get reeses away from me

i need someone to please come and pry these reeses out of my hand. its a problem. i have 8 (2 point) reeses left and that can be real damage. especially since i ate 5 of them already today. i have like no points left. so for dinner i'm having 0 point soup with some 1 point toast. good thing is that i got my period, hence the chocolate coma. haha, let me stop. i'd have a chocolate coma any day!! why is it so good?

on another note, i went to the ymca today to get info. i should be going back tomorrow to give the money and sign up. hoorah! elliptical here i come! it's a 65 dollar joining fee and it's 38 dollars a month. plus no contract and i can pay cash. waaaay better than bally total fitness. i joined two summers ago and they tried to take me for my money and fuck up my credit. never again. stay away from bally total fitness. i finally got the thing settled last summer and since then they haven't harrassed me. but to this day they harrass my mother who has never stepped foot in a bally total fitness. i hate them.

does anyone ever count down the hours to your next meal? or is it just me?

weigh in 23

today i weighed in at 156.6 pounds! damn u period and over eating!! so...yeah i gained 2.2 pounds. eeek! i feel like a fat shit. and i know i shouldnt feel that way cause a week can change so much but still. i hate gaining. and i hate periods. and i hate it all! fuuuuuck!

i'm going to the ymca tomorrow. that is it! after my weigh in i didnt feel so bad. i hung out with my babes and we went and got thai food. but now that i am alone and the fact that i gained weight has sunk in, i'm not happy. plus god. i'm having the worst pms of my life. i have felt bloaty and soar and all pms shit for bout a week now. when is this shit coming! just come and stop bothering me. grrrr.

*sigh* i'm gonna go work out in a few just to jump start my back in exercise mode. and maybe itll help me feel less soar and bring on the period.

oo so i found a 0 point cereal! well not really found. i always knew it existed but i never wanted to eat it. (fiber one original.) but now i will because its 0 points! i can have that with my 1 point soy milk and some fruit and have a pretty nice 2 point breakfast. sweet!

no new recipes or new nothing this week. i have nothing like parties or social events to hinder my weight loss. its just a normal week. so i can work out, stick with my points and see good results next week. wish me luck.

u suck

grrr. i feel like shit on a stick. i'm bloated and i know my bitch of a period is probably coming early. just in time for weigh in day huh? thanks period. you suck.

oh p.s. check out youtube.com/leraloses. i'm in the process of saving/uploading my video. this late at night? yes. lol. must go to bed though. almost 2 am! gah!

21 day challenge + linked youtube videos coming soon

many of you may have heard about this before. this time i'm sticking to it. starting today! yay. 21 days until my 23rd birthday so i think this little challenge comes to me as a nice little push. the 21 day challenge is for a habit to form. it usually takes about 21 days for you to form a habit. if you do something for 21 days it is likely to stick. for my 21 day challenege i have decided to do these three things:

1) stick to my 22 points each day. (use weekly's only on the weekends)
2) exercise at least 15 minutes each day
3) go to bed by 2 am

so those are 3 things i want to make a habit for myself. i think these are very realistic and it shouldnt be too hard to follow.

i'm also in the process of making my own youtube videos that will link with this blog. i think it will keep me motivated and give me even more accountability. i'll still have healthy black girls with my friend trishia. but those videos are far and few between. i was looking to maybe make weekly videos. cause 1, i enjoy watching weight loss videos on you tube. and 2, it'll be my own accountability. so stay tuned for that. i'm excited. tee hee.

good day.

ahhh. so after my crazy day yesterday, i finally don't feel like i need to binge myself with fattening foods. maybe it was the whole period thing....ugh. sometimes it sucks being a woman since our bodies love to hold on to weight.

anyway, for breakfast i had some life cereal with almond milk (only 3 points, yay!), a cup of grapes. and a starbucks cappucino. then for lunch i got a pepperoni and pineapple pizza for 7 points and had carrot sticks on the side. and i'm cooking dinner right now. mmmm it smells good. its this sausage and vegie stew with potatoes. i saw it on food network and wanted to try it and its 8 points. perfect for dinner.

so yay, i'm within my points. and i may even have a point left so i can have a weight watchers dark chocolate piece. perfect. hopefully i can do this well until monday night because i have no weekly's left. *crosses fingers*

FAIL!

man i FAIL this month. its only wednesday and in one day i'v eaten most of my weekly's and havnt had any good health guidelines in today. maybe except the blueberries that were in my scones and walking for 30 minutes. thats what i get for going out to eat and getting corned beef hash without thinking. grrrr.

i hate this. i hate the guilt i feel for over eating. i just want to stop but i don't know how. why did this have to start now? when i was so close to goal!? i miss the days when i couldnt even eat all of my points. now i'm so over board its not funny.

