"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass its about dancing in the rain."

the blob

i feel like the blob.

i just had chili w/ rice and i dont know how many points it was. grr. i start my day fine, then bullshit happens. hate it! hate it! hate it!

next week, i have no events or any thing special. i should do simply filling so it'll force me to not eat out.

and now i gotta find my really old camera. i can't make youtube videos cuz mine broke :(

going forward no matter what

i feel a little defeated because i stepped on the scale and it wasnt to my liking. plus yesterday i wanted to exercise yesterday and i didnt. instead i passed out on my bed after eating and eating and eating.

i've felt very sad since i came back from my vaca. probably because i just jumped right back into going to work and i had no time to get back to life really. my stuff is still at my bf's house. so i havent unpacked and my mind just feels a little hay wired and hectic. i wanna feel a little more grounded this week. so i'm happy it's friday.

i just need to force myself this weekend to exercise today and tomorrow. go to my meeting on sunday morning. take my weight as it is and move forward.

it's december. *sigh* 150 isnt looking like it'll come in 4 weeks. but that's because i can't see it. i can't visualize it because i'm constantly looking back when i should just remmeber that all i can do is go forward instead of wining about what i COULD have done.

anyhoo, my foods have basically been in check since tuesday. points wise. so i shouldnt freak out so much. but i just feel blah. and i need something to kick me out of it. and i bet you exercising would. so i'm going today. and cooking dinner today also. i havent cooked for myself in a while.

focusing on today

my whole body hurts from playing wii for like 3 hours yesterday. ugh. lol. plus its cold outside and i rather be in my bed under the covers. but i'm at work and it's pretty slow here today. they really should have given us the day off.

my eating this weekend was horrible. there were good attempts at eating healthy. like ordering tilapia instead a fatty mc fat fat meal but i still ate the bread and the wine and felt like throwing up from eating too big of a portion.

i wish i had a little person always with me saying, "PUT DOWN THE BREAD, NOW!". but alas, i don't. there's just me. so i have to learn to control myself. i've had such awesome control in the past. it feels like it is just slipping away.

so today i'm just focusing on today. and not what i'm eating tomorrow or anything. i'm focusing on the quality of food i put in my system today.

and i'm weighing in at home because i really rather go home than spend monday night in a meeting i dont wanna sit in. lol. (plus i forgot my monthly pass, oops) man, i have to find a regular meeting again. this is killing my ww buzz.

my back hurts

my back hurts and i feel very snacky. its gotta be coming...lol. i know the scales gonna reflect tomorrow. not sure if i can make the damn meeting tomorrow either way. because i made a promise to go check out this apt. damn. but where theres a will...if anything, ill check my weight in the morning @ home and go to a meeting on my lunch on tuesday. mondays are usually more busy so cant do that tomorrow.

i did fine this week besides my mishap last night with liqour and pizza. i even gym-ed 3 days. but whatever the scale says, i still feel pretty happy wih this body. :)

i wana get back into cooking and planning meals. this weeks goal! im cooking tomorrow! the only thing thatll stop me is if the period really does come and im wining in bed like a baby which is what i usually do on the first day. *sigh*

hello hello hello

i totally got thrown off track this weekend and didn't go to a weigh in. boo to me for not prioritizing my life.

but i'm going after work tonight to a 5:45 pm meeting right outside my job. if i like the leader i may make it a permanent change until i find out that my original leader is back. i may still also check out a weekend meeting next sat or sun. because i rather do ww more on my personal time and not during the work week. but we'll see what goes.

this weigh in may be a toss up. i ate well up until this saturday when i spend the weekend with my boyfriend and ate like a cow just because. lol. but i did try a new aerobics class and did the treadmill this week. so who knows. i'll see at 5:45. then a video tonight! yipee! :)

oops

oopsy oops. been neglecting this thing. i have had many food comas for the past 2 weeks. lots of self sabatoging. still maintaining. but learning every day that this is a process and i'm going through it. and still not giving up. i'm currently at 156.1 pounds. cant plan too much for the future. just the NOW. see ya next weigh in.

weigh in 43

so last week i had no weigh in. and this week i weighed in but just have been either occupied with someone else, tired, or just lazy to do a video or come on the internet and post my stats. so here it is. i weighed in at 157.8 pounds. that is a gain of 2.2 pounds! i was surprised it wasnt more. really. i know what i ate. it shoudl have been more. good thing i exercise.

but anyway, it was from 2 weeks of bad eating, bbq's, and just over all fail to prepare. now that i'm in my second week of work i know what to bring to work and my routine is now down packed! so i feel a whole lot better this week. i havent been going to the gym as often as i'd like. (blame that on standing in line for hours to see harry potter, ha!) but i've gone twice this week so far. and my goal is atleast 3 times a week. and i have this weekend to gain some more activity. i feel great this week! my body feels loose and not stiff. my spirits are up! and i'm just happy even though the scale did me wrong, lol.

here's to a great weigh in next tuesday! happy weekend!

tired, dehydrated, cafeeinated out!!!

so today was my first day at my internship. and its all my fault that i'm tired. i couldnt sleep last night. i went to bed at 1. and woke up earlier than my alarm. so i prob had about 4 and a half hours of sleep.

i have eaten within my points. but i just feel icky. because i had three cups of coffee today and lack of sleep. i feel like when i'm extra tired, coffee doesnt help. and my body hurts from who knows what. because i havent really been gyming it hard this past week. at all. probably my evil period. which is also adding to the ickyness.

but now that i have a structured schedule of actually waking up in the wee morning and going to a place of work i have to figue out when i'm going to the gym. and i have to plan better for what to bring to work also. so that i eat better and not go outside and waste money on crapola food.

yup, off to it i go. because id like to be asleep in 1 hour....

weigh in 41

so, first time ever that i've actually maintained my exact weight. i weighed in yesterday at 155.6 pounds. no gain, no loss. wow. so i guess i ate enough food to sustain my weight. but i also worked out 5 days. duno what happened. but i'm not complaining. so i started June off at 158.6...so in the month of June i lost 3 pounds! yay, here's to more weight loss!

oo, i got a paid internship. i got the call this afternoon and i start monday. so elated!!!! now i'll have an actual schedule. so i have to see where working out fits in and which new meeting i want to go to. i may still be able to make my weight watchers meeting because they moved it to 6:30 now in a different place. i'll see. cuz the meeting i went to in the city yesterday was at 6 and i really liked the leader. maybe i'll switch off and on.

