i weighed in today at 155.6 lbs. exactly 1 pound loss. i worked very hard and only loss a pound. :( now i understand when people bitch about losing too little. because you expect more. maybe i should never set high standards. i allowed the scale to make me mad for a bit. but then i got over it when i realized....hey, i lost weight! lol. so all's goody in the hoody.
gotta be careful this week though. i want to lose at least a pound next tuesday and i'm going to be hanging out and drinking this weekend with my friends. i'm going to come equipt with my weight watchers frozen din din's and stuff so i wont be tempted to eat like i'm on vacation...cuz i'm not. it'll be a challenge but i'll remember that i wanna see the scale move!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
weigh in 39
shit, this is my 40th week on weight watchers. lol.
i weighed in yesterday at my meeting at 156.6. which is a loss of 2 pounds! wahooo! i didnt expect it since i totally went overboard when i spent the weekend with my boyfriend. but i guess in the end my activity balanced out my crap food. this week i'm determined to slowly remove crap food and bring back in the healthy food, lean proteins, nice fresh fruits and vegetables and lots o' water! i'm aiming for another 2 pound loss so i can end up around 154. can u tell i'm determined for june loss? lol.
anyway, so last night i stayed up just watching youtube videos. now i'm kicking myself for it cuz i'm tired. and plus when i stay up is when i get the munchies. and ofcourse i dipped into my weeklys or maybe activity points. cuz it wasnt too much munching. it was peanutbutter and strawberries. but it was all measured. and i also had a 0 point hot chocolate to get the urge off of eating any more sweets. sweets will be the death of me. i swear.
anyway, today feels good though. i had a good breakfast and i'm going to work out about 30 minutes after my lunch. no more slackness! its time to get serious about these last few pounds.
i weighed in yesterday at my meeting at 156.6. which is a loss of 2 pounds! wahooo! i didnt expect it since i totally went overboard when i spent the weekend with my boyfriend. but i guess in the end my activity balanced out my crap food. this week i'm determined to slowly remove crap food and bring back in the healthy food, lean proteins, nice fresh fruits and vegetables and lots o' water! i'm aiming for another 2 pound loss so i can end up around 154. can u tell i'm determined for june loss? lol.
anyway, so last night i stayed up just watching youtube videos. now i'm kicking myself for it cuz i'm tired. and plus when i stay up is when i get the munchies. and ofcourse i dipped into my weeklys or maybe activity points. cuz it wasnt too much munching. it was peanutbutter and strawberries. but it was all measured. and i also had a 0 point hot chocolate to get the urge off of eating any more sweets. sweets will be the death of me. i swear.
anyway, today feels good though. i had a good breakfast and i'm going to work out about 30 minutes after my lunch. no more slackness! its time to get serious about these last few pounds.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
weigh in 38
mmm i just made spicy black bean soup off of the weight watchers website. and the serving was so filling and it was yummy! i love things like that. and only 3 points. :) perfect for lunches.
but anywya, i made a weigh in youtube video. but i'll still post it here. i weighed in at 158.6. blast!!!! an hour before i weighed in at weight watchers i checked my own scale at home and it said 157.6. but i was naked. eh, i'm on my period so i'm decided to blame 1.6 from two weeks ago on it. lol. even though i know i wasnt the best weight watchers girl this past week.
but these numbers cant keep on rising because i dont wanna be out of the 150's. i mean i hate this weight phase but i dont wanna go even further back. so i'm really watching what im eating even though i'm on my period. i had 22 points today. and my day is over! (yay me!) and if i feel like i need somehting to eat i'll have some 0 point jello. i already had 0 point hot chocolate to curb my chocolate craving. its always nice to have 0 points things ready and available.
anyway, i'm going to starighten up my room then go to sleep. gym tomorrow. hard! i wanna see if i can sign up for spinning.
but anywya, i made a weigh in youtube video. but i'll still post it here. i weighed in at 158.6. blast!!!! an hour before i weighed in at weight watchers i checked my own scale at home and it said 157.6. but i was naked. eh, i'm on my period so i'm decided to blame 1.6 from two weeks ago on it. lol. even though i know i wasnt the best weight watchers girl this past week.
but these numbers cant keep on rising because i dont wanna be out of the 150's. i mean i hate this weight phase but i dont wanna go even further back. so i'm really watching what im eating even though i'm on my period. i had 22 points today. and my day is over! (yay me!) and if i feel like i need somehting to eat i'll have some 0 point jello. i already had 0 point hot chocolate to curb my chocolate craving. its always nice to have 0 points things ready and available.
anyway, i'm going to starighten up my room then go to sleep. gym tomorrow. hard! i wanna see if i can sign up for spinning.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
binging
what to do after a binge? i so don't wanna eat today. i wanna rid my body of all the toxins i've ingested! i really really hate this. so yesterday by 4 pm i had 3 points left for dinner. which is VERY dangerous for me. because then i usually plan to have 0 point soup or something but that never works out because i then don't feel satisfied and i do something to try and help me feel satisfied and it usually turns into some kind of binge.