i feel like i'm pms ing though. and i usually do over eat the week before my period. either way, i should have more willpower. *sigh*

weigh in 22, shut up!

what? no way. i weighed in today at 154.4. a loss of 1.8 pounds? no! this doesnt make sense. i literally ate a bag of reeses peanutbutter cups. woah, the weight watchers gods must have wanted me to be happy or something. lol

so i looked back at my week. it was alot of pasta and chocolate. i had made the beef straganoff with eggnoodles last tuesdays and had left overs for wed. but i stayed within points until friday. then saturday all hell broke loose and i ate and said ah well its part of my weekly's. but i know it wasn't. it was more. but maybe i wasn't counting my good days and focusing on the bad. but really though. the bad outweighed the good. i don't know how it happened but i'm glad it did. i'm not commiting to anything this week. just to do good with my ghg's and of course track.

so close to goal. and oo so close to 25 pounds down! i'm buying the hungry girl book when i hit 25 pounds down. i wonder how its going to be when i have to maintain my weight...

valentines weekend massacre

i'm almost scared to go weigh in tomorrow. i would give in that no weigh in ticket and just go for the meeting but i dont wanna be a punk. i ate poorly, so i should learn from my mistakes right? uuuuuuugh!

so after my valentines chocolate coma my bf and i went to atlantic city and shared a suite with some of his fam. it was fun. nice get away from brooklyn. but oh god, the buffet! and oh god late night chicken bacon sandwich. i wish i could turn back the clock and take the food out of my stomach but its already digested and probably turned into fat.

i feel extra bloated, sluggish and just bad. :( damn!

but whatever, tomorrow is a brand new week. i'm going to weigh in and not be a punk. but i wont look at it until after my meeting is done so i listen to whats actually going on during the meeting rather than mentally beat myself up during the meeting.

tomorrow shows the results of the valentines weekend massacre! haha, stay tuned...

reese's coma

omg. so happy belated valentines day! mine was wonderful but i think i'm gonna see the consequences at my next weigh in. but tomorrow is another day so no moping around even if i do gain. just gotta keep going.

soo omg. i requested it so i know it would have happened. i literally got like a bag full of resses chocolate for v day along with a dinner of italian goodness with wine. i'm sure i had atleast 45 points last night. lol but i saved my weekly's for that day. i dont know what affect it will have on my weightloss cause i've never had that many points in one day. but thank god the next "holiday" is my birthday. so i have about 3 weeks to be a good weight watchers girl. ha.

anyway, reeses = heaven. its one of my vices. i dont regret indulging. i regret that choclate isnt one of the food groups! ha. anyway, back to taking weight loss one step at a time.

hungry girl, i love you!

so since i've joined weight watchers i have learned so much about different foods and different health reasons behind them. i'm trying so hard to stick to my good health guidelines but sometimes you realize that they take up your points. if you follow the ghg's you'll realize that at least 8 of your points are used on them with your milk servings, fruits, and healthy oils.

recently i've been really into hungry-girl.com. i just purchased this milk substitute that she recommends. its called unsweetened vanilla almond breeze. i searched high and low for it in my grocery store. then i googled it and realized that its in a grocery store somewhere on mcdonald and 18th ave (i'm in brooklyn ny). so i was like i'm not taking a bus to go and get this product. so 2 days ago i ordered it online and i already have it! i tried it...its as thin as fat free milk and has more of a soy flavor but i think its a perfect substitute. and its only 1 point for 1 cup! woah! dude! compared to fat free milk which is 2 points for 1 cup. i went bonkers. lol. and it is a good source of calcium and other goodness which is the point of getting in your "milk servings" for the day.

its so important for me to find everything i eat in lower points because as i lost more weight my points went down and it has now become more difficult for me to stay with in points. it used to be that my milk servings would take up 4 of my 22 points. my points are too precious for that. ha! so for now i'll enjoy this. i'm not giving up on milk. i'll just use it less.

i highly recommend hungry-girl.com to anyone on weight watchers! theres a zillion recipes and interesting finds and different ways to make high point foods into low point foods. i made pigs in a blanket from this chick. go. now. you'll love it :)

weigh in 21, thanks for punishment

so my bad choices have finally caught up with me and i'm being punished for it. lol. but it was very much expected. today i weighed in at 156.2 which is a gain of 0.6 of a pound. you know what, i'm not even mad. it finally makes sense. if you eat crap you will gain weight. its true. i didnt listen to my body signals and i ate crapola last week.

so i'm fine with my gain because i know next week it will be gone. i'm getting back into my weight lifting. kinda miss that feeling.