anyhoo.....hope i lose this week. even though its 4th of july. and you know them bbq's! damn summer and their yummy foods. just have to find alternatives and be prepared when i get to the bbq. :)

weigh in 40

i weighed in today at 155.6 lbs. exactly 1 pound loss. i worked very hard and only loss a pound. :( now i understand when people bitch about losing too little. because you expect more. maybe i should never set high standards. i allowed the scale to make me mad for a bit. but then i got over it when i realized....hey, i lost weight! lol. so all's goody in the hoody.

gotta be careful this week though. i want to lose at least a pound next tuesday and i'm going to be hanging out and drinking this weekend with my friends. i'm going to come equipt with my weight watchers frozen din din's and stuff so i wont be tempted to eat like i'm on vacation...cuz i'm not. it'll be a challenge but i'll remember that i wanna see the scale move!

weigh in 39

shit, this is my 40th week on weight watchers. lol.

i weighed in yesterday at my meeting at 156.6. which is a loss of 2 pounds! wahooo! i didnt expect it since i totally went overboard when i spent the weekend with my boyfriend. but i guess in the end my activity balanced out my crap food. this week i'm determined to slowly remove crap food and bring back in the healthy food, lean proteins, nice fresh fruits and vegetables and lots o' water! i'm aiming for another 2 pound loss so i can end up around 154. can u tell i'm determined for june loss? lol.

anyway, so last night i stayed up just watching youtube videos. now i'm kicking myself for it cuz i'm tired. and plus when i stay up is when i get the munchies. and ofcourse i dipped into my weeklys or maybe activity points. cuz it wasnt too much munching. it was peanutbutter and strawberries. but it was all measured. and i also had a 0 point hot chocolate to get the urge off of eating any more sweets. sweets will be the death of me. i swear.

anyway, today feels good though. i had a good breakfast and i'm going to work out about 30 minutes after my lunch. no more slackness! its time to get serious about these last few pounds.

weigh in 38

mmm i just made spicy black bean soup off of the weight watchers website. and the serving was so filling and it was yummy! i love things like that. and only 3 points. :) perfect for lunches.

but anywya, i made a weigh in youtube video. but i'll still post it here. i weighed in at 158.6. blast!!!! an hour before i weighed in at weight watchers i checked my own scale at home and it said 157.6. but i was naked. eh, i'm on my period so i'm decided to blame 1.6 from two weeks ago on it. lol. even though i know i wasnt the best weight watchers girl this past week.

but these numbers cant keep on rising because i dont wanna be out of the 150's. i mean i hate this weight phase but i dont wanna go even further back. so i'm really watching what im eating even though i'm on my period. i had 22 points today. and my day is over! (yay me!) and if i feel like i need somehting to eat i'll have some 0 point jello. i already had 0 point hot chocolate to curb my chocolate craving. its always nice to have 0 points things ready and available.

anyway, i'm going to starighten up my room then go to sleep. gym tomorrow. hard! i wanna see if i can sign up for spinning.

binging

what to do after a binge? i so don't wanna eat today. i wanna rid my body of all the toxins i've ingested! i really really hate this. so yesterday by 4 pm i had 3 points left for dinner. which is VERY dangerous for me. because then i usually plan to have 0 point soup or something but that never works out because i then don't feel satisfied and i do something to try and help me feel satisfied and it usually turns into some kind of binge.

it started out fine. i ate my tilapia fish for dinner and gave my self some wiggle room with weeklys and had butternut squash and a 2 point busicuit i had made. but during the night those buscuits became six buiscuits down the hatch!!! and i kept drinking from my boyfriends beer. so i get home feeling extremely gulity!!! i also felt a lot of anxiety. i was thinking of how much exercise i would have to do to burn all that shit off. so ofcourse at 1 am i was not happy with myself. what do i continue to do? EAT! wtf is wrong with me? so 2 (3 point) fiber one pastries, 2 (3 point) fiber one peanut butter bars (man, i'm full of fiber lol), milk, and a banana dipped in starwberry jam. i finally managaed to fall asleep at 6 am. mentally kicking myself. i calculated it this morning and i'm about 11 points OVER my weekly's. possibly more.

lord where do i go from here? do i try my best to eat healthy? do i do what i want to do and just not eat which i know is horrible? or do i push that binge aside and keep going, sticking to 22 points a day? i'm sooooo frustrated. i want this weight off but random spurts like this always derail me!

meeting but no weigh in

so i went to my meeting but decided not to weigh in. even though, that morning i stepped on my own scale and it said i lost a pound. i dont trust it. but whatever. but now i'm thinking maybe i shoulda weighed in and skipped next tuesday cause my period is due on the 8th. damn! lol. ah well, if i "gain" i'll know its because of my period cause i'm back on the ball.

so i was thinking maybe i should make some goals to re motivate myself. i think the whole month of may i had no loss. so sad. i dont like wasting money and that was 40 dollars of no weight loss. lol. so this june i'm determined to atleast end the month with a loss. itll be nice if i actually hit 150 (lord please get me there) but an over all loss for the month needs to be done.

they didnt say this weight loss thing was easy right? i mean, you want something. you can picture yourself at a certain weight and happy but why dont we continue to take the steps to get there? i think it all comes down to motivation. and in may a lot of motivation for basically everything in life was gone. but we have to re motivate ourselves. we need to tell ourselves that if we keep going we will get there. and i will get there!

miami vaca

if i havent gained 50 pounds this weekend, i will be shocked. lol. omg miami was CRAZZZZZY! i dont think there was one moment where i wasnt buzzzed as soon as we left the hotel room that first day. masses amounts of liqour! poor food choices. no counting points. but i wouldnt take it back for nothing. i had too much fun. but i'm contemplating on weigh in tomoorrow. i know i gained because i know what i did. so i figure i should go to the meeting and skip weigh in part because do i really need to know the complete damage? ha. i'm still seeing about it. its tomorrow so i'll decide by then. but anyway, good times. i needed that mini vaca.

but i'm back to normal eating today. it felt good to eat an apple. lol. my poor body is probably confused as to what i'm doing to it. lol.

weigh in 36

laziness is a crime. i'm not making a video. i just came back from the gym and i want dinner. whatever. i'll do it when i come back from miami. but um....

i weighed in today at 157. wtf? 2.2 gain? i mean i know i went a little over board but not that overboard. but i'm not sweating it. my clothes don't feel any different and my stomach is not a huge mess and sometimes that's how i measure my success. ha! u cant be sad every time you have a gain. you know what you eat, you know how much you move. so you just gotta roll with it. so my dream of boarding the plane at 152 is shot but that's fine. last time i was in miami i was pushing 190. so i'm happy to be going back a lot lighter.

anyhoo...so gained some...not that much of a surprise. and i'm just ready to be on the beach. i'm totally looking up strategies on staying on plan on vacation. i'm bringing lots of fiber one bars, bringing apple slices and saving all of my weeklys. i'm so excited!

