Lera Loses

went to WW yesterday

2010-08-26T10:45:00.003-04:00

so i figured i'd go attend a meeting yesterday. didnt wanna fall of track with attending my weight watchers meetings. i didnt weigh in. but i did weigh myself at home twice. the day after i got back from ohio my bf's scale said i was 166.2. then on wed. morning i weighed again @ home and it said 164.2. eh, so it must be alot of water weight i gained and even if it is just a pound, thank god!

i ate sooooo much in just one long weekend. if i knew ohio was gonna be all about food i would have prepared better. but im fine with my choices. i counted points everyday and tracked on my iphone except one day and even though i ate shitty things i didnt beat myself up. i was happy. i was with my friends and all was well.

since tuesday i've been eating much better. and i'm just trying to be 163 again by next tuesday and then on from there. i wanna make a video tonight. i was totally gonna do it yesterday but i was (and am) stressed and out and bummed from work. somethings gotta change on that end. anyhoo....back to work i go.

weighed in today...maybe i'll call it weigh in #1 :)

2010-08-17T13:47:00.004-04:00

so i must be a psychic. because i predicted my weight last week to be 163.2 by this week. and this tuesday i am 163.0!!! that is a 1.2 lb loss. woot! i exceeded it by .2. purty happy. :)

i feel really good about last week. i brought in lunches (mostly healthy choice meals) and when i didn't bring in lunch i opted for a salad and some sort of soup. also i made sure to have my oatmeal and actually stayed within points on most days. i think it helped having groceries and meals available to me. because even though i'm not one to plan my meals (never have been) atleast i have access to foods that will help me stay on plan. (mental note: buy groceries for this week)

i cooked my dinner once last week (i made chicken fajitas, yum!) the other times me and my babes got sushi (brown rice spicy tuna = love). i ate all of my weekly points and my activity points. i gained 14 activity points so you know i was in the gym! lol. i really want to take class though

next week i would love to see a loss. but i have two huge challenges. on friday night i leave for ohio to spend 3 days with my friends (happy eating and drinking much? :/) and also on tuesday i'm schedule to get my period. i may not weigh in next tuesday if i feel like i usually feel on my first day. but i also may just weigh in to face the music. its hard facing that music though.

goal for next week: going to aim to lose half a pound for next week. i'm going to the gym today and tomorrrow. after that i'm not able to do so. so i either need to walk everywhere i go while away or be mindful of the foods i'm eating while i'm away. i will try my hardest to lose! even out of my comfort zone...

i was gonna make a video about my weigh in today but i'm too busy tonight to do it. i gotta pack, go to the gym, make dinner...eh. video not on my top priority (but i made one yesterday!). ill make it if at the end of the day if i have 30 minutes to spare.

weighed in today

2010-08-10T13:18:00.005-04:00

i duno what made me do it. but i did not eat ALL of my weeklys plus some for the first time in MONTHS last week. i had 18 points left. i am so proud of me for actually sticking to the plan for a whole week. of course no perfection but a huge step towards improvement

i just weighed in at weight watchers at 164.2. that puts me down 0.6 from 2 weeks ago. a lil disappointed because on sunday i stepped on my scale and weighed 161. but i can't expect my weight to just melt off like that and i shouldnt constantly be weighing myself anyhoo. so i'll take the 0.6 loss! and aim for 1 pound next week. aiming for 163.2!!!!

i've kept at it with the gym. i actually feel pretty sore right now. ugh. i'm not going to the gym today cuz i have a date with my sweety and i usually take tuesdays off anyway to hang out. but i'm going 5 times this week.

on sunday i went food shopping and bought a bunch of frozen meals and healthy staples that i used to purchase. it had been literally MONTHS since i went grocery shopping. so sad. so i had to re stock on basically everything. ive been cooking a bit more and feeling a lot better about my choices. i'm not aiming for perfection. i can't because i'll fail. so instead i have made goals.

the first goal is to get back into the 150's. if i enter 159.9 before i step on the plane to puerto rico in 3 and a half weeks i'll be ecsatic. thats about 5 pounds from now. so i'm working on the steps to get there.

i wanna get back into vlogging. but ive been so out of it that i dont even wanna bother with it sometimes. but i know its something that will help me stay on track. so i'm going to force myself to make a video this week. top priority! no more half assing my weightloss.

on and forward!

weighed in on wednesday

2010-07-30T10:50:00.004-04:00

so i weighed in on wednesday finally! i need to stop erratically attending meetings. i need to make it my religion to go to a meeting EVERY week.

so anyway, i weighed in at 164.8 which was a loss of 0.6 pounds to two weeks prior. eh i duno man. foods not going so great. i'll be good for one or two days then all hell breaks loose. exercise was good last week. but this week with my impending period and me feeling like shit i've only been to the gym once. i plan to go tonight but who knows how ill feel with my period. ugh, hate it.

so i know that next week wont be such a loss because of my poor eating habits and lack of exercise and period bloat but i dont wanna be such a debbie downer. so tomorrow i'm setting up some time for myself to re-evalute what i'm doing. see how i can change things and get back on the path to my goals. nothing can stop me if i put my mind to it. but thats exactly whats wrong. my mind isnt in it.

last weekend i cleaned my room and read a book. i felt so zen. like everything was ok. like i could almost get back on track for just accomplishing that mess of a room. i've been obsessed with looking up trips to just get away and zone out on the beach. but maybe thats not what i need. maybe i just need order in my life in order to take control again of myself. cuz i'm totally losing it.

anyhoo...on to the next week.

aw crap..weigh in

2010-07-16T14:39:00.005-04:00

aw crap forgot to blog about my weigh in on Tuesday. this week i've been super hella busy and stressed at work so i've had like no time for life. and every time i come home i collapse and zone out.

so anyhoo, my boss is not here so i can breathe kinda. ok so the week prior i didn't go to weight watchers but this past week on tuesday i went (in the pouring rain mind you) and weighed in at 165.4. which was a gain of 1.6. *sigh* its frustrating watching the scale go up and down. especially in the 160's. but i take total blame for this one.

although my exercise has been all good and i've been going to the gym 4 times a week and or trying at home things.....my food...not so good. i have gotten into the habit of not caring about what i ate. and last weekend was like a liquor fest. i drank three days in a row and ate at 3 am knowing i had no points left. so it wasn't a shock that i gained.

i just need the two to work together. hand in hand. exercise and healthy choices. i've slightly been trying this week with food but i think i know where i fail when it comes to food.

its the planning. i never plan my meals. or even bring lunch to work. i mean, i usually have lunch out and a lot of the times its tempting to go over what i allot myself for the meal. or sometimes i really don't know whats in it. so i'm constantly guesstimating my points. which is bad, i know. so this week is pretty much shit, cuz its friday and i've already just come back from buying lunch. (but it was a yummy avocado salad!) so on monday next week i'm challenging myself to bring in lunch for a week. it'll also save me money, which i need to do.

so exercise is good. i'm on week 5 of couch to 5 k. i feel SOOOOO great when i work out. but leme tell you its not easy. last time i did C25k i was 10 pounds lighter. and now i feel the weight gain. i can't do it like i did it man. and i'm determined to get back in my size 8 jeans (currently at size 10)

i can, i will! oh yeah...see ya next tuesday. i think i might make a vlog soon.
but i feel like i wanna get my life back together before that...i duno ill see what the deal is. its just easier and less time consuming for me to type right now.