it started out fine. i ate my tilapia fish for dinner and gave my self some wiggle room with weeklys and had butternut squash and a 2 point busicuit i had made. but during the night those buscuits became six buiscuits down the hatch!!! and i kept drinking from my boyfriends beer. so i get home feeling extremely gulity!!! i also felt a lot of anxiety. i was thinking of how much exercise i would have to do to burn all that shit off. so ofcourse at 1 am i was not happy with myself. what do i continue to do? EAT! wtf is wrong with me? so 2 (3 point) fiber one pastries, 2 (3 point) fiber one peanut butter bars (man, i'm full of fiber lol), milk, and a banana dipped in starwberry jam. i finally managaed to fall asleep at 6 am. mentally kicking myself. i calculated it this morning and i'm about 11 points OVER my weekly's. possibly more.
lord where do i go from here? do i try my best to eat healthy? do i do what i want to do and just not eat which i know is horrible? or do i push that binge aside and keep going, sticking to 22 points a day? i'm sooooo frustrated. i want this weight off but random spurts like this always derail me!
it started out fine. i ate my tilapia fish for dinner and gave my self some wiggle room with weeklys and had butternut squash and a 2 point busicuit i had made. but during the night those buscuits became six buiscuits down the hatch!!! and i kept drinking from my boyfriends beer. so i get home feeling extremely gulity!!! i also felt a lot of anxiety. i was thinking of how much exercise i would have to do to burn all that shit off. so ofcourse at 1 am i was not happy with myself. what do i continue to do? EAT! wtf is wrong with me? so 2 (3 point) fiber one pastries, 2 (3 point) fiber one peanut butter bars (man, i'm full of fiber lol), milk, and a banana dipped in starwberry jam. i finally managaed to fall asleep at 6 am. mentally kicking myself. i calculated it this morning and i'm about 11 points OVER my weekly's. possibly more.
lord where do i go from here? do i try my best to eat healthy? do i do what i want to do and just not eat which i know is horrible? or do i push that binge aside and keep going, sticking to 22 points a day? i'm sooooo frustrated. i want this weight off but random spurts like this always derail me!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
meeting but no weigh in
so i went to my meeting but decided not to weigh in. even though, that morning i stepped on my own scale and it said i lost a pound. i dont trust it. but whatever. but now i'm thinking maybe i shoulda weighed in and skipped next tuesday cause my period is due on the 8th. damn! lol. ah well, if i "gain" i'll know its because of my period cause i'm back on the ball.
so i was thinking maybe i should make some goals to re motivate myself. i think the whole month of may i had no loss. so sad. i dont like wasting money and that was 40 dollars of no weight loss. lol. so this june i'm determined to atleast end the month with a loss. itll be nice if i actually hit 150 (lord please get me there) but an over all loss for the month needs to be done.
they didnt say this weight loss thing was easy right? i mean, you want something. you can picture yourself at a certain weight and happy but why dont we continue to take the steps to get there? i think it all comes down to motivation. and in may a lot of motivation for basically everything in life was gone. but we have to re motivate ourselves. we need to tell ourselves that if we keep going we will get there. and i will get there!
so i was thinking maybe i should make some goals to re motivate myself. i think the whole month of may i had no loss. so sad. i dont like wasting money and that was 40 dollars of no weight loss. lol. so this june i'm determined to atleast end the month with a loss. itll be nice if i actually hit 150 (lord please get me there) but an over all loss for the month needs to be done.
they didnt say this weight loss thing was easy right? i mean, you want something. you can picture yourself at a certain weight and happy but why dont we continue to take the steps to get there? i think it all comes down to motivation. and in may a lot of motivation for basically everything in life was gone. but we have to re motivate ourselves. we need to tell ourselves that if we keep going we will get there. and i will get there!
Monday, June 1, 2009
miami vaca
if i havent gained 50 pounds this weekend, i will be shocked. lol. omg miami was CRAZZZZZY! i dont think there was one moment where i wasnt buzzzed as soon as we left the hotel room that first day. masses amounts of liqour! poor food choices. no counting points. but i wouldnt take it back for nothing. i had too much fun. but i'm contemplating on weigh in tomoorrow. i know i gained because i know what i did. so i figure i should go to the meeting and skip weigh in part because do i really need to know the complete damage? ha. i'm still seeing about it. its tomorrow so i'll decide by then. but anyway, good times. i needed that mini vaca.
but i'm back to normal eating today. it felt good to eat an apple. lol. my poor body is probably confused as to what i'm doing to it. lol.
but i'm back to normal eating today. it felt good to eat an apple. lol. my poor body is probably confused as to what i'm doing to it. lol.
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