weigh in 35....whew!

ok, so i went to weigh in today and it felt good to be back. i weighed in at 154.8. so 0.8 up from 2 weeks ago. but i dont think i was ever happy to see that much of a gain. the first day of my period (last thursday) i stepped on the scale and it said 159.something...so i was very bummed, but then i realized it may be period bloat and all. and it was!

but man, i feel like last week i was basically off of weight watchers. i mean, i tracked but i ate horribly! doughnuts, liqour, 3 am burgers. you woulda thought i relapsed. lol. so 0.8 is nothing to me! i was actually happy because i felt like today was a new start and a new re focus.

also, i booked a weekend trip to miami and i leave on the 29th of may. so i gave myself a lil mini goal to be 152 pounds the day that i board the plane. i know i can do it. i've done it before. but i also want to pass that number already! so i hve 10 days. and i'm totally on plan! its been a good eating day so far. :)

i'm gonna get back to my youtube-ing, next tuesday i think. i kind of enjoy not making a video of my weigh in....i was going to do it today, but i need to get to the gym. so one more week away wont hurt. anyhoo off to work my booty and get some abs for miami!

not going to weigh in

i feel a bit guilty that i'm doing this today but i think it has to be done. i have not missed one meeting since september. meaning, i've never missed a weight watchers meeting. i'm thinking should i go and not weigh in? but i really dont even feel like listening to advice.

i just want to be this week. i dont want to think about re-starting my diet. i want to just do. not plan. so i'm not going to my meeting today. i'm taking a much needed break from everything. i'm just focusing on cleaning out my room and extra room because i have to paint soon.

i'm eating well. i havent gone overboard. excercise is going well. i'm very soar. my period is also coming very soon so i dont feel like my weigh in would be accurate. and i'm very sensitive these days. the scale can prob make me not want to do anything for the rest of the day but cry and eat. i want this part of my life to be done with already. i'm not happy. but i hope i soon will be.

i'll weigh in next week for sure. wont fall too far off the bandwagon.

weigh in # 33 + impromptu social networking break

i weighed in at 154.0 yesterday. up 1.6 from last week.

i'm also taking an impromptu social networking break. i basically stopped all notifications from everything and deleted the apps for facebook twitter and you tube emails from my phone.

i think social networking sites are a fabulous tool....when used wisely. when you have so much free time like i do, they can sometimes become too much of your time. and i dont enjoy that. i've done this many times before. usually in the summer months. but i think i need atleast a week if not the whole month of may.

i dont think journal sites are social networking since i basically express myself in writing just as i would do on paper in my real journal. so i'm keeping these to blog my weight loss progress and keep up with life as i've been doing since the year 2002 when i started blogging.

anyway, i'm hoping to stay focused on my situations at hand and taking away extra distractions is exactly what i need to do. i dont really need notice of breaking, but i felt like saying it somewhere. even though, i basically read this and post my weight to keep me accountable. till next tuesday. i'm outie. :)

weigh in # 32

i didnt put weigh in # 31 because i didnt weigh in. but this week i weighed in at 152.4. up.2 from 2 weeks ago. the scale is getting so hard to budge i guess now that i've been losing for so long. is this a sign from god telling me i'm pretty much done?

i'm in this weird place right now. and i want to get out of it. i think once everything else falls into place....the weight loss will kick back up again.

back to points

so back to counting points tomorrow. i have to stop thinking of points as evil and small. and more of plentiful. yes i have 22 points, but some people have like 18! and i was just not utilizing them in the correct way for a very long time. i had a system a long time ago and for some reason the system worked and now i was off that system and disaster striked and i kept gaining and losing.

simply filling definitely helped me out with that need to have sweets all the time. i wonder if there is a way to combine simply filling and points. i'm sure there is. just make sure to eat filling portions of things for my points.

tomorrow is my weigh in. not sure how well its going to be because i just got my period. and i kinda cheated and stepped on my bathroom scale and it said i was 154 point something. i'm ok with that because i know i usually have gains on my period. i'm not gonna punk out and not weigh in either. i'm just gonna take it as it is and keep on trucking. cuz at the end of the day, i'm still losing this weight.

SF Food Log 4-16-09

breakfast:
-3 scrambled eggs w/ salsa, spinach, red & green peppers
-starbucks coffee w/ fat free milk

snack:
-1 grapefruit
-crackers, jelly and peanut butter (FAIL!!!!! - most of my weekly's :( )

lunch:
-1 tilapia filet
-3/4 cup heinz vegetarian beans
-sauteed onions

snack:
-pineapple chunks (canned in own juices)

dinner:
-plain oatmeal w/ applesauce mixed in
-1 cup fat free milk w/ diet hot coa coa

SF Food Log 4-15-09

breakfast:
-3 scrambled eggs w/ ff cheese
-coffee w/ fat free milk + 1 tbsp brown sugar (1 point)

snack:
-1 grapefruit
-coffee w/ fat free milk + 1 tbsp brown sugar (1 point)

lunch:
-1 lamb pieces
-2 small baked potato drizzled w/1 tsp of olive oil and 1 tbsp of sour cream (1 point)
-1 cup mixed vegetables

snack:
-5 saltine crackers (1 point)
-2 tsp peanut butter (1 point)
-5 tsp strawberry preserves(1.5 point)

dinner:
-chicken noodle soup

weigh in 30

152.2! woooooooh! 3 pounds this week. i love you simply filling. :)

SF Food Log 4-14-09

breakfast:
-fiber one cereal
-fat free milk (1 cup)
-coffee w/ brown sugar (1 point)
-1 banana
-handful of blueberries

snack:
-5 saltine crackers (1 point)
-grapes
-10 baby carrots
-apple sauce

lunch/dinner:
-2 lamb pieces
-2 small baked potato drizzled w/1 tsp of olive oil and 1 tbsp of sour cream (1 point)
-1 cup mixed vegetables

snack:
-weight watchers amaretto cheesecake yogurt (1 point)
-1 macaroon (1 point)

activity:
-treadmill (walk/jog), 30 minutes
-elliptical, 15 minutes

SF Food Log 4-13-09

breakfast:
-cream of wheat made with ff milk
-sugar in the raw (1 point)
-1 banana sliced
-1/2 grapefruit
-dunkin donuts medium latte lite

lunch:
-left over shrimp and grits w/ 1 slice ff cheese
-1/2 cup heinz vegetarian beans
-10 asparagus spears

snack:
-home made cup of coffee w/ 2 tbsp evaporated milk (1 point)
-other half of grapefruit

dinner:
-1 baked tilapia filet
-2 baked plantains
-sauteed onion, green & red peppers w/ olive oil
-beer (3 points)

activity:
-treadmill (walk/jog) 30 minutes
-walking the dog, 40 minutes leisure walk