weighed in yesterday

2010-06-30T16:13:00.002-04:00

so I weighed in yesterday at 163.8 lbs @ WW! woo hoo! down 3.8! I never thought I'd be happy to be in like the lower 160's. But whatever, it's progress and closer to the 150's again.

i was soo not gonna go to the meeting. i think sometimes i talk myself into being a lazy ass. i was like "wah wah i know i'm prob the same weight cuz i ate like shit for some days and blah blah". but i went and was down. smh, i need to give myself more credit. yes, i went OVER my weeklys by 4 points. but I also worked out 4 days doing couch to 5k. much better than doing absolutely nothing as i've been doing in the past.

anyway, i'm trying to tackle my eating this week. i mean, its not been perfect but i'm not looking to be perfect. i'm looking to well atleast first get back in the swing of things. you know, staying within my points (its been AGES leme tell ya) and feeling good about my choices. it doesnt have to be super healthy or super clean. but better than it has been.

hmm....i duno. i just have to trust that if i keep up working out and eating better i will lose. and it will come off. and i have to be positive about this experience or else i'll get no where. these past 6 months have proven that.

positive! positve! positive! i am beautiful today even with this extra jiggle!!

updated weigh ins

2010-06-22T14:29:00.002-04:00

I updated my weigh ins over there. I didnt track it really for the first 6 months of 2010 (fell off). But I'm back to doing it. Starting today. ----------------->

activities i wanna try soon

2010-06-22T14:18:00.002-04:00

biking outside / in the park
zumba
rock climbing
yoga

i hate the scale

2010-06-22T13:39:00.002-04:00

So I went to WW today and weighed in at 167.6. The last time i was there i was 163 point something. That was late May. So kudos to me for going back. But wtf....so mad. Hate the scale. But whatever we'll see what happens next week.

I worked out 5 days last week and I also made better food choices. It wasnt perfect but I didnt drink (except for on the weekend like in the old days) and I tracked everything. Over all I feel good about how my week went. Which is why the scale is such a bummer. But you know what, the scale will catch up to my good doings.

Also, this may be a lil TMI but my body is so out of wack. Last Monday I took Plan B. (You've heard of it before I'm sure.) So anyhoo...this past Sunday I started bleeding like a period. And I had just recently finished my period so I'm thinking the hormones inside my body is on crack or something. I've been bleeding for 3 days as of now like its a period. I'm going to check with my doctor but I'm sure I'm fine. Just out of wack. So I think it has to do with my weight. Because I also feel heavier and bloated like I'm on my cycle because of the bleeding and such. So eh, maybe that has to do with what the scale says now.

So this week I'm doing the Couch 2 5K again. I feel so good everytime I finish a session. I started week 2 yesterday and I'm continuing on. I ran for 90 seconds and walked for 2 minutes of intervals for 20 minutes. Building my way back up to sexy. Lol. I can feel the difference in my energy and my mood and even in the way I walk now. I'm not as sluggish as I was. I feel good.

Hoping for a loss next week! *crosses fingers*

reality check

2010-06-15T14:08:00.002-04:00

so i just read my first entry in this blog which was the first day i joined weight watchers (sep. 16th 2008) here were my long term goals:

goals (long term):
weigh 160 (weight watchers says 147)
fit into a size 10 jeans
feel healthier

sooooo...it seems that i made those goals. besides the whole 160 thing. i surpassed it and then went back to it. now have a new weight goal. but all in all. i did it. so proud. 2 years ago i didnt think id ever see it. now im here in it wanting to get smaller. heh, never satisfied.

only one way out this hole

2010-06-15T10:14:00.004-04:00

man i feel great! i went to the gym last night and ive decided to not keep trying to put on the jeans that dont fit me. since it makes me depressed. instead ill try them on after each month of atleast TRYING to get back in them. lol

i'm at work right now. debating on getting a second cup of coffee. (had one at home)

last night i got home and was really annoyed! i live in the damn hood. so these kids / annoying hatian men who refuse to get jobs and instead make their job annoying me (for the past 7 years) were bothering me. as they do every time i walk in and out of my house.

my patience is wearing thin. anyway...there is a point to this. so i notice that every time i come into the house annoyed (a.k.a everyday) i storm in kiss my little nephew and make a b-line to the kitchen where i can find something to soothe me. it usually ends up being crackers, bread with raw honey, or whatever my mom had made for lunch for my nephew. so thats got to stop.

only YOU can decide how you react to something or how you want to feel about a certain situation. (atleast thats what i'm learning while reading "the 7 habits of highly effective people") hmmm. i wonder if i can change that come this afternoon. will i allow these thugs to ruin my health and sanity!? lol. either that or i move...in with the boyfriend. but thats a whole other subject.

so yup, going to WW at 12 on my lunch time. dont think im officially weighing in but i wanna just go to a meeting since its been 2 weeks.

did this post have a point? duno. but it was fun. i miss blogging about my daily annoyances.

rock bottom

2010-06-14T10:51:00.004-04:00

i doubt anyone still reads this but i need an outlet...and I'm so out of the youtube thing.

so yesterday i stepped on the scale and it said 169. i knew it wasn't an accurate account of my exact weight because i had just eaten as well as finished drinking the night before. but even that meant that i was well into the 160's.

i had almost a breakdown. i cried for like an hour after i wasn't able to make it to the gym to follow my new "schedule" to get my butt back in gear and get back into the 150's. so i was at a lost and my boyfriend kind of gave me tough love. he told me everything will be ok and shoved weights in my hand. for the next hour and a half he basically made me do squats and lifts and crunches and spotted me.

i stopped crying after a few sets and realized i cant just say i wanna lose weight and it magically happen. i have to do the hard work that comes along with it as I've done in the past. But since I've been seeing the 160's for the past month or so on my scale I've just wanted it GONE magically and that cant happen. i cant just quickly move back into the 150's. i have to take it slow as I've before. but i have this want for immediacy. i want the 150's NOW! i want to look and feel how i did a year ago.

but it cant just be like *poof* I'm back to a comfortable weight and loving my body and being happy. i have to make the goals, stick with it. eat less, move more. and then results will appear.

so tomorrow I'm going to weight watchers. I'm making a commitment to the gym 5 days this week as well as sticking to my daily points everyday this week. thats all. nothing too extreme. can't wait for the scale to go back down. and my body and mind to feel better.

bad food choices feel crappy

2010-01-28T09:52:00.002-05:00

not the best of food choices these past 2 days. i don't think i have any weekly's left. i think the whole month of February i should challenge myself not to use my weekly's.

i dont think i have not done that in probably a year or so. i just wanna get back to losing! grrrr. and my period is not help me. :(

lazy youtube bum

2010-01-11T13:27:00.005-05:00

wow, so ugh. i've been such a lazy bum when it comes to the internet. i work with it all day so the last thing i wanna do when i go home is go on the computer. but i need to make a video this week to keep myself on track. so i'll make it either today or tomorrow. i have been going to my meetings. it's not like i'm totally off the wagon. i'm just not into the youtube ish.

but anyway, i ended up losing i think 1/2 a pound the first sunday of the year and then yesterday when i went to weigh in it said i gained it right back. which is no sweat because i didn't work out not once, i had my period....but *gasp* i didn't overeat like i usually do when i'm on my period. so i'm glad that i had that in check. the gain could have been huge. but it wasn't.

the goal is to finally stop believing that perfection exists. because it doesnt. and its okay not to be perfect in every element of weight loss. as long as at one point they are all being worked on, it works!

