went to WW yesterday

so i figured i'd go attend a meeting yesterday. didnt wanna fall of track with attending my weight watchers meetings. i didnt weigh in. but i did weigh myself at home twice. the day after i got back from ohio my bf's scale said i was 166.2. then on wed. morning i weighed again @ home and it said 164.2. eh, so it must be alot of water weight i gained and even if it is just a pound, thank god!

i ate sooooo much in just one long weekend. if i knew ohio was gonna be all about food i would have prepared better. but im fine with my choices. i counted points everyday and tracked on my iphone except one day and even though i ate shitty things i didnt beat myself up. i was happy. i was with my friends and all was well.

since tuesday i've been eating much better. and i'm just trying to be 163 again by next tuesday and then on from there. i wanna make a video tonight. i was totally gonna do it yesterday but i was (and am) stressed and out and bummed from work. somethings gotta change on that end. anyhoo....back to work i go.

weighed in today...maybe i'll call it weigh in #1 :)

so i must be a psychic. because i predicted my weight last week to be 163.2 by this week. and this tuesday i am 163.0!!! that is a 1.2 lb loss. woot! i exceeded it by .2. purty happy. :)

i feel really good about last week. i brought in lunches (mostly healthy choice meals) and when i didn't bring in lunch i opted for a salad and some sort of soup. also i made sure to have my oatmeal and actually stayed within points on most days. i think it helped having groceries and meals available to me. because even though i'm not one to plan my meals (never have been) atleast i have access to foods that will help me stay on plan. (mental note: buy groceries for this week)

i cooked my dinner once last week (i made chicken fajitas, yum!) the other times me and my babes got sushi (brown rice spicy tuna = love). i ate all of my weekly points and my activity points. i gained 14 activity points so you know i was in the gym! lol. i really want to take class though

next week i would love to see a loss. but i have two huge challenges. on friday night i leave for ohio to spend 3 days with my friends (happy eating and drinking much? :/) and also on tuesday i'm schedule to get my period. i may not weigh in next tuesday if i feel like i usually feel on my first day. but i also may just weigh in to face the music. its hard facing that music though.

goal for next week: going to aim to lose half a pound for next week. i'm going to the gym today and tomorrrow. after that i'm not able to do so. so i either need to walk everywhere i go while away or be mindful of the foods i'm eating while i'm away. i will try my hardest to lose! even out of my comfort zone...

i was gonna make a video about my weigh in today but i'm too busy tonight to do it. i gotta pack, go to the gym, make dinner...eh. video not on my top priority (but i made one yesterday!). ill make it if at the end of the day if i have 30 minutes to spare.

weighed in today

i duno what made me do it. but i did not eat ALL of my weeklys plus some for the first time in MONTHS last week. i had 18 points left. i am so proud of me for actually sticking to the plan for a whole week. of course no perfection but a huge step towards improvement

i just weighed in at weight watchers at 164.2. that puts me down 0.6 from 2 weeks ago. a lil disappointed because on sunday i stepped on my scale and weighed 161. but i can't expect my weight to just melt off like that and i shouldnt constantly be weighing myself anyhoo. so i'll take the 0.6 loss! and aim for 1 pound next week. aiming for 163.2!!!!

i've kept at it with the gym. i actually feel pretty sore right now. ugh. i'm not going to the gym today cuz i have a date with my sweety and i usually take tuesdays off anyway to hang out. but i'm going 5 times this week.

on sunday i went food shopping and bought a bunch of frozen meals and healthy staples that i used to purchase. it had been literally MONTHS since i went grocery shopping. so sad. so i had to re stock on basically everything. ive been cooking a bit more and feeling a lot better about my choices. i'm not aiming for perfection. i can't because i'll fail. so instead i have made goals.

the first goal is to get back into the 150's. if i enter 159.9 before i step on the plane to puerto rico in 3 and a half weeks i'll be ecsatic. thats about 5 pounds from now. so i'm working on the steps to get there.

i wanna get back into vlogging. but ive been so out of it that i dont even wanna bother with it sometimes. but i know its something that will help me stay on track. so i'm going to force myself to make a video this week. top priority! no more half assing my weightloss.

on and forward!

weighed in on wednesday

so i weighed in on wednesday finally! i need to stop erratically attending meetings. i need to make it my religion to go to a meeting EVERY week.

so anyway, i weighed in at 164.8 which was a loss of 0.6 pounds to two weeks prior. eh i duno man. foods not going so great. i'll be good for one or two days then all hell breaks loose. exercise was good last week. but this week with my impending period and me feeling like shit i've only been to the gym once. i plan to go tonight but who knows how ill feel with my period. ugh, hate it.

so i know that next week wont be such a loss because of my poor eating habits and lack of exercise and period bloat but i dont wanna be such a debbie downer. so tomorrow i'm setting up some time for myself to re-evalute what i'm doing. see how i can change things and get back on the path to my goals. nothing can stop me if i put my mind to it. but thats exactly whats wrong. my mind isnt in it.

last weekend i cleaned my room and read a book. i felt so zen. like everything was ok. like i could almost get back on track for just accomplishing that mess of a room. i've been obsessed with looking up trips to just get away and zone out on the beach. but maybe thats not what i need. maybe i just need order in my life in order to take control again of myself. cuz i'm totally losing it.

anyhoo...on to the next week.

aw crap..weigh in

aw crap forgot to blog about my weigh in on Tuesday. this week i've been super hella busy and stressed at work so i've had like no time for life. and every time i come home i collapse and zone out.

so anyhoo, my boss is not here so i can breathe kinda. ok so the week prior i didn't go to weight watchers but this past week on tuesday i went (in the pouring rain mind you) and weighed in at 165.4. which was a gain of 1.6. *sigh* its frustrating watching the scale go up and down. especially in the 160's. but i take total blame for this one.

although my exercise has been all good and i've been going to the gym 4 times a week and or trying at home things.....my food...not so good. i have gotten into the habit of not caring about what i ate. and last weekend was like a liquor fest. i drank three days in a row and ate at 3 am knowing i had no points left. so it wasn't a shock that i gained.

i just need the two to work together. hand in hand. exercise and healthy choices. i've slightly been trying this week with food but i think i know where i fail when it comes to food.

its the planning. i never plan my meals. or even bring lunch to work. i mean, i usually have lunch out and a lot of the times its tempting to go over what i allot myself for the meal. or sometimes i really don't know whats in it. so i'm constantly guesstimating my points. which is bad, i know. so this week is pretty much shit, cuz its friday and i've already just come back from buying lunch. (but it was a yummy avocado salad!) so on monday next week i'm challenging myself to bring in lunch for a week. it'll also save me money, which i need to do.

so exercise is good. i'm on week 5 of couch to 5 k. i feel SOOOOO great when i work out. but leme tell you its not easy. last time i did C25k i was 10 pounds lighter. and now i feel the weight gain. i can't do it like i did it man. and i'm determined to get back in my size 8 jeans (currently at size 10)

i can, i will! oh yeah...see ya next tuesday. i think i might make a vlog soon.
but i feel like i wanna get my life back together before that...i duno ill see what the deal is. its just easier and less time consuming for me to type right now.

weighed in yesterday

so I weighed in yesterday at 163.8 lbs @ WW! woo hoo! down 3.8! I never thought I'd be happy to be in like the lower 160's. But whatever, it's progress and closer to the 150's again.

i was soo not gonna go to the meeting. i think sometimes i talk myself into being a lazy ass. i was like "wah wah i know i'm prob the same weight cuz i ate like shit for some days and blah blah". but i went and was down. smh, i need to give myself more credit. yes, i went OVER my weeklys by 4 points. but I also worked out 4 days doing couch to 5k. much better than doing absolutely nothing as i've been doing in the past.

anyway, i'm trying to tackle my eating this week. i mean, its not been perfect but i'm not looking to be perfect. i'm looking to well atleast first get back in the swing of things. you know, staying within my points (its been AGES leme tell ya) and feeling good about my choices. it doesnt have to be super healthy or super clean. but better than it has been.

hmm....i duno. i just have to trust that if i keep up working out and eating better i will lose. and it will come off. and i have to be positive about this experience or else i'll get no where. these past 6 months have proven that.

positive! positve! positive! i am beautiful today even with this extra jiggle!!

updated weigh ins

I updated my weigh ins over there. I didnt track it really for the first 6 months of 2010 (fell off). But I'm back to doing it. Starting today. ----------------->