weighed in on wednesday

so i weighed in on wednesday finally! i need to stop erratically attending meetings. i need to make it my religion to go to a meeting EVERY week.

so anyway, i weighed in at 164.8 which was a loss of 0.6 pounds to two weeks prior. eh i duno man. foods not going so great. i'll be good for one or two days then all hell breaks loose. exercise was good last week. but this week with my impending period and me feeling like shit i've only been to the gym once. i plan to go tonight but who knows how ill feel with my period. ugh, hate it.

so i know that next week wont be such a loss because of my poor eating habits and lack of exercise and period bloat but i dont wanna be such a debbie downer. so tomorrow i'm setting up some time for myself to re-evalute what i'm doing. see how i can change things and get back on the path to my goals. nothing can stop me if i put my mind to it. but thats exactly whats wrong. my mind isnt in it.

last weekend i cleaned my room and read a book. i felt so zen. like everything was ok. like i could almost get back on track for just accomplishing that mess of a room. i've been obsessed with looking up trips to just get away and zone out on the beach. but maybe thats not what i need. maybe i just need order in my life in order to take control again of myself. cuz i'm totally losing it.

anyhoo...on to the next week.

aw crap..weigh in

aw crap forgot to blog about my weigh in on Tuesday. this week i've been super hella busy and stressed at work so i've had like no time for life. and every time i come home i collapse and zone out.

so anyhoo, my boss is not here so i can breathe kinda. ok so the week prior i didn't go to weight watchers but this past week on tuesday i went (in the pouring rain mind you) and weighed in at 165.4. which was a gain of 1.6. *sigh* its frustrating watching the scale go up and down. especially in the 160's. but i take total blame for this one.

although my exercise has been all good and i've been going to the gym 4 times a week and or trying at home things.....my food...not so good. i have gotten into the habit of not caring about what i ate. and last weekend was like a liquor fest. i drank three days in a row and ate at 3 am knowing i had no points left. so it wasn't a shock that i gained.

i just need the two to work together. hand in hand. exercise and healthy choices. i've slightly been trying this week with food but i think i know where i fail when it comes to food.

its the planning. i never plan my meals. or even bring lunch to work. i mean, i usually have lunch out and a lot of the times its tempting to go over what i allot myself for the meal. or sometimes i really don't know whats in it. so i'm constantly guesstimating my points. which is bad, i know. so this week is pretty much shit, cuz its friday and i've already just come back from buying lunch. (but it was a yummy avocado salad!) so on monday next week i'm challenging myself to bring in lunch for a week. it'll also save me money, which i need to do.

so exercise is good. i'm on week 5 of couch to 5 k. i feel SOOOOO great when i work out. but leme tell you its not easy. last time i did C25k i was 10 pounds lighter. and now i feel the weight gain. i can't do it like i did it man. and i'm determined to get back in my size 8 jeans (currently at size 10)

i can, i will! oh yeah...see ya next tuesday. i think i might make a vlog soon.
but i feel like i wanna get my life back together before that...i duno ill see what the deal is. its just easier and less time consuming for me to type right now.