2009-12-13T13:18:00.001-05:00

"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass its about dancing in the rain."

the blob

2009-12-09T13:39:00.001-05:00

i feel like the blob.

i just had chili w/ rice and i dont know how many points it was. grr. i start my day fine, then bullshit happens. hate it! hate it! hate it!

next week, i have no events or any thing special. i should do simply filling so it'll force me to not eat out.

and now i gotta find my really old camera. i can't make youtube videos cuz mine broke :(

going forward no matter what

2009-12-04T10:47:00.000-05:00

i feel a little defeated because i stepped on the scale and it wasnt to my liking. plus yesterday i wanted to exercise yesterday and i didnt. instead i passed out on my bed after eating and eating and eating.

i've felt very sad since i came back from my vaca. probably because i just jumped right back into going to work and i had no time to get back to life really. my stuff is still at my bf's house. so i havent unpacked and my mind just feels a little hay wired and hectic. i wanna feel a little more grounded this week. so i'm happy it's friday.

i just need to force myself this weekend to exercise today and tomorrow. go to my meeting on sunday morning. take my weight as it is and move forward.

it's december. *sigh* 150 isnt looking like it'll come in 4 weeks. but that's because i can't see it. i can't visualize it because i'm constantly looking back when i should just remmeber that all i can do is go forward instead of wining about what i COULD have done.

anyhoo, my foods have basically been in check since tuesday. points wise. so i shouldnt freak out so much. but i just feel blah. and i need something to kick me out of it. and i bet you exercising would. so i'm going today. and cooking dinner today also. i havent cooked for myself in a while.

focusing on today

2009-10-12T12:15:00.003-04:00

my whole body hurts from playing wii for like 3 hours yesterday. ugh. lol. plus its cold outside and i rather be in my bed under the covers. but i'm at work and it's pretty slow here today. they really should have given us the day off.

my eating this weekend was horrible. there were good attempts at eating healthy. like ordering tilapia instead a fatty mc fat fat meal but i still ate the bread and the wine and felt like throwing up from eating too big of a portion.

i wish i had a little person always with me saying, "PUT DOWN THE BREAD, NOW!". but alas, i don't. there's just me. so i have to learn to control myself. i've had such awesome control in the past. it feels like it is just slipping away.

so today i'm just focusing on today. and not what i'm eating tomorrow or anything. i'm focusing on the quality of food i put in my system today.

and i'm weighing in at home because i really rather go home than spend monday night in a meeting i dont wanna sit in. lol. (plus i forgot my monthly pass, oops) man, i have to find a regular meeting again. this is killing my ww buzz.

my back hurts

2009-09-20T22:46:00.003-04:00

my back hurts and i feel very snacky. its gotta be coming...lol. i know the scales gonna reflect tomorrow. not sure if i can make the damn meeting tomorrow either way. because i made a promise to go check out this apt. damn. but where theres a will...if anything, ill check my weight in the morning @ home and go to a meeting on my lunch on tuesday. mondays are usually more busy so cant do that tomorrow.

i did fine this week besides my mishap last night with liqour and pizza. i even gym-ed 3 days. but whatever the scale says, i still feel pretty happy wih this body. :)

i wana get back into cooking and planning meals. this weeks goal! im cooking tomorrow! the only thing thatll stop me is if the period really does come and im wining in bed like a baby which is what i usually do on the first day. *sigh*

hello hello hello

2009-09-14T12:48:00.003-04:00

i totally got thrown off track this weekend and didn't go to a weigh in. boo to me for not prioritizing my life.

but i'm going after work tonight to a 5:45 pm meeting right outside my job. if i like the leader i may make it a permanent change until i find out that my original leader is back. i may still also check out a weekend meeting next sat or sun. because i rather do ww more on my personal time and not during the work week. but we'll see what goes.

this weigh in may be a toss up. i ate well up until this saturday when i spend the weekend with my boyfriend and ate like a cow just because. lol. but i did try a new aerobics class and did the treadmill this week. so who knows. i'll see at 5:45. then a video tonight! yipee! :)

oops

2009-08-08T15:23:00.004-04:00

oopsy oops. been neglecting this thing. i have had many food comas for the past 2 weeks. lots of self sabatoging. still maintaining. but learning every day that this is a process and i'm going through it. and still not giving up. i'm currently at 156.1 pounds. cant plan too much for the future. just the NOW. see ya next weigh in.

weigh in 43

2009-07-17T21:36:00.002-04:00

so last week i had no weigh in. and this week i weighed in but just have been either occupied with someone else, tired, or just lazy to do a video or come on the internet and post my stats. so here it is. i weighed in at 157.8 pounds. that is a gain of 2.2 pounds! i was surprised it wasnt more. really. i know what i ate. it shoudl have been more. good thing i exercise.

but anyway, it was from 2 weeks of bad eating, bbq's, and just over all fail to prepare. now that i'm in my second week of work i know what to bring to work and my routine is now down packed! so i feel a whole lot better this week. i havent been going to the gym as often as i'd like. (blame that on standing in line for hours to see harry potter, ha!) but i've gone twice this week so far. and my goal is atleast 3 times a week. and i have this weekend to gain some more activity. i feel great this week! my body feels loose and not stiff. my spirits are up! and i'm just happy even though the scale did me wrong, lol.

here's to a great weigh in next tuesday! happy weekend!

tired, dehydrated, cafeeinated out!!!

2009-07-06T20:41:00.003-04:00

so today was my first day at my internship. and its all my fault that i'm tired. i couldnt sleep last night. i went to bed at 1. and woke up earlier than my alarm. so i prob had about 4 and a half hours of sleep.

i have eaten within my points. but i just feel icky. because i had three cups of coffee today and lack of sleep. i feel like when i'm extra tired, coffee doesnt help. and my body hurts from who knows what. because i havent really been gyming it hard this past week. at all. probably my evil period. which is also adding to the ickyness.

but now that i have a structured schedule of actually waking up in the wee morning and going to a place of work i have to figue out when i'm going to the gym. and i have to plan better for what to bring to work also. so that i eat better and not go outside and waste money on crapola food.

yup, off to it i go. because id like to be asleep in 1 hour....

weigh in 41

2009-07-01T14:49:00.005-04:00

so, first time ever that i've actually maintained my exact weight. i weighed in yesterday at 155.6 pounds. no gain, no loss. wow. so i guess i ate enough food to sustain my weight. but i also worked out 5 days. duno what happened. but i'm not complaining. so i started June off at 158.6...so in the month of June i lost 3 pounds! yay, here's to more weight loss!

oo, i got a paid internship. i got the call this afternoon and i start monday. so elated!!!! now i'll have an actual schedule. so i have to see where working out fits in and which new meeting i want to go to. i may still be able to make my weight watchers meeting because they moved it to 6:30 now in a different place. i'll see. cuz the meeting i went to in the city yesterday was at 6 and i really liked the leader. maybe i'll switch off and on.

anyhoo.....hope i lose this week. even though its 4th of july. and you know them bbq's! damn summer and their yummy foods. just have to find alternatives and be prepared when i get to the bbq. :)

weigh in 40

2009-06-23T23:57:00.002-04:00

i weighed in today at 155.6 lbs. exactly 1 pound loss. i worked very hard and only loss a pound. :( now i understand when people bitch about losing too little. because you expect more. maybe i should never set high standards. i allowed the scale to make me mad for a bit. but then i got over it when i realized....hey, i lost weight! lol. so all's goody in the hoody.