SF Food Log 4-12-09

brunch:
@ i hop:
-2 eggs over medium
-2 slices of bacon (3 points)
-1 pancake (2 points)
- roughly 2 tbsp of pancake syrup (2 points)
-coffee w/ 2 tbsp of half and half (1 point)

snack:
-grapes
-vanilla chai tea w/ 1 tsp of sugar in the raw

dinner:
-shrimp (2 oz) w/gravy made from chicken broth
-grits
-asparagus

activity:
-treadmill (walk/jog), 20 minutes
-elliptical, 30 minutes
-toning (weight watchers dvd), 20 minutes
-yoga, 20 minutes

SF Food Log 4-11-09

breakfast:
-fiber one cereal
-fat free milk
-1 banana
-coffee w/ fat free milk & 1tbsp sugar (1 point)

lunch:
-original farina w/ unsweetened applesauce
-1 apple
-diet hot chocolate w/fat free milk

dinner:
-chicken thigh
-1/2 potato
-2 cups baby spinach
-1/2 cup vegetarian beans
-sauteed red onion w/ 2 tsp olive oil

activity:
-treadmill (walk/jog) 60 minutes

SF Food Log 4-10-09

breakfast:
-spinach and mushroom egg white omlette
-1/4 cup ketchup
-1 banana
-cup of bengal spice tea

lunch:
-salad w/ left over shrimp, romain lettuce, 1/2 can tuna, 2 tsp evoo, balsamic vinegar
-1/2 cup broccoli
-1/4 cup brown sauce

snack:
-diet swiss miss hot chocolate made w/ fat free milk
-apple

dinner:
-rotisserie chicken breast cut up
-whole wheat spaghetti
-1/2 cup classico sauce (1 point)
-mixed vegetables
-small salad

SF Food Log 4-9-09

breakfast:
-cream of wheat w/ 1 cup soy milk, ground cinnamon, and ground nutmeg
-3 tsp of sugar in the raw (1 point)
-2 tsp of evaporated milk (0.5 point)
-1 banana

lunch:
-tossed salad
-2 tsp evoo
-2 tsp balsamic vinegar
- pieces of rotisserie chicken (skinless)

snack:
orange

dinner:
-5 pieces of shrimp
-1 cup broccoli
-brown rice
-brown sauce (1 point)

late night snacking:
2 mrs. field cookies (12 point, thank god for weeklys!)
swiss miss diet hot chocoalte made with fat free milk
1 banana

SF Food Log 4-8-09

breakfast:
-2 scrambled eggs w/scallion (1 tsp of olive oil)
-1 slice of cheese (1 point)
-2 tbsp salsa
-cup of bengal spice tea w/ 2 tsp sugar in the raw (0.5 point)

snack:
-fage greek fat free yogurt
-sliced kiwi fruit
-1/4 cup fiber one cereal

lunch:
-progresso split pea w/bacon soup
-2 slices of whole wheat light bread (1 point)
-2 tsp of strawberry preserves (0.5 point)

snack:
-banana
-swiss miss diet hot chocolate (0 point)
-1 cup soy milk

dinner:
-braised chicken thigh
-baked sweet potato
-asparagus
-weight watchers chocolate fudge brownie ice cream (2 point)

activity:
- 30 min. treadmill

weigh in # 29

so i weighed in yesterday at 155.2. i'm up 0.4. not sweating it though because i'm so inspired and happy about the simply filling technique. and i believe in it and i find that i have much more control over what i eat when i'm slightly restricted.

so the new food plan is going well so far. and i'll keep going with my food log.

SF Food Log 4-7-09

so i'm back on the "simply filling technique" this week. i just wanted to write down my foods to keep me even more accountable for what i eat. so here's my log for today. simply filling allows you to choose from a list of "filling foods". when you see points, that means i have used some of my weekly points allowance. (which you still get on the simply filling technique. woot!)

breakfast:
-cream of wheat w/ ground cinnamon and ground nutmeg
added: 3 tsp of sugar in the raw (1 point)
2 tsp of evaporated milk (0.5 point)
-1 grapefruit
- cup of bengal spice tea
added: 1 tsp of sugar in the raw (0 point)
1 tsp of evaporated milk (0 point)

lunch:
salad w/ baby spinach, canned tuna, 1 hard boiled egg, cucumber, red onion, 2 tsp olive oil, 2 tsp cider vinegar, salt and black pepper (YUM!)

snack:
yo plait light strawberry and banana (2 point)

dinner:
-chicken breast (cut up)
-roasted asparagus
-baked sweet potato
-2 tbsp fat free sour cream

activity:
-30 minutes walking on treadmill
-20 minutes moderate on elliptical machine

weigh in 28

one step forward. two steps back. *sigh* i weighed in yesterday at 154.8. the same exact weigh i was 2 weeks ago! so i gained 2.2 pounds. but i knew i was going to gain. i even wore jeans to my way in for the first time in like 5 months because i figured whats the use...i knew i gained. (i usually wear spandex)

but i'm getting back on track so that i can see steady weight loss. new month, new attitude! i'm also looking forward to hitting the 140's. yes. i'm done with the 150's and i'm excited to try new territory. so far i've been doing good (yesterday and today) and i'm about to hit the gym.

i know i have the ability to do this. i just have to put my mind to it and stop slacking off.

no weigh in pass

i'm extremely tempted to use the "no weigh in" pass at my next weigh in. especially after the week i've had. my good health guidelines are shit. i feel achy. and my period finally just ended today. hmmm.

or should i just own up to whatever weight i am this week and celebrate it no matter what?

i should have used the no weigh in pass after my birthday. lol. but eh whatever. man, its just too many birthdays, too much liqour and too much cake for the month of march and april! lol

weigh in 27

152.6 was the weigh in yesterday. a loss of 2.2 pounds. that was very surprising seeing as i pigged out last week. i almost don't believe the scale this week. because it likes to fuck with me.

this week should be good though. even though i woke up this morning with my period. it isnt a bad one. i'm not hurting as much as i could be hurting. so i'm still going to the gym in 2 hours.

alright, not much to say since i have much to do. i'm out.

i hate this

i just want to eat and eat. and i can never tell when to stop. its like im in some "feed me" trance right before my period and i'm scared its going to sabatoge me this week. :(

i need to take control though. i totally have control of what i put into my mouth. its crazy. i know i dont need it but then i eat it anyway. i had 37 points today. most of it was crackers, jelly and ice cream. tsk tsk. i guess all i can do is hide the food and do better tomorrow. i mean my week isnt wrecked or anything. unless i keep going down this road. i just need to stick to this number: 22! 22 points chick! that's all you need to have!

