i miss blogging about my daily annoyances.
Monday, June 14, 2010
rock bottom
i doubt anyone still reads this but i need an outlet...and I'm so out of the youtube thing.
so yesterday i stepped on the scale and it said 169. i knew it wasn't an accurate account of my exact weight because i had just eaten as well as finished drinking the night before. but even that meant that i was well into the 160's.
i had almost a breakdown. i cried for like an hour after i wasn't able to make it to the gym to follow my new "schedule" to get my butt back in gear and get back into the 150's. so i was at a lost and my boyfriend kind of gave me tough love. he told me everything will be ok and shoved weights in my hand. for the next hour and a half he basically made me do squats and lifts and crunches and spotted me.
i stopped crying after a few sets and realized i cant just say i wanna lose weight and it magically happen. i have to do the hard work that comes along with it as I've done in the past. But since I've been seeing the 160's for the past month or so on my scale I've just wanted it GONE magically and that cant happen. i cant just quickly move back into the 150's. i have to take it slow as I've before. but i have this want for immediacy. i want the 150's NOW! i want to look and feel how i did a year ago.
but it cant just be like *poof* I'm back to a comfortable weight and loving my body and being happy. i have to make the goals, stick with it. eat less, move more. and then results will appear.
so tomorrow I'm going to weight watchers. I'm making a commitment to the gym 5 days this week as well as sticking to my daily points everyday this week. thats all. nothing too extreme. can't wait for the scale to go back down. and my body and mind to feel better.
so yesterday i stepped on the scale and it said 169. i knew it wasn't an accurate account of my exact weight because i had just eaten as well as finished drinking the night before. but even that meant that i was well into the 160's.
i had almost a breakdown. i cried for like an hour after i wasn't able to make it to the gym to follow my new "schedule" to get my butt back in gear and get back into the 150's. so i was at a lost and my boyfriend kind of gave me tough love. he told me everything will be ok and shoved weights in my hand. for the next hour and a half he basically made me do squats and lifts and crunches and spotted me.
i stopped crying after a few sets and realized i cant just say i wanna lose weight and it magically happen. i have to do the hard work that comes along with it as I've done in the past. But since I've been seeing the 160's for the past month or so on my scale I've just wanted it GONE magically and that cant happen. i cant just quickly move back into the 150's. i have to take it slow as I've before. but i have this want for immediacy. i want the 150's NOW! i want to look and feel how i did a year ago.
but it cant just be like *poof* I'm back to a comfortable weight and loving my body and being happy. i have to make the goals, stick with it. eat less, move more. and then results will appear.
so tomorrow I'm going to weight watchers. I'm making a commitment to the gym 5 days this week as well as sticking to my daily points everyday this week. thats all. nothing too extreme. can't wait for the scale to go back down. and my body and mind to feel better.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
bad food choices feel crappy
not the best of food choices these past 2 days. i don't think i have any weekly's left. i think the whole month of February i should challenge myself not to use my weekly's.
i dont think i have not done that in probably a year or so. i just wanna get back to losing! grrrr. and my period is not help me. :(
i dont think i have not done that in probably a year or so. i just wanna get back to losing! grrrr. and my period is not help me. :(
Monday, January 11, 2010
lazy youtube bum
wow, so ugh. i've been such a lazy bum when it comes to the internet. i work with it all day so the last thing i wanna do when i go home is go on the computer. but i need to make a video this week to keep myself on track. so i'll make it either today or tomorrow. i have been going to my meetings. it's not like i'm totally off the wagon. i'm just not into the youtube ish.
but anyway, i ended up losing i think 1/2 a pound the first sunday of the year and then yesterday when i went to weigh in it said i gained it right back. which is no sweat because i didn't work out not once, i had my period....but *gasp* i didn't overeat like i usually do when i'm on my period. so i'm glad that i had that in check. the gain could have been huge. but it wasn't.
the goal is to finally stop believing that perfection exists. because it doesnt. and its okay not to be perfect in every element of weight loss. as long as at one point they are all being worked on, it works!
but anyway, i ended up losing i think 1/2 a pound the first sunday of the year and then yesterday when i went to weigh in it said i gained it right back. which is no sweat because i didn't work out not once, i had my period....but *gasp* i didn't overeat like i usually do when i'm on my period. so i'm glad that i had that in check. the gain could have been huge. but it wasn't.
the goal is to finally stop believing that perfection exists. because it doesnt. and its okay not to be perfect in every element of weight loss. as long as at one point they are all being worked on, it works!
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