anyway so i went to the mall today with stacy before my weigh in and i went to charlotte rousse where i usually buy my jeans and i tried on a size 11 and it looked so sexy. lol. except the shit was extra long so i couldnt purchase it. grrrrr. whatever i guess i'll go another time.

i expect to lose next week even though its valentines weekend and i will have chocolate and liqour. but all in moderation and within points. i'm saving up my weekly's this week just for that. never depriving myself though. one thing i am depriving myself is cakes and donuts. none! not one bite until my birthday (march 12th). those are big trigger foods for me. so i have to cut it out.

anyway, have a good week!

finally a "healthy" BMI range

Ahhh! so I was curious about my BMI because when i first started weight watchers my BMI was 28. Which was in the overweight category. Before that and before my yearly summer weight loss I weighed 187 which gave me a BMI of 29.3. oh lord just .7 more and I would have been called "Obese". Woah America. But now, since I've lost 23 pounds America says I'm healthy...wow. I'd still love not to be so close to the over weight category. But still this is something to celebrate.


Your BMI is 24.4

18.5 - 24.9 Healthy Weight For Most Adults According to medical experts, your weight falls into the healthy range, it represents the lowest level of risk for heart disease, diabetes and hypertension. To further reduce your risk, focus on healthy eating with a menu that is low in saturated fat, and rich in fruits, vegetables and whole grains, as well as staying active for life.* Congratulations to you if you have recently reduced your weight to this level; staying committed to your healthy lifestyle will help you maintain both your weight and your well-being.

*Obes Res. 1998; 6(suppl 2): 110S.
BMI Categories

* Underweight: Less than 18.5
* Normal weight: 18.5 - 24.9
* Overweight: 25 - 29.9
* Very Overweight: Over 30

lets just call this my fat week

lol. i have given in to every temptation in the world. i had liqour, i had a donut, i had cake, i stuffed myself and almost threw up. *sigh* i think its cuz i woke up in the morning...ate really light and then didnt eat for like 8 hours so i was extremely hungy. so i cooked up some pasta and ate too much of it...then i had made angel food cake which is not so bad. but the mix with the pasta didnt go well with my tum tum. but eating too much in my mind is sort of like a normal persons eating habits. i really do believe my stomach cant take too much anymore.

but then last night i'm chillin with my boyfriend at his friends house and we order tacos. right before that i went to their bathroom and weighed myself to make sure my over eating this week didnt screw me up too much and their digital scale said i weighed 155.4. so far that means lost .2 of a pound....hmm. but then i had tacos and went out with my friends and didnt feel like i made wise decisions. so i'll see if tuesday will show.

even though, i'm not gonna let the scale determine my happiness. and its so weird because it feels like the more mistakes i make and the more i eat people keep telling me i'm wasting away. lol...prob because they are not used to me at this size yet. but anyway, i have 5 more pounds to go. and i'll be acoomplished.

i went to target the other day and wanted so badly to buy the hungry girl book and a few more books. so i've decided to make that my present for when i hit my 25 pound mark. that should be in about 2 pounds. so maybe thats motivation for me to stop shoving things like 6 point doughnuts in my mouth. *sigh*

weigh in 20

the results are in! i weighed in today at 155.6 pounds. which is a loss of 1 whole pound this week. which is what i was aiming for. woot!

so the simply filling technique really does work. hehe. i recommend it to anyone who wants a break from tracking and portioning. you just have to know your body signals and when you are full.

i have really started slacking off on my exercise though. and what do you know i walk in to my weight watchers meeting today and the book i get is "book 9: beyond walking". for the past 2 weeks i have only done my exercise video once. once! in two weeks. i used to do it at least 3 times. i still get my walking in because of my dog and the fact that i pretty much try to walk everywhere i go. but besides that i'd really love to have an exercise routine. i would join a gym but i don't have the money for that at this time. so i'm going to stick to my dvd's and walking until i'm able to join. but sometimes its hard to push yourself to exercise when you are sitting at home. but i must make it a routine!

back to counting tomorrow

so its back to counting my 22 points a day tomorrow morning. the simply filling technique was a nice break from tracking my points. but if felt too limited at times. its much more structured because there are many more rules but I don't work on a planned and prepared kind of day when it comes to food. i wake up and choose from what i have in my house. with the simply filling technique you need to be prepared. it is doable and it wasnt as hard as i thought it was going to be. but i would love the option of grabbing a sandwich or having real sugar to be back in my plan. lol. so back to counting.

i did try a new recipe and was open to a few more things with this technique though. i might try it again if i ever feel i need more of a structured diet until i reach my goal.

i'm going to try and aim for 1 pound a week. it'll be great to make my first goal by my 23rd birthday (march 12th). but i'm not gonna stress it. i think slow and steady wins the race. :)