maybe i should just look at my weight watchers book and eat what they tell me to eat. this way its more strict. i have too much freedom right now. especially the week before period week. thats dangerous.

weigh in 26, weight day # 182

so i counted the days since i've joined weight watchers and its been 182 days. wow. long time. 6 months officially yesterday. i like my progress so far.

hate that i stepped on the scale today and weighed in at 154.8. 1 pound gain. especially when i stuck to my points and exercised 4 days. but i have to take in account that it's the week before my period and maybe my body is being funky.

i don't feel heavier. i actually fit into a size 9 jeans today. so all is good in the way my body feels. its just that fucking scale.

in other news my mom wants to try weight watchers with me because she needs surgery and they told her she needs to lose weight before she does surgery. so i'm excited to count her points and make sure she's having good health guidelines each week. because she's doing it from me, not paying for it. fun!

i made corned beef and cabbage today in honor of st. patty's day. it turned out to be only 6 points for dinner! woot! and it incorporated both healthy oils and vegetables. score! yum, i think i can make that any day.

weigh in 25

ahhh! i lost! i lost!!!!!!!!! *dances*

i weighed in today at 153.8 pounds. a loss of exactly 3 pounds. hard work does pay off. yes!

i don't expect to lose much next week. i expect to at least maintain because its my birthday week and you know how that goes. but my ass is still going to the gym whenever i can. i'm still sticking to my mon, wed, fri thing. and if i can i'll stick in more gym time on the weekend to balance out the cake, liqour, and good old fashion dinner i will be eating come this weekend. lol. hey your birthday is only once a year. :)

oh. i'm officially down 25 pounds! i'm so happy because i promised myself the hungry girl book at 25 pounds down. time to go shopping on amazon! i hope i can sustain this loss. to the gym i go!

burn baby burn!

i have been in the gym this past week more than i've been in the entire year of 2008! i went last monday, wednesday and friday. then i went again sunday that just passed. and then i went this afternoon. and i'm going tomorrow, i hope! i just love it!

so i scheduled myself to go to the gym mondays, wednesdays, and fridays. i'm tryna build up to 5 days a week. but as you can see i've already been going extra days. i want to go tomorrow because i know this week i will be having extra fat foods because it's my birthday week. i will not deprive myself of cake and liqour. ha!

i usually try to gain 3 to 4 activity points on the days i go to the gym and at least 1 on the days i don't go. so i do the treadmill for 30 minutes (walking and jogging) then i do the elliptical for 20 or 30 minutes depending on how i feel that day.

i hope these workouts pay off. i feel energized though and my body is so much easier to move around...if thats how you say it. i've also not dipped into my weekly's this week! i am so proud! its been a long struggle since 2009 started. i've been like off the band wagon but i feel like i got back on this week. tomorrow is weigh in day and i hope my hard work pays off. i've heard of people going to the gym and gaining. i dont understand that. but i know i did the work, now show me some results! please. hehe.

weigh in 24

i shouldnt be up. grr. 21 day challenge not going so well. maybe next time i should only choose one thing.

weighed in today at 156.8. i'm up 0.2. eh. nothing. the gym will catch up and my period just ended. so the craving of endless junk has stopped. i even had 5 points left for the day today! (well yesterday, its very late) bad. but i'm not gonna force myself to eat at night if i'm not hungry. i'm loosely following the meals they give us in book 1 to try and get back on the bandwagon. 3 point breakfasts....6 point lunches and so on. i feel better.

but anyway, check out my youtube video and youtube.com/leraloses.

i'm not dipping into weekly's this week. not for nothing. i told my boyfriend to literally smack any kind of junk food out of my hand if he sees me. i went over his house a few hours ago and he had donuts. DAMN! i tried to fight him for it. but he was good and i didnt eat any. lol. my b day is next thursday anyway. i can wait about a week to have some cake. :) till then...i'm at the gym hard body.

i want to lose!!!!!!

get reeses away from me

i need someone to please come and pry these reeses out of my hand. its a problem. i have 8 (2 point) reeses left and that can be real damage. especially since i ate 5 of them already today. i have like no points left. so for dinner i'm having 0 point soup with some 1 point toast. good thing is that i got my period, hence the chocolate coma. haha, let me stop. i'd have a chocolate coma any day!! why is it so good?

on another note, i went to the ymca today to get info. i should be going back tomorrow to give the money and sign up. hoorah! elliptical here i come! it's a 65 dollar joining fee and it's 38 dollars a month. plus no contract and i can pay cash. waaaay better than bally total fitness. i joined two summers ago and they tried to take me for my money and fuck up my credit. never again. stay away from bally total fitness. i finally got the thing settled last summer and since then they haven't harrassed me. but to this day they harrass my mother who has never stepped foot in a bally total fitness. i hate them.

does anyone ever count down the hours to your next meal? or is it just me?

weigh in 23

today i weighed in at 156.6 pounds! damn u period and over eating!! so...yeah i gained 2.2 pounds. eeek! i feel like a fat shit. and i know i shouldnt feel that way cause a week can change so much but still. i hate gaining. and i hate periods. and i hate it all! fuuuuuck!

i'm going to the ymca tomorrow. that is it! after my weigh in i didnt feel so bad. i hung out with my babes and we went and got thai food. but now that i am alone and the fact that i gained weight has sunk in, i'm not happy. plus god. i'm having the worst pms of my life. i have felt bloaty and soar and all pms shit for bout a week now. when is this shit coming! just come and stop bothering me. grrrr.

*sigh* i'm gonna go work out in a few just to jump start my back in exercise mode. and maybe itll help me feel less soar and bring on the period.

oo so i found a 0 point cereal! well not really found. i always knew it existed but i never wanted to eat it. (fiber one original.) but now i will because its 0 points! i can have that with my 1 point soy milk and some fruit and have a pretty nice 2 point breakfast. sweet!

no new recipes or new nothing this week. i have nothing like parties or social events to hinder my weight loss. its just a normal week. so i can work out, stick with my points and see good results next week. wish me luck.

u suck

grrr. i feel like shit on a stick. i'm bloated and i know my bitch of a period is probably coming early. just in time for weigh in day huh? thanks period. you suck.

oh p.s. check out youtube.com/leraloses. i'm in the process of saving/uploading my video. this late at night? yes. lol. must go to bed though. almost 2 am! gah!

21 day challenge + linked youtube videos coming soon

many of you may have heard about this before. this time i'm sticking to it. starting today! yay. 21 days until my 23rd birthday so i think this little challenge comes to me as a nice little push. the 21 day challenge is for a habit to form. it usually takes about 21 days for you to form a habit. if you do something for 21 days it is likely to stick. for my 21 day challenege i have decided to do these three things:

1) stick to my 22 points each day. (use weekly's only on the weekends)
2) exercise at least 15 minutes each day
3) go to bed by 2 am

so those are 3 things i want to make a habit for myself. i think these are very realistic and it shouldnt be too hard to follow.

i'm also in the process of making my own youtube videos that will link with this blog. i think it will keep me motivated and give me even more accountability. i'll still have healthy black girls with my friend trishia. but those videos are far and few between. i was looking to maybe make weekly videos. cause 1, i enjoy watching weight loss videos on you tube. and 2, it'll be my own accountability. so stay tuned for that. i'm excited. tee hee.

good day.

ahhh. so after my crazy day yesterday, i finally don't feel like i need to binge myself with fattening foods. maybe it was the whole period thing....ugh. sometimes it sucks being a woman since our bodies love to hold on to weight.

anyway, for breakfast i had some life cereal with almond milk (only 3 points, yay!), a cup of grapes. and a starbucks cappucino. then for lunch i got a pepperoni and pineapple pizza for 7 points and had carrot sticks on the side. and i'm cooking dinner right now. mmmm it smells good. its this sausage and vegie stew with potatoes. i saw it on food network and wanted to try it and its 8 points. perfect for dinner.

so yay, i'm within my points. and i may even have a point left so i can have a weight watchers dark chocolate piece. perfect. hopefully i can do this well until monday night because i have no weekly's left. *crosses fingers*

FAIL!

man i FAIL this month. its only wednesday and in one day i'v eaten most of my weekly's and havnt had any good health guidelines in today. maybe except the blueberries that were in my scones and walking for 30 minutes. thats what i get for going out to eat and getting corned beef hash without thinking. grrrr.

i hate this. i hate the guilt i feel for over eating. i just want to stop but i don't know how. why did this have to start now? when i was so close to goal!? i miss the days when i couldnt even eat all of my points. now i'm so over board its not funny.

i feel like i'm pms ing though. and i usually do over eat the week before my period. either way, i should have more willpower. *sigh*

weigh in 22, shut up!

what? no way. i weighed in today at 154.4. a loss of 1.8 pounds? no! this doesnt make sense. i literally ate a bag of reeses peanutbutter cups. woah, the weight watchers gods must have wanted me to be happy or something. lol

so i looked back at my week. it was alot of pasta and chocolate. i had made the beef straganoff with eggnoodles last tuesdays and had left overs for wed. but i stayed within points until friday. then saturday all hell broke loose and i ate and said ah well its part of my weekly's. but i know it wasn't. it was more. but maybe i wasn't counting my good days and focusing on the bad. but really though. the bad outweighed the good. i don't know how it happened but i'm glad it did. i'm not commiting to anything this week. just to do good with my ghg's and of course track.

so close to goal. and oo so close to 25 pounds down! i'm buying the hungry girl book when i hit 25 pounds down. i wonder how its going to be when i have to maintain my weight...

valentines weekend massacre

i'm almost scared to go weigh in tomorrow. i would give in that no weigh in ticket and just go for the meeting but i dont wanna be a punk. i ate poorly, so i should learn from my mistakes right? uuuuuuugh!

so after my valentines chocolate coma my bf and i went to atlantic city and shared a suite with some of his fam. it was fun. nice get away from brooklyn. but oh god, the buffet! and oh god late night chicken bacon sandwich. i wish i could turn back the clock and take the food out of my stomach but its already digested and probably turned into fat.

i feel extra bloated, sluggish and just bad. :( damn!

but whatever, tomorrow is a brand new week. i'm going to weigh in and not be a punk. but i wont look at it until after my meeting is done so i listen to whats actually going on during the meeting rather than mentally beat myself up during the meeting.

tomorrow shows the results of the valentines weekend massacre! haha, stay tuned...

reese's coma

omg. so happy belated valentines day! mine was wonderful but i think i'm gonna see the consequences at my next weigh in. but tomorrow is another day so no moping around even if i do gain. just gotta keep going.

soo omg. i requested it so i know it would have happened. i literally got like a bag full of resses chocolate for v day along with a dinner of italian goodness with wine. i'm sure i had atleast 45 points last night. lol but i saved my weekly's for that day. i dont know what affect it will have on my weightloss cause i've never had that many points in one day. but thank god the next "holiday" is my birthday. so i have about 3 weeks to be a good weight watchers girl. ha.

anyway, reeses = heaven. its one of my vices. i dont regret indulging. i regret that choclate isnt one of the food groups! ha. anyway, back to taking weight loss one step at a time.

hungry girl, i love you!

so since i've joined weight watchers i have learned so much about different foods and different health reasons behind them. i'm trying so hard to stick to my good health guidelines but sometimes you realize that they take up your points. if you follow the ghg's you'll realize that at least 8 of your points are used on them with your milk servings, fruits, and healthy oils.

recently i've been really into hungry-girl.com. i just purchased this milk substitute that she recommends. its called unsweetened vanilla almond breeze. i searched high and low for it in my grocery store. then i googled it and realized that its in a grocery store somewhere on mcdonald and 18th ave (i'm in brooklyn ny). so i was like i'm not taking a bus to go and get this product. so 2 days ago i ordered it online and i already have it! i tried it...its as thin as fat free milk and has more of a soy flavor but i think its a perfect substitute. and its only 1 point for 1 cup! woah! dude! compared to fat free milk which is 2 points for 1 cup. i went bonkers. lol. and it is a good source of calcium and other goodness which is the point of getting in your "milk servings" for the day.

its so important for me to find everything i eat in lower points because as i lost more weight my points went down and it has now become more difficult for me to stay with in points. it used to be that my milk servings would take up 4 of my 22 points. my points are too precious for that. ha! so for now i'll enjoy this. i'm not giving up on milk. i'll just use it less.

i highly recommend hungry-girl.com to anyone on weight watchers! theres a zillion recipes and interesting finds and different ways to make high point foods into low point foods. i made pigs in a blanket from this chick. go. now. you'll love it :)

weigh in 21, thanks for punishment

so my bad choices have finally caught up with me and i'm being punished for it. lol. but it was very much expected. today i weighed in at 156.2 which is a gain of 0.6 of a pound. you know what, i'm not even mad. it finally makes sense. if you eat crap you will gain weight. its true. i didnt listen to my body signals and i ate crapola last week.

so i'm fine with my gain because i know next week it will be gone. i'm getting back into my weight lifting. kinda miss that feeling.

anyway so i went to the mall today with stacy before my weigh in and i went to charlotte rousse where i usually buy my jeans and i tried on a size 11 and it looked so sexy. lol. except the shit was extra long so i couldnt purchase it. grrrrr. whatever i guess i'll go another time.

i expect to lose next week even though its valentines weekend and i will have chocolate and liqour. but all in moderation and within points. i'm saving up my weekly's this week just for that. never depriving myself though. one thing i am depriving myself is cakes and donuts. none! not one bite until my birthday (march 12th). those are big trigger foods for me. so i have to cut it out.

anyway, have a good week!

finally a "healthy" BMI range

Ahhh! so I was curious about my BMI because when i first started weight watchers my BMI was 28. Which was in the overweight category. Before that and before my yearly summer weight loss I weighed 187 which gave me a BMI of 29.3. oh lord just .7 more and I would have been called "Obese". Woah America. But now, since I've lost 23 pounds America says I'm healthy...wow. I'd still love not to be so close to the over weight category. But still this is something to celebrate.


Your BMI is 24.4

18.5 - 24.9 Healthy Weight For Most Adults According to medical experts, your weight falls into the healthy range, it represents the lowest level of risk for heart disease, diabetes and hypertension. To further reduce your risk, focus on healthy eating with a menu that is low in saturated fat, and rich in fruits, vegetables and whole grains, as well as staying active for life.* Congratulations to you if you have recently reduced your weight to this level; staying committed to your healthy lifestyle will help you maintain both your weight and your well-being.

*Obes Res. 1998; 6(suppl 2): 110S.
BMI Categories

* Underweight: Less than 18.5
* Normal weight: 18.5 - 24.9
* Overweight: 25 - 29.9
* Very Overweight: Over 30

lets just call this my fat week

lol. i have given in to every temptation in the world. i had liqour, i had a donut, i had cake, i stuffed myself and almost threw up. *sigh* i think its cuz i woke up in the morning...ate really light and then didnt eat for like 8 hours so i was extremely hungy. so i cooked up some pasta and ate too much of it...then i had made angel food cake which is not so bad. but the mix with the pasta didnt go well with my tum tum. but eating too much in my mind is sort of like a normal persons eating habits. i really do believe my stomach cant take too much anymore.

but then last night i'm chillin with my boyfriend at his friends house and we order tacos. right before that i went to their bathroom and weighed myself to make sure my over eating this week didnt screw me up too much and their digital scale said i weighed 155.4. so far that means lost .2 of a pound....hmm. but then i had tacos and went out with my friends and didnt feel like i made wise decisions. so i'll see if tuesday will show.

even though, i'm not gonna let the scale determine my happiness. and its so weird because it feels like the more mistakes i make and the more i eat people keep telling me i'm wasting away. lol...prob because they are not used to me at this size yet. but anyway, i have 5 more pounds to go. and i'll be acoomplished.

i went to target the other day and wanted so badly to buy the hungry girl book and a few more books. so i've decided to make that my present for when i hit my 25 pound mark. that should be in about 2 pounds. so maybe thats motivation for me to stop shoving things like 6 point doughnuts in my mouth. *sigh*

weigh in 20

the results are in! i weighed in today at 155.6 pounds. which is a loss of 1 whole pound this week. which is what i was aiming for. woot!

so the simply filling technique really does work. hehe. i recommend it to anyone who wants a break from tracking and portioning. you just have to know your body signals and when you are full.

i have really started slacking off on my exercise though. and what do you know i walk in to my weight watchers meeting today and the book i get is "book 9: beyond walking". for the past 2 weeks i have only done my exercise video once. once! in two weeks. i used to do it at least 3 times. i still get my walking in because of my dog and the fact that i pretty much try to walk everywhere i go. but besides that i'd really love to have an exercise routine. i would join a gym but i don't have the money for that at this time. so i'm going to stick to my dvd's and walking until i'm able to join. but sometimes its hard to push yourself to exercise when you are sitting at home. but i must make it a routine!

back to counting tomorrow

so its back to counting my 22 points a day tomorrow morning. the simply filling technique was a nice break from tracking my points. but if felt too limited at times. its much more structured because there are many more rules but I don't work on a planned and prepared kind of day when it comes to food. i wake up and choose from what i have in my house. with the simply filling technique you need to be prepared. it is doable and it wasnt as hard as i thought it was going to be. but i would love the option of grabbing a sandwich or having real sugar to be back in my plan. lol. so back to counting.

i did try a new recipe and was open to a few more things with this technique though. i might try it again if i ever feel i need more of a structured diet until i reach my goal.

i'm going to try and aim for 1 pound a week. it'll be great to make my first goal by my 23rd birthday (march 12th). but i'm not gonna stress it. i think slow and steady wins the race. :)

weigh in 19 + simply filling technique

shocking, very shocking loss of 2.2 pounds this week!!! i am currently at 156.6 pounds. i drank massive amounts of alcohol and went a little o.d. on doughnuts and i finally lost weight. wow. i love when weight loss doesnt make sense.

but i guess one thing is certain. i am one persistent woman. if you keep going, no matter what the scale says every week you will succeed. we get discouraged sometimes but i think...no....i know, if you stick with it that you will have some sort of success. as long as you are committed. this is my 20th week on weight watchers. i have never been committed to a "diet" this long in my entire life. i'm so proud of me.

i went to an extra meeting this weekend. it was fun to visit a new group of people. i'm also going next saturday to my friends meeting. i think it keeps me motivated to go to even more meetings.

so this week i have committed to following the simply filling technique. if you've been on weight watchers for a while you'll see that its pretty much identical to the core program. i'm not going to count points for a whole week and i'm only eating filling foods. and anytime i eat something that is not part of the list i have to count it as one of my weekly points (which thank god i still have). i chose to do this to have a change and to say that i tried it and it wasnt so bad. i will probably go back to counting points next tuesday unless i fall in love with this new plan. heh. although today it felt nice to not look up food points and just eat. but it just feels more limiting. but i can still do it.

anyway, wahoo for a loss!! i'm only 6.4 pounds away from my goal. :) i spoke to my leader and she said to talk to her again in 3 pounds so i know for sure about being 150 or if i want to go further. i'll see in 3 pounds.

Damn donut

I'm typing this on my itouch cuz my computer died on me. Ugh! But anyway, why did I just eat that. LOL everytime I feel good aboutmy weightloss I sabatoge it. LOL and I know in life im able to have a donut but I made a commitment to lose this week and now I may have ruined that by getting drunk yesterday and eating crappy food. Ugh I hate the scale. But I'm still going to face it on Tuesday or else ill never know how I'm progresing or not progressing. I hate hangovers...