gotta be careful this week though. i want to lose at least a pound next tuesday and i'm going to be hanging out and drinking this weekend with my friends. i'm going to come equipt with my weight watchers frozen din din's and stuff so i wont be tempted to eat like i'm on vacation...cuz i'm not. it'll be a challenge but i'll remember that i wanna see the scale move!

weigh in 39

2009-06-17T13:08:00.002-04:00

shit, this is my 40th week on weight watchers. lol.

i weighed in yesterday at my meeting at 156.6. which is a loss of 2 pounds! wahooo! i didnt expect it since i totally went overboard when i spent the weekend with my boyfriend. but i guess in the end my activity balanced out my crap food. this week i'm determined to slowly remove crap food and bring back in the healthy food, lean proteins, nice fresh fruits and vegetables and lots o' water! i'm aiming for another 2 pound loss so i can end up around 154. can u tell i'm determined for june loss? lol.

anyway, so last night i stayed up just watching youtube videos. now i'm kicking myself for it cuz i'm tired. and plus when i stay up is when i get the munchies. and ofcourse i dipped into my weeklys or maybe activity points. cuz it wasnt too much munching. it was peanutbutter and strawberries. but it was all measured. and i also had a 0 point hot chocolate to get the urge off of eating any more sweets. sweets will be the death of me. i swear.

anyway, today feels good though. i had a good breakfast and i'm going to work out about 30 minutes after my lunch. no more slackness! its time to get serious about these last few pounds.

weigh in 38

2009-06-09T23:42:00.003-04:00

mmm i just made spicy black bean soup off of the weight watchers website. and the serving was so filling and it was yummy! i love things like that. and only 3 points. :) perfect for lunches.

but anywya, i made a weigh in youtube video. but i'll still post it here. i weighed in at 158.6. blast!!!! an hour before i weighed in at weight watchers i checked my own scale at home and it said 157.6. but i was naked. eh, i'm on my period so i'm decided to blame 1.6 from two weeks ago on it. lol. even though i know i wasnt the best weight watchers girl this past week.

but these numbers cant keep on rising because i dont wanna be out of the 150's. i mean i hate this weight phase but i dont wanna go even further back. so i'm really watching what im eating even though i'm on my period. i had 22 points today. and my day is over! (yay me!) and if i feel like i need somehting to eat i'll have some 0 point jello. i already had 0 point hot chocolate to curb my chocolate craving. its always nice to have 0 points things ready and available.

anyway, i'm going to starighten up my room then go to sleep. gym tomorrow. hard! i wanna see if i can sign up for spinning.

binging

2009-06-04T13:09:00.002-04:00

what to do after a binge? i so don't wanna eat today. i wanna rid my body of all the toxins i've ingested! i really really hate this. so yesterday by 4 pm i had 3 points left for dinner. which is VERY dangerous for me. because then i usually plan to have 0 point soup or something but that never works out because i then don't feel satisfied and i do something to try and help me feel satisfied and it usually turns into some kind of binge.

it started out fine. i ate my tilapia fish for dinner and gave my self some wiggle room with weeklys and had butternut squash and a 2 point busicuit i had made. but during the night those buscuits became six buiscuits down the hatch!!! and i kept drinking from my boyfriends beer. so i get home feeling extremely gulity!!! i also felt a lot of anxiety. i was thinking of how much exercise i would have to do to burn all that shit off. so ofcourse at 1 am i was not happy with myself. what do i continue to do? EAT! wtf is wrong with me? so 2 (3 point) fiber one pastries, 2 (3 point) fiber one peanut butter bars (man, i'm full of fiber lol), milk, and a banana dipped in starwberry jam. i finally managaed to fall asleep at 6 am. mentally kicking myself. i calculated it this morning and i'm about 11 points OVER my weekly's. possibly more.

lord where do i go from here? do i try my best to eat healthy? do i do what i want to do and just not eat which i know is horrible? or do i push that binge aside and keep going, sticking to 22 points a day? i'm sooooo frustrated. i want this weight off but random spurts like this always derail me!

meeting but no weigh in

2009-06-03T13:37:00.006-04:00

so i went to my meeting but decided not to weigh in. even though, that morning i stepped on my own scale and it said i lost a pound. i dont trust it. but whatever. but now i'm thinking maybe i shoulda weighed in and skipped next tuesday cause my period is due on the 8th. damn! lol. ah well, if i "gain" i'll know its because of my period cause i'm back on the ball.

so i was thinking maybe i should make some goals to re motivate myself. i think the whole month of may i had no loss. so sad. i dont like wasting money and that was 40 dollars of no weight loss. lol. so this june i'm determined to atleast end the month with a loss. itll be nice if i actually hit 150 (lord please get me there) but an over all loss for the month needs to be done.

they didnt say this weight loss thing was easy right? i mean, you want something. you can picture yourself at a certain weight and happy but why dont we continue to take the steps to get there? i think it all comes down to motivation. and in may a lot of motivation for basically everything in life was gone. but we have to re motivate ourselves. we need to tell ourselves that if we keep going we will get there. and i will get there!

miami vaca

2009-06-01T11:22:00.002-04:00

if i havent gained 50 pounds this weekend, i will be shocked. lol. omg miami was CRAZZZZZY! i dont think there was one moment where i wasnt buzzzed as soon as we left the hotel room that first day. masses amounts of liqour! poor food choices. no counting points. but i wouldnt take it back for nothing. i had too much fun. but i'm contemplating on weigh in tomoorrow. i know i gained because i know what i did. so i figure i should go to the meeting and skip weigh in part because do i really need to know the complete damage? ha. i'm still seeing about it. its tomorrow so i'll decide by then. but anyway, good times. i needed that mini vaca.

but i'm back to normal eating today. it felt good to eat an apple. lol. my poor body is probably confused as to what i'm doing to it. lol.

weigh in 36

2009-05-26T22:07:00.003-04:00

laziness is a crime. i'm not making a video. i just came back from the gym and i want dinner. whatever. i'll do it when i come back from miami. but um....

i weighed in today at 157. wtf? 2.2 gain? i mean i know i went a little over board but not that overboard. but i'm not sweating it. my clothes don't feel any different and my stomach is not a huge mess and sometimes that's how i measure my success. ha! u cant be sad every time you have a gain. you know what you eat, you know how much you move. so you just gotta roll with it. so my dream of boarding the plane at 152 is shot but that's fine. last time i was in miami i was pushing 190. so i'm happy to be going back a lot lighter.

anyhoo...so gained some...not that much of a surprise. and i'm just ready to be on the beach. i'm totally looking up strategies on staying on plan on vacation. i'm bringing lots of fiber one bars, bringing apple slices and saving all of my weeklys. i'm so excited!

weigh in 35....whew!

