not going to weigh in

i feel a bit guilty that i'm doing this today but i think it has to be done. i have not missed one meeting since september. meaning, i've never missed a weight watchers meeting. i'm thinking should i go and not weigh in? but i really dont even feel like listening to advice.

i just want to be this week. i dont want to think about re-starting my diet. i want to just do. not plan. so i'm not going to my meeting today. i'm taking a much needed break from everything. i'm just focusing on cleaning out my room and extra room because i have to paint soon.

i'm eating well. i havent gone overboard. excercise is going well. i'm very soar. my period is also coming very soon so i dont feel like my weigh in would be accurate. and i'm very sensitive these days. the scale can prob make me not want to do anything for the rest of the day but cry and eat. i want this part of my life to be done with already. i'm not happy. but i hope i soon will be.

i'll weigh in next week for sure. wont fall too far off the bandwagon.