OMFG

so i go into target today looking for a dress for my friends bday party tonight and i saw a pair of jeans. it was a size 8 but it looked big for a size 8. i don't know if its bigger cause of target brand or whatever. but anyway i go in knowing they werent going to fit. cuz i mean, c'mon. so i get in the fitting room put one leg in and it goes in. then the other...then i'm like ok, maybe it wont zip. and OMFG! it zips!!!! huh? what crazy. this was my first time trying on jeans since i started weight watchers. and if this size 8 fits, then that means i have surpassed my goal of a size 10. but to make sure of this i'm going to try on my usual jeans in a size 10 and then if thats fits then, wow. i made it. but until then, yay! so no matter what the scale says this tuesday i still have a victory! woot!

weigh in 18, grrrr

158.8?????????? shut up! this is not fair. i didnt over eat, i stayed within points, but yet i still gain. 0.2 of a pound.

i'm mad. yes. but i have to take it and move on. atleast it wasnt a whole lot of weight. and i guess i still am in the 150's. but if i keep going this way...ugh.

i wanted to try the simply filling technique. because i was thinking maybe my body is getting to used to this and needed a change. but i need to plan that better and i'm not prepared. so i'm going to try it next week for one week. i need to learn when i'm full and be a little bit more limited with my foods. especially since i keep eating sweets. i need some boundaries to get my ass in gear. so next week will be sort of a fresh start. something new.

in the mean time, i just have to keep tracking and checking my portions. i've been walking more than anything (yet i still gained...don't get it *sigh*) but i got the next move dvd and i'm going to start that tomorrow.

my goal this week is to lose 1 pound. so i need to be 157 by january 27th! i'm sick of 158....

the new year, new resolve challenge, week 3 tasks:
1)try a new recipe
2)dance
3) go to an extra meeting

last week was good, i ate more than 2 filling foods each day and had 11 activity points. i felt good. but the scale depressed me today. i just have to re motivate myself....

mmmm

i made dinner for myself tonight. i feel like its been forever because all last week i ate out a lot. i need to really start eating in more because its healthier, i can eat more and not feel guilty, and its cheaper!

so this meal was extremely easy and yummy and low in points. i cut up (and sauteed with a little onion and garlic) 1 ounce of polska keilbalsa sausage which i count as 1.5 points because the serving is 2 ounces and that's 3 points so i just cut it in half. then i also prepared 1 cup of near east whole grain brown rice pilaf which is 4 points when prepared with olive oil. man oh man. this will definitely be a new staple for me. i need it in life. lol. then i shredded up some spinach and put a little bit of 0 points taco sauce on it for a kick. all in all, i had dinner that only came up to 5.5 points. woah, shocking. my dinners are usually 9 points at least. yay for brown rice pilaf and sausage!

hmmm what can i make for tomorrow?

weigh in 17, challenge week 2

*sigh* i gained a little. very much expected. today i weighed in at 158.6. which is a gain of 0.2 of a pound. you know what. not bad. especially considering my week. to me, its as if i maintained my weight which is so much better than really going backwards.

my week involved food from mcdonalds, chinese food (twice!) and other junk i ate because of my period. i also didnt really stick to any of my good health guidelines. so i'm pretty happy that i didn't gain much. i think thats because i've been walking a whole lot more! i got a dog and it lives at my boyfriend's house so i walk to his house every morning (which is like a 15 minute walk), then walk the dog then walk back home. so i've been moving more and all i need is my toning.

this week i've made a promise myself to sticking to the momentum plan. choosing filling foods first, follow the healthy guidelines, and checking my portions. also i'm going to challenge myself NOT to use my weekly points allowance and instead work for my induldgences. like if i want a piece of 1 point chocolate i will earn an activity point and swap it for that. like working for your supper. lol. i'm gonna try it for one week and if i feel too deprived, then next tuesday i'll get back into using my weekly points allowance.

the new year, new resolve challenge, week 2 tasks:
1)add two filling foods everyday
2)earn two more activity points values than last week (that means i need 8 ap's this week)
3) ask for help
.....so week 1 didnt go so well. i mean, i guess i did add more activity. i didnt plan my food, and i didnt take my measurements. but i can take that this week. i just can't plan food, i wont stick to it even when i write it down. i eat whats available to me.

i want to atleast lose a pound this week! its a new year. i need to get motivated and get to goal! anyhoo, its dinner time. i'm lazy so i'm having a smart ones with a salad and my healthy oils. later guys. :)

weigh in 16

wow my ww meeting was packed today...guess everyone wants to lose that holiday weight. anyway, i weighed in today at 158.4 pounds. not surprising. but i did lose 0.4 of a pound which is half a pound in ww. so all good even after i drank everyday. lol.

so i'm just gonna focus on my challenge this week and well see what next tuesday will look like. not gonna push myself mucho hard though because i know my period is coming. i'll just make sure to eat filling foods so i don't crave junk as much.

have a good week!

The 2009 New Year, New Resolve Challenge, Week 1

i'd like to start this year off well! today is my first weigh in of the new year. i'm not expecting too much because i feel like i'm bloating from my period and i havent made the smartest choices this past week....but every week is a fresh new start. especially since its a fresh new year! if you are a weight watchers member, you'll know this is from the website. i think its a fab way to kick start the new year!

my goal over the next four weeks of this challenge is to:
stick to all of my good health guidelines. especially since i've been slacking on them the past holiday season. and of course, to lose weight!

the tasks for this weeks challenge is to:
1) plan a week's menu
2) add 5 minutes to my daily activity
3) take my measurements

this is truly a challenge for me because i never plan my meals. ever. i always feel like i'll never stick to the plan. but now with my points becoming fewer, i should be planning ahead so i don't run into disasters. adding more activity shouldnt be a problem. i might just stick to the 30 minutes a day rather than adding 5 since i havent done much activity besides walking and a little toning. and oo i havent done measurements in a few months. itll be cool to see if anything has changed.

i'll be back after I weigh in. :)

happy new year

one of the scariest things about losing weight is realizing that just as you lost it, it's even easier to gain it back. i'm hoping that when i make it to goal i'm able to learn how to maintain my weight. which has been a constant struggle. i've lost weight before. and even though it was never the amount i wanted, i still have never been able to maintain my losses. so i hope weight watchers can teach me. but i'll cross that bridge when i get to it. anyway, that's a pic of comparison. its only face shots but you can see the difference from january 2008 to...well, today actually!

happy new year! i hope we all choose to make healthier choices for our bodies and continue to do well so that we can be even more fabulous come january 2010!