2009-05-19T21:04:00.003-04:00

ok, so i went to weigh in today and it felt good to be back. i weighed in at 154.8. so 0.8 up from 2 weeks ago. but i dont think i was ever happy to see that much of a gain. the first day of my period (last thursday) i stepped on the scale and it said 159.something...so i was very bummed, but then i realized it may be period bloat and all. and it was!

but man, i feel like last week i was basically off of weight watchers. i mean, i tracked but i ate horribly! doughnuts, liqour, 3 am burgers. you woulda thought i relapsed. lol. so 0.8 is nothing to me! i was actually happy because i felt like today was a new start and a new re focus.

also, i booked a weekend trip to miami and i leave on the 29th of may. so i gave myself a lil mini goal to be 152 pounds the day that i board the plane. i know i can do it. i've done it before. but i also want to pass that number already! so i hve 10 days. and i'm totally on plan! its been a good eating day so far. :)

i'm gonna get back to my youtube-ing, next tuesday i think. i kind of enjoy not making a video of my weigh in....i was going to do it today, but i need to get to the gym. so one more week away wont hurt. anyhoo off to work my booty and get some abs for miami!

not going to weigh in

2009-05-12T13:37:00.004-04:00

i feel a bit guilty that i'm doing this today but i think it has to be done. i have not missed one meeting since september. meaning, i've never missed a weight watchers meeting. i'm thinking should i go and not weigh in? but i really dont even feel like listening to advice.

i just want to be this week. i dont want to think about re-starting my diet. i want to just do. not plan. so i'm not going to my meeting today. i'm taking a much needed break from everything. i'm just focusing on cleaning out my room and extra room because i have to paint soon.

i'm eating well. i havent gone overboard. excercise is going well. i'm very soar. my period is also coming very soon so i dont feel like my weigh in would be accurate. and i'm very sensitive these days. the scale can prob make me not want to do anything for the rest of the day but cry and eat. i want this part of my life to be done with already. i'm not happy. but i hope i soon will be.

i'll weigh in next week for sure. wont fall too far off the bandwagon.

weigh in # 33 + impromptu social networking break

2009-05-06T13:33:00.004-04:00

i weighed in at 154.0 yesterday. up 1.6 from last week.

i'm also taking an impromptu social networking break. i basically stopped all notifications from everything and deleted the apps for facebook twitter and you tube emails from my phone.

i think social networking sites are a fabulous tool....when used wisely. when you have so much free time like i do, they can sometimes become too much of your time. and i dont enjoy that. i've done this many times before. usually in the summer months. but i think i need atleast a week if not the whole month of may.

i dont think journal sites are social networking since i basically express myself in writing just as i would do on paper in my real journal. so i'm keeping these to blog my weight loss progress and keep up with life as i've been doing since the year 2002 when i started blogging.

anyway, i'm hoping to stay focused on my situations at hand and taking away extra distractions is exactly what i need to do. i dont really need notice of breaking, but i felt like saying it somewhere. even though, i basically read this and post my weight to keep me accountable. till next tuesday. i'm outie. :)

weigh in # 32

2009-04-30T14:12:00.004-04:00

i didnt put weigh in # 31 because i didnt weigh in. but this week i weighed in at 152.4. up.2 from 2 weeks ago. the scale is getting so hard to budge i guess now that i've been losing for so long. is this a sign from god telling me i'm pretty much done?

i'm in this weird place right now. and i want to get out of it. i think once everything else falls into place....the weight loss will kick back up again.

back to points

2009-04-20T16:50:00.002-04:00

so back to counting points tomorrow. i have to stop thinking of points as evil and small. and more of plentiful. yes i have 22 points, but some people have like 18! and i was just not utilizing them in the correct way for a very long time. i had a system a long time ago and for some reason the system worked and now i was off that system and disaster striked and i kept gaining and losing.

simply filling definitely helped me out with that need to have sweets all the time. i wonder if there is a way to combine simply filling and points. i'm sure there is. just make sure to eat filling portions of things for my points.

tomorrow is my weigh in. not sure how well its going to be because i just got my period. and i kinda cheated and stepped on my bathroom scale and it said i was 154 point something. i'm ok with that because i know i usually have gains on my period. i'm not gonna punk out and not weigh in either. i'm just gonna take it as it is and keep on trucking. cuz at the end of the day, i'm still losing this weight.

SF Food Log 4-16-09

2009-04-16T23:45:00.004-04:00

breakfast:
-3 scrambled eggs w/ salsa, spinach, red & green peppers
-starbucks coffee w/ fat free milk

snack:
-1 grapefruit
-crackers, jelly and peanut butter (FAIL!!!!! - most of my weekly's :( )

lunch:
-1 tilapia filet
-3/4 cup heinz vegetarian beans
-sauteed onions

snack:
-pineapple chunks (canned in own juices)

dinner:
-plain oatmeal w/ applesauce mixed in
-1 cup fat free milk w/ diet hot coa coa

SF Food Log 4-15-09

2009-04-15T20:56:00.005-04:00

breakfast:
-3 scrambled eggs w/ ff cheese
-coffee w/ fat free milk + 1 tbsp brown sugar (1 point)

snack:
-1 grapefruit
-coffee w/ fat free milk + 1 tbsp brown sugar (1 point)

lunch:
-1 lamb pieces
-2 small baked potato drizzled w/1 tsp of olive oil and 1 tbsp of sour cream (1 point)
-1 cup mixed vegetables

snack:
-5 saltine crackers (1 point)
-2 tsp peanut butter (1 point)
-5 tsp strawberry preserves(1.5 point)

dinner:
-chicken noodle soup

weigh in 30

2009-04-15T00:59:00.001-04:00

152.2! woooooooh! 3 pounds this week. i love you simply filling. :)

SF Food Log 4-14-09

2009-04-14T16:50:00.007-04:00

breakfast:
-fiber one cereal
-fat free milk (1 cup)
-coffee w/ brown sugar (1 point)
-1 banana
-handful of blueberries

snack:
-5 saltine crackers (1 point)
-grapes
-10 baby carrots
-apple sauce

lunch/dinner:
-2 lamb pieces
-2 small baked potato drizzled w/1 tsp of olive oil and 1 tbsp of sour cream (1 point)
-1 cup mixed vegetables

snack:
-weight watchers amaretto cheesecake yogurt (1 point)
-1 macaroon (1 point)

activity:
-treadmill (walk/jog), 30 minutes
-elliptical, 15 minutes

SF Food Log 4-13-09

2009-04-13T17:58:00.003-04:00

breakfast:
-cream of wheat made with ff milk
-sugar in the raw (1 point)
-1 banana sliced
-1/2 grapefruit
-dunkin donuts medium latte lite

lunch:
-left over shrimp and grits w/ 1 slice ff cheese
-1/2 cup heinz vegetarian beans
-10 asparagus spears

snack:
-home made cup of coffee w/ 2 tbsp evaporated milk (1 point)
-other half of grapefruit

dinner:
-1 baked tilapia filet
-2 baked plantains
-sauteed onion, green & red peppers w/ olive oil
-beer (3 points)

activity:
-treadmill (walk/jog) 30 minutes
-walking the dog, 40 minutes leisure walk

SF Food Log 4-12-09

2009-04-12T19:08:00.004-04:00

brunch:
@ i hop:
-2 eggs over medium
-2 slices of bacon (3 points)
-1 pancake (2 points)
- roughly 2 tbsp of pancake syrup (2 points)
-coffee w/ 2 tbsp of half and half (1 point)

snack:
-grapes
-vanilla chai tea w/ 1 tsp of sugar in the raw

dinner:
-shrimp (2 oz) w/gravy made from chicken broth
-grits
-asparagus

activity:
-treadmill (walk/jog), 20 minutes
-elliptical, 30 minutes
-toning (weight watchers dvd), 20 minutes
-yoga, 20 minutes

SF Food Log 4-11-09

2009-04-11T23:24:00.003-04:00

breakfast:
-fiber one cereal
-fat free milk
-1 banana
-coffee w/ fat free milk & 1tbsp sugar (1 point)

lunch:
-original farina w/ unsweetened applesauce
-1 apple
-diet hot chocolate w/fat free milk

dinner:
-chicken thigh
-1/2 potato
-2 cups baby spinach
-1/2 cup vegetarian beans
-sauteed red onion w/ 2 tsp olive oil

activity:
-treadmill (walk/jog) 60 minutes

SF Food Log 4-10-09

2009-04-10T15:14:00.004-04:00

breakfast:
-spinach and mushroom egg white omlette
-1/4 cup ketchup
-1 banana
-cup of bengal spice tea

lunch:
-salad w/ left over shrimp, romain lettuce, 1/2 can tuna, 2 tsp evoo, balsamic vinegar
-1/2 cup broccoli
-1/4 cup brown sauce

snack:
-diet swiss miss hot chocolate made w/ fat free milk
-apple

dinner:
-rotisserie chicken breast cut up
-whole wheat spaghetti
-1/2 cup classico sauce (1 point)
-mixed vegetables
-small salad

SF Food Log 4-9-09

2009-04-09T10:36:00.001-04:00

breakfast:
-cream of wheat w/ 1 cup soy milk, ground cinnamon, and ground nutmeg
-3 tsp of sugar in the raw (1 point)
-2 tsp of evaporated milk (0.5 point)
-1 banana

lunch:
-tossed salad
-2 tsp evoo
-2 tsp balsamic vinegar
- pieces of rotisserie chicken (skinless)

snack:
orange

dinner:
-5 pieces of shrimp
-1 cup broccoli
-brown rice
-brown sauce (1 point)

late night snacking:
2 mrs. field cookies (12 point, thank god for weeklys!)
swiss miss diet hot chocoalte made with fat free milk
1 banana

SF Food Log 4-8-09

2009-04-08T14:12:00.008-04:00

breakfast:
-2 scrambled eggs w/scallion (1 tsp of olive oil)
-1 slice of cheese (1 point)
-2 tbsp salsa
-cup of bengal spice tea w/ 2 tsp sugar in the raw (0.5 point)

snack:
-fage greek fat free yogurt
-sliced kiwi fruit
-1/4 cup fiber one cereal

lunch:
-progresso split pea w/bacon soup
-2 slices of whole wheat light bread (1 point)
-2 tsp of strawberry preserves (0.5 point)

snack:
-banana
-swiss miss diet hot chocolate (0 point)
-1 cup soy milk

dinner:
-braised chicken thigh
-baked sweet potato
-asparagus
-weight watchers chocolate fudge brownie ice cream (2 point)

activity:
- 30 min. treadmill

weigh in # 29

2009-04-08T12:29:00.002-04:00

so i weighed in yesterday at 155.2. i'm up 0.4. not sweating it though because i'm so inspired and happy about the simply filling technique. and i believe in it and i find that i have much more control over what i eat when i'm slightly restricted.

so the new food plan is going well so far. and i'll keep going with my food log.

SF Food Log 4-7-09

2009-04-07T12:27:00.010-04:00

so i'm back on the "simply filling technique" this week. i just wanted to write down my foods to keep me even more accountable for what i eat. so here's my log for today. simply filling allows you to choose from a list of "filling foods". when you see points, that means i have used some of my weekly points allowance. (which you still get on the simply filling technique. woot!)

breakfast:
-cream of wheat w/ ground cinnamon and ground nutmeg
added: 3 tsp of sugar in the raw (1 point)
2 tsp of evaporated milk (0.5 point)
-1 grapefruit
- cup of bengal spice tea
added: 1 tsp of sugar in the raw (0 point)
1 tsp of evaporated milk (0 point)

lunch:
salad w/ baby spinach, canned tuna, 1 hard boiled egg, cucumber, red onion, 2 tsp olive oil, 2 tsp cider vinegar, salt and black pepper (YUM!)

snack:
yo plait light strawberry and banana (2 point)

dinner:
-chicken breast (cut up)
-roasted asparagus
-baked sweet potato
-2 tbsp fat free sour cream

activity:
-30 minutes walking on treadmill
-20 minutes moderate on elliptical machine

weigh in 28

2009-04-01T16:53:00.003-04:00

one step forward. two steps back. *sigh* i weighed in yesterday at 154.8. the same exact weigh i was 2 weeks ago! so i gained 2.2 pounds. but i knew i was going to gain. i even wore jeans to my way in for the first time in like 5 months because i figured whats the use...i knew i gained. (i usually wear spandex)

but i'm getting back on track so that i can see steady weight loss. new month, new attitude! i'm also looking forward to hitting the 140's. yes. i'm done with the 150's and i'm excited to try new territory. so far i've been doing good (yesterday and today) and i'm about to hit the gym.

i know i have the ability to do this. i just have to put my mind to it and stop slacking off.

no weigh in pass

2009-03-30T01:17:00.002-04:00

i'm extremely tempted to use the "no weigh in" pass at my next weigh in. especially after the week i've had. my good health guidelines are shit. i feel achy. and my period finally just ended today. hmmm.

or should i just own up to whatever weight i am this week and celebrate it no matter what?

i should have used the no weigh in pass after my birthday. lol. but eh whatever. man, its just too many birthdays, too much liqour and too much cake for the month of march and april! lol

weigh in 27

2009-03-25T12:01:00.000-04:00

152.6 was the weigh in yesterday. a loss of 2.2 pounds. that was very surprising seeing as i pigged out last week. i almost don't believe the scale this week. because it likes to fuck with me.

this week should be good though. even though i woke up this morning with my period. it isnt a bad one. i'm not hurting as much as i could be hurting. so i'm still going to the gym in 2 hours.

alright, not much to say since i have much to do. i'm out.

i hate this

2009-03-18T19:43:00.003-04:00

i just want to eat and eat. and i can never tell when to stop. its like im in some "feed me" trance right before my period and i'm scared its going to sabatoge me this week. :(

i need to take control though. i totally have control of what i put into my mouth. its crazy. i know i dont need it but then i eat it anyway. i had 37 points today. most of it was crackers, jelly and ice cream. tsk tsk. i guess all i can do is hide the food and do better tomorrow. i mean my week isnt wrecked or anything. unless i keep going down this road. i just need to stick to this number: 22! 22 points chick! that's all you need to have!

maybe i should just look at my weight watchers book and eat what they tell me to eat. this way its more strict. i have too much freedom right now. especially the week before period week. thats dangerous.

weigh in 26, weight day # 182

2009-03-17T22:07:00.003-04:00

so i counted the days since i've joined weight watchers and its been 182 days. wow. long time. 6 months officially yesterday. i like my progress so far.

hate that i stepped on the scale today and weighed in at 154.8. 1 pound gain. especially when i stuck to my points and exercised 4 days. but i have to take in account that it's the week before my period and maybe my body is being funky.

i don't feel heavier. i actually fit into a size 9 jeans today. so all is good in the way my body feels. its just that fucking scale.

in other news my mom wants to try weight watchers with me because she needs surgery and they told her she needs to lose weight before she does surgery. so i'm excited to count her points and make sure she's having good health guidelines each week. because she's doing it from me, not paying for it. fun!

i made corned beef and cabbage today in honor of st. patty's day. it turned out to be only 6 points for dinner! woot! and it incorporated both healthy oils and vegetables. score! yum, i think i can make that any day.

weigh in 25

2009-03-10T23:45:00.004-04:00

ahhh! i lost! i lost!!!!!!!!! *dances*

i weighed in today at 153.8 pounds. a loss of exactly 3 pounds. hard work does pay off. yes!

i don't expect to lose much next week. i expect to at least maintain because its my birthday week and you know how that goes. but my ass is still going to the gym whenever i can. i'm still sticking to my mon, wed, fri thing. and if i can i'll stick in more gym time on the weekend to balance out the cake, liqour, and good old fashion dinner i will be eating come this weekend. lol. hey your birthday is only once a year. :)

oh. i'm officially down 25 pounds! i'm so happy because i promised myself the hungry girl book at 25 pounds down. time to go shopping on amazon! i hope i can sustain this loss. to the gym i go!

burn baby burn!

2009-03-09T22:11:00.006-04:00

i have been in the gym this past week more than i've been in the entire year of 2008! i went last monday, wednesday and friday. then i went again sunday that just passed. and then i went this afternoon. and i'm going tomorrow, i hope! i just love it!

so i scheduled myself to go to the gym mondays, wednesdays, and fridays. i'm tryna build up to 5 days a week. but as you can see i've already been going extra days. i want to go tomorrow because i know this week i will be having extra fat foods because it's my birthday week. i will not deprive myself of cake and liqour. ha!

i usually try to gain 3 to 4 activity points on the days i go to the gym and at least 1 on the days i don't go. so i do the treadmill for 30 minutes (walking and jogging) then i do the elliptical for 20 or 30 minutes depending on how i feel that day.

i hope these workouts pay off. i feel energized though and my body is so much easier to move around...if thats how you say it. i've also not dipped into my weekly's this week! i am so proud! its been a long struggle since 2009 started. i've been like off the band wagon but i feel like i got back on this week. tomorrow is weigh in day and i hope my hard work pays off. i've heard of people going to the gym and gaining. i dont understand that. but i know i did the work, now show me some results! please. hehe.

weigh in 24

2009-03-04T03:29:00.003-05:00

i shouldnt be up. grr. 21 day challenge not going so well. maybe next time i should only choose one thing.

weighed in today at 156.8. i'm up 0.2. eh. nothing. the gym will catch up and my period just ended. so the craving of endless junk has stopped. i even had 5 points left for the day today! (well yesterday, its very late) bad. but i'm not gonna force myself to eat at night if i'm not hungry. i'm loosely following the meals they give us in book 1 to try and get back on the bandwagon. 3 point breakfasts....6 point lunches and so on. i feel better.

but anyway, check out my youtube video and youtube.com/leraloses.

i'm not dipping into weekly's this week. not for nothing. i told my boyfriend to literally smack any kind of junk food out of my hand if he sees me. i went over his house a few hours ago and he had donuts. DAMN! i tried to fight him for it. but he was good and i didnt eat any. lol. my b day is next thursday anyway. i can wait about a week to have some cake. :) till then...i'm at the gym hard body.

i want to lose!!!!!!

get reeses away from me

2009-02-26T18:53:00.004-05:00

i need someone to please come and pry these reeses out of my hand. its a problem. i have 8 (2 point) reeses left and that can be real damage. especially since i ate 5 of them already today. i have like no points left. so for dinner i'm having 0 point soup with some 1 point toast. good thing is that i got my period, hence the chocolate coma. haha, let me stop. i'd have a chocolate coma any day!! why is it so good?

on another note, i went to the ymca today to get info. i should be going back tomorrow to give the money and sign up. hoorah! elliptical here i come! it's a 65 dollar joining fee and it's 38 dollars a month. plus no contract and i can pay cash. waaaay better than bally total fitness. i joined two summers ago and they tried to take me for my money and fuck up my credit. never again. stay away from bally total fitness. i finally got the thing settled last summer and since then they haven't harrassed me. but to this day they harrass my mother who has never stepped foot in a bally total fitness. i hate them.

does anyone ever count down the hours to your next meal? or is it just me?

weigh in 23

2009-02-24T21:50:00.002-05:00

today i weighed in at 156.6 pounds! damn u period and over eating!! so...yeah i gained 2.2 pounds. eeek! i feel like a fat shit. and i know i shouldnt feel that way cause a week can change so much but still. i hate gaining. and i hate periods. and i hate it all! fuuuuuck!

i'm going to the ymca tomorrow. that is it! after my weigh in i didnt feel so bad. i hung out with my babes and we went and got thai food. but now that i am alone and the fact that i gained weight has sunk in, i'm not happy. plus god. i'm having the worst pms of my life. i have felt bloaty and soar and all pms shit for bout a week now. when is this shit coming! just come and stop bothering me. grrrr.

*sigh* i'm gonna go work out in a few just to jump start my back in exercise mode. and maybe itll help me feel less soar and bring on the period.

oo so i found a 0 point cereal! well not really found. i always knew it existed but i never wanted to eat it. (fiber one original.) but now i will because its 0 points! i can have that with my 1 point soy milk and some fruit and have a pretty nice 2 point breakfast. sweet!

no new recipes or new nothing this week. i have nothing like parties or social events to hinder my weight loss. its just a normal week. so i can work out, stick with my points and see good results next week. wish me luck.

u suck

2009-02-23T01:33:00.002-05:00

grrr. i feel like shit on a stick. i'm bloated and i know my bitch of a period is probably coming early. just in time for weigh in day huh? thanks period. you suck.

oh p.s. check out youtube.com/leraloses. i'm in the process of saving/uploading my video. this late at night? yes. lol. must go to bed though. almost 2 am! gah!

21 day challenge + linked youtube videos coming soon

2009-02-20T11:59:00.003-05:00

many of you may have heard about this before. this time i'm sticking to it. starting today! yay. 21 days until my 23rd birthday so i think this little challenge comes to me as a nice little push. the 21 day challenge is for a habit to form. it usually takes about 21 days for you to form a habit. if you do something for 21 days it is likely to stick. for my 21 day challenege i have decided to do these three things:

1) stick to my 22 points each day. (use weekly's only on the weekends)
2) exercise at least 15 minutes each day
3) go to bed by 2 am

so those are 3 things i want to make a habit for myself. i think these are very realistic and it shouldnt be too hard to follow.

i'm also in the process of making my own youtube videos that will link with this blog. i think it will keep me motivated and give me even more accountability. i'll still have healthy black girls with my friend trishia. but those videos are far and few between. i was looking to maybe make weekly videos. cause 1, i enjoy watching weight loss videos on you tube. and 2, it'll be my own accountability. so stay tuned for that. i'm excited. tee hee.

good day.

2009-02-19T20:24:00.002-05:00

ahhh. so after my crazy day yesterday, i finally don't feel like i need to binge myself with fattening foods. maybe it was the whole period thing....ugh. sometimes it sucks being a woman since our bodies love to hold on to weight.

anyway, for breakfast i had some life cereal with almond milk (only 3 points, yay!), a cup of grapes. and a starbucks cappucino. then for lunch i got a pepperoni and pineapple pizza for 7 points and had carrot sticks on the side. and i'm cooking dinner right now. mmmm it smells good. its this sausage and vegie stew with potatoes. i saw it on food network and wanted to try it and its 8 points. perfect for dinner.

so yay, i'm within my points. and i may even have a point left so i can have a weight watchers dark chocolate piece. perfect. hopefully i can do this well until monday night because i have no weekly's left. *crosses fingers*

FAIL!

2009-02-18T20:45:00.003-05:00

man i FAIL this month. its only wednesday and in one day i'v eaten most of my weekly's and havnt had any good health guidelines in today. maybe except the blueberries that were in my scones and walking for 30 minutes. thats what i get for going out to eat and getting corned beef hash without thinking. grrrr.

i hate this. i hate the guilt i feel for over eating. i just want to stop but i don't know how. why did this have to start now? when i was so close to goal!? i miss the days when i couldnt even eat all of my points. now i'm so over board its not funny.

i feel like i'm pms ing though. and i usually do over eat the week before my period. either way, i should have more willpower. *sigh*

weigh in 22, shut up!

2009-02-17T20:43:00.003-05:00

what? no way. i weighed in today at 154.4. a loss of 1.8 pounds? no! this doesnt make sense. i literally ate a bag of reeses peanutbutter cups. woah, the weight watchers gods must have wanted me to be happy or something. lol

so i looked back at my week. it was alot of pasta and chocolate. i had made the beef straganoff with eggnoodles last tuesdays and had left overs for wed. but i stayed within points until friday. then saturday all hell broke loose and i ate and said ah well its part of my weekly's. but i know it wasn't. it was more. but maybe i wasn't counting my good days and focusing on the bad. but really though. the bad outweighed the good. i don't know how it happened but i'm glad it did. i'm not commiting to anything this week. just to do good with my ghg's and of course track.

so close to goal. and oo so close to 25 pounds down! i'm buying the hungry girl book when i hit 25 pounds down. i wonder how its going to be when i have to maintain my weight...

valentines weekend massacre

2009-02-16T22:23:00.005-05:00

i'm almost scared to go weigh in tomorrow. i would give in that no weigh in ticket and just go for the meeting but i dont wanna be a punk. i ate poorly, so i should learn from my mistakes right? uuuuuuugh!

so after my valentines chocolate coma my bf and i went to atlantic city and shared a suite with some of his fam. it was fun. nice get away from brooklyn. but oh god, the buffet! and oh god late night chicken bacon sandwich. i wish i could turn back the clock and take the food out of my stomach but its already digested and probably turned into fat.

i feel extra bloated, sluggish and just bad. :( damn!

but whatever, tomorrow is a brand new week. i'm going to weigh in and not be a punk. but i wont look at it until after my meeting is done so i listen to whats actually going on during the meeting rather than mentally beat myself up during the meeting.

tomorrow shows the results of the valentines weekend massacre! haha, stay tuned...

reese's coma

2009-02-15T17:56:00.003-05:00

omg. so happy belated valentines day! mine was wonderful but i think i'm gonna see the consequences at my next weigh in. but tomorrow is another day so no moping around even if i do gain. just gotta keep going.

soo omg. i requested it so i know it would have happened. i literally got like a bag full of resses chocolate for v day along with a dinner of italian goodness with wine. i'm sure i had atleast 45 points last night. lol but i saved my weekly's for that day. i dont know what affect it will have on my weightloss cause i've never had that many points in one day. but thank god the next "holiday" is my birthday. so i have about 3 weeks to be a good weight watchers girl. ha.

anyway, reeses = heaven. its one of my vices. i dont regret indulging. i regret that choclate isnt one of the food groups! ha. anyway, back to taking weight loss one step at a time.

hungry girl, i love you!

2009-02-13T02:50:00.007-05:00

so since i've joined weight watchers i have learned so much about different foods and different health reasons behind them. i'm trying so hard to stick to my good health guidelines but sometimes you realize that they take up your points. if you follow the ghg's you'll realize that at least 8 of your points are used on them with your milk servings, fruits, and healthy oils.

recently i've been really into hungry-girl.com. i just purchased this milk substitute that she recommends. its called unsweetened vanilla almond breeze. i searched high and low for it in my grocery store. then i googled it and realized that its in a grocery store somewhere on mcdonald and 18th ave (i'm in brooklyn ny). so i was like i'm not taking a bus to go and get this product. so 2 days ago i ordered it online and i already have it! i tried it...its as thin as fat free milk and has more of a soy flavor but i think its a perfect substitute. and its only 1 point for 1 cup! woah! dude! compared to fat free milk which is 2 points for 1 cup. i went bonkers. lol. and it is a good source of calcium and other goodness which is the point of getting in your "milk servings" for the day.

its so important for me to find everything i eat in lower points because as i lost more weight my points went down and it has now become more difficult for me to stay with in points. it used to be that my milk servings would take up 4 of my 22 points. my points are too precious for that. ha! so for now i'll enjoy this. i'm not giving up on milk. i'll just use it less.

i highly recommend hungry-girl.com to anyone on weight watchers! theres a zillion recipes and interesting finds and different ways to make high point foods into low point foods. i made pigs in a blanket from this chick. go. now. you'll love it :)

weigh in 21, thanks for punishment

2009-02-10T21:30:00.003-05:00

so my bad choices have finally caught up with me and i'm being punished for it. lol. but it was very much expected. today i weighed in at 156.2 which is a gain of 0.6 of a pound. you know what, i'm not even mad. it finally makes sense. if you eat crap you will gain weight. its true. i didnt listen to my body signals and i ate crapola last week.

so i'm fine with my gain because i know next week it will be gone. i'm getting back into my weight lifting. kinda miss that feeling.

anyway so i went to the mall today with stacy before my weigh in and i went to charlotte rousse where i usually buy my jeans and i tried on a size 11 and it looked so sexy. lol. except the shit was extra long so i couldnt purchase it. grrrrr. whatever i guess i'll go another time.

i expect to lose next week even though its valentines weekend and i will have chocolate and liqour. but all in moderation and within points. i'm saving up my weekly's this week just for that. never depriving myself though. one thing i am depriving myself is cakes and donuts. none! not one bite until my birthday (march 12th). those are big trigger foods for me. so i have to cut it out.

anyway, have a good week!

finally a "healthy" BMI range

2009-02-10T13:34:00.004-05:00

Ahhh! so I was curious about my BMI because when i first started weight watchers my BMI was 28. Which was in the overweight category. Before that and before my yearly summer weight loss I weighed 187 which gave me a BMI of 29.3. oh lord just .7 more and I would have been called "Obese". Woah America. But now, since I've lost 23 pounds America says I'm healthy...wow. I'd still love not to be so close to the over weight category. But still this is something to celebrate.

Your BMI is 24.4

18.5 - 24.9 Healthy Weight For Most Adults According to medical experts, your weight falls into the healthy range, it represents the lowest level of risk for heart disease, diabetes and hypertension. To further reduce your risk, focus on healthy eating with a menu that is low in saturated fat, and rich in fruits, vegetables and whole grains, as well as staying active for life.* Congratulations to you if you have recently reduced your weight to this level; staying committed to your healthy lifestyle will help you maintain both your weight and your well-being.

*Obes Res. 1998; 6(suppl 2): 110S.
BMI Categories

* Underweight: Less than 18.5
* Normal weight: 18.5 - 24.9
* Overweight: 25 - 29.9
* Very Overweight: Over 30

lets just call this my fat week

2009-02-08T18:38:00.006-05:00

lol. i have given in to every temptation in the world. i had liqour, i had a donut, i had cake, i stuffed myself and almost threw up. *sigh* i think its cuz i woke up in the morning...ate really light and then didnt eat for like 8 hours so i was extremely hungy. so i cooked up some pasta and ate too much of it...then i had made angel food cake which is not so bad. but the mix with the pasta didnt go well with my tum tum. but eating too much in my mind is sort of like a normal persons eating habits. i really do believe my stomach cant take too much anymore.

but then last night i'm chillin with my boyfriend at his friends house and we order tacos. right before that i went to their bathroom and weighed myself to make sure my over eating this week didnt screw me up too much and their digital scale said i weighed 155.4. so far that means lost .2 of a pound....hmm. but then i had tacos and went out with my friends and didnt feel like i made wise decisions. so i'll see if tuesday will show.

even though, i'm not gonna let the scale determine my happiness. and its so weird because it feels like the more mistakes i make and the more i eat people keep telling me i'm wasