so I weighed in yesterday at 163.8 lbs @ WW! woo hoo! down 3.8! I never thought I'd be happy to be in like the lower 160's. But whatever, it's progress and closer to the 150's again.
i was soo not gonna go to the meeting. i think sometimes i talk myself into being a lazy ass. i was like "wah wah i know i'm prob the same weight cuz i ate like shit for some days and blah blah". but i went and was down. smh, i need to give myself more credit. yes, i went OVER my weeklys by 4 points. but I also worked out 4 days doing couch to 5k. much better than doing absolutely nothing as i've been doing in the past.
anyway, i'm trying to tackle my eating this week. i mean, its not been perfect but i'm not looking to be perfect. i'm looking to well atleast first get back in the swing of things. you know, staying within my points (its been AGES leme tell ya) and feeling good about my choices. it doesnt have to be super healthy or super clean. but better than it has been.
hmm....i duno. i just have to trust that if i keep up working out and eating better i will lose. and it will come off. and i have to be positive about this experience or else i'll get no where. these past 6 months have proven that.
positive! positve! positive! i am beautiful today even with this extra jiggle!!
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
updated weigh ins
I updated my weigh ins over there. I didnt track it really for the first 6 months of 2010 (fell off). But I'm back to doing it. Starting today. ----------------->
i hate the scale
So I went to WW today and weighed in at 167.6. The last time i was there i was 163 point something. That was late May. So kudos to me for going back. But wtf....so mad. Hate the scale. But whatever we'll see what happens next week.
I worked out 5 days last week and I also made better food choices. It wasnt perfect but I didnt drink (except for on the weekend like in the old days) and I tracked everything. Over all I feel good about how my week went. Which is why the scale is such a bummer. But you know what, the scale will catch up to my good doings.
Also, this may be a lil TMI but my body is so out of wack. Last Monday I took Plan B. (You've heard of it before I'm sure.) So anyhoo...this past Sunday I started bleeding like a period. And I had just recently finished my period so I'm thinking the hormones inside my body is on crack or something. I've been bleeding for 3 days as of now like its a period. I'm going to check with my doctor but I'm sure I'm fine. Just out of wack. So I think it has to do with my weight. Because I also feel heavier and bloated like I'm on my cycle because of the bleeding and such. So eh, maybe that has to do with what the scale says now.
So this week I'm doing the Couch 2 5K again. I feel so good everytime I finish a session. I started week 2 yesterday and I'm continuing on. I ran for 90 seconds and walked for 2 minutes of intervals for 20 minutes. Building my way back up to sexy. Lol. I can feel the difference in my energy and my mood and even in the way I walk now. I'm not as sluggish as I was. I feel good.
Hoping for a loss next week! *crosses fingers*
I worked out 5 days last week and I also made better food choices. It wasnt perfect but I didnt drink (except for on the weekend like in the old days) and I tracked everything. Over all I feel good about how my week went. Which is why the scale is such a bummer. But you know what, the scale will catch up to my good doings.
Also, this may be a lil TMI but my body is so out of wack. Last Monday I took Plan B. (You've heard of it before I'm sure.) So anyhoo...this past Sunday I started bleeding like a period. And I had just recently finished my period so I'm thinking the hormones inside my body is on crack or something. I've been bleeding for 3 days as of now like its a period. I'm going to check with my doctor but I'm sure I'm fine. Just out of wack. So I think it has to do with my weight. Because I also feel heavier and bloated like I'm on my cycle because of the bleeding and such. So eh, maybe that has to do with what the scale says now.
So this week I'm doing the Couch 2 5K again. I feel so good everytime I finish a session. I started week 2 yesterday and I'm continuing on. I ran for 90 seconds and walked for 2 minutes of intervals for 20 minutes. Building my way back up to sexy. Lol. I can feel the difference in my energy and my mood and even in the way I walk now. I'm not as sluggish as I was. I feel good.
Hoping for a loss next week! *crosses fingers*
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
reality check
so i just read my first entry in this blog which was the first day i joined weight watchers (sep. 16th 2008) here were my long term goals:
goals (long term):
weigh 160 (weight watchers says 147)
fit into a size 10 jeans
feel healthier
sooooo...it seems that i made those goals. besides the whole 160 thing. i surpassed it and then went back to it. now have a new weight goal. but all in all. i did it. so proud. 2 years ago i didnt think id ever see it. now im here in it wanting to get smaller. heh, never satisfied.
goals (long term):
weigh 160 (weight watchers says 147)
fit into a size 10 jeans
feel healthier
sooooo...it seems that i made those goals. besides the whole 160 thing. i surpassed it and then went back to it. now have a new weight goal. but all in all. i did it. so proud. 2 years ago i didnt think id ever see it. now im here in it wanting to get smaller. heh, never satisfied.
only one way out this hole
man i feel great! i went to the gym last night and ive decided to not keep trying to put on the jeans that dont fit me. since it makes me depressed. instead ill try them on after each month of atleast TRYING to get back in them. lol
i'm at work right now. debating on getting a second cup of coffee. (had one at home)
last night i got home and was really annoyed! i live in the damn hood. so these kids / annoying hatian men who refuse to get jobs and instead make their job annoying me (for the past 7 years) were bothering me. as they do every time i walk in and out of my house.
my patience is wearing thin. anyway...there is a point to this. so i notice that every time i come into the house annoyed (a.k.a everyday) i storm in kiss my little nephew and make a b-line to the kitchen where i can find something to soothe me. it usually ends up being crackers, bread with raw honey, or whatever my mom had made for lunch for my nephew. so thats got to stop.
only YOU can decide how you react to something or how you want to feel about a certain situation. (atleast thats what i'm learning while reading "the 7 habits of highly effective people") hmmm. i wonder if i can change that come this afternoon. will i allow these thugs to ruin my health and sanity!? lol. either that or i move...in with the boyfriend. but thats a whole other subject.
so yup, going to WW at 12 on my lunch time. dont think im officially weighing in but i wanna just go to a meeting since its been 2 weeks.
did this post have a point? duno. but it was fun. i miss blogging about my daily annoyances.
i'm at work right now. debating on getting a second cup of coffee. (had one at home)
last night i got home and was really annoyed! i live in the damn hood. so these kids / annoying hatian men who refuse to get jobs and instead make their job annoying me (for the past 7 years) were bothering me. as they do every time i walk in and out of my house.
my patience is wearing thin. anyway...there is a point to this. so i notice that every time i come into the house annoyed (a.k.a everyday) i storm in kiss my little nephew and make a b-line to the kitchen where i can find something to soothe me. it usually ends up being crackers, bread with raw honey, or whatever my mom had made for lunch for my nephew. so thats got to stop.
only YOU can decide how you react to something or how you want to feel about a certain situation. (atleast thats what i'm learning while reading "the 7 habits of highly effective people") hmmm. i wonder if i can change that come this afternoon. will i allow these thugs to ruin my health and sanity!? lol. either that or i move...in with the boyfriend. but thats a whole other subject.
so yup, going to WW at 12 on my lunch time. dont think im officially weighing in but i wanna just go to a meeting since its been 2 weeks.
did this post have a point? duno. but it was fun. i miss blogging about my daily annoyances.
Monday, June 14, 2010
rock bottom
i doubt anyone still reads this but i need an outlet...and I'm so out of the youtube thing.
so yesterday i stepped on the scale and it said 169. i knew it wasn't an accurate account of my exact weight because i had just eaten as well as finished drinking the night before. but even that meant that i was well into the 160's.
i had almost a breakdown. i cried for like an hour after i wasn't able to make it to the gym to follow my new "schedule" to get my butt back in gear and get back into the 150's. so i was at a lost and my boyfriend kind of gave me tough love. he told me everything will be ok and shoved weights in my hand. for the next hour and a half he basically made me do squats and lifts and crunches and spotted me.
i stopped crying after a few sets and realized i cant just say i wanna lose weight and it magically happen. i have to do the hard work that comes along with it as I've done in the past. But since I've been seeing the 160's for the past month or so on my scale I've just wanted it GONE magically and that cant happen. i cant just quickly move back into the 150's. i have to take it slow as I've before. but i have this want for immediacy. i want the 150's NOW! i want to look and feel how i did a year ago.
but it cant just be like *poof* I'm back to a comfortable weight and loving my body and being happy. i have to make the goals, stick with it. eat less, move more. and then results will appear.
so tomorrow I'm going to weight watchers. I'm making a commitment to the gym 5 days this week as well as sticking to my daily points everyday this week. thats all. nothing too extreme. can't wait for the scale to go back down. and my body and mind to feel better.
so yesterday i stepped on the scale and it said 169. i knew it wasn't an accurate account of my exact weight because i had just eaten as well as finished drinking the night before. but even that meant that i was well into the 160's.
i had almost a breakdown. i cried for like an hour after i wasn't able to make it to the gym to follow my new "schedule" to get my butt back in gear and get back into the 150's. so i was at a lost and my boyfriend kind of gave me tough love. he told me everything will be ok and shoved weights in my hand. for the next hour and a half he basically made me do squats and lifts and crunches and spotted me.
i stopped crying after a few sets and realized i cant just say i wanna lose weight and it magically happen. i have to do the hard work that comes along with it as I've done in the past. But since I've been seeing the 160's for the past month or so on my scale I've just wanted it GONE magically and that cant happen. i cant just quickly move back into the 150's. i have to take it slow as I've before. but i have this want for immediacy. i want the 150's NOW! i want to look and feel how i did a year ago.
but it cant just be like *poof* I'm back to a comfortable weight and loving my body and being happy. i have to make the goals, stick with it. eat less, move more. and then results will appear.
so tomorrow I'm going to weight watchers. I'm making a commitment to the gym 5 days this week as well as sticking to my daily points everyday this week. thats all. nothing too extreme. can't wait for the scale to go back down. and my body and mind to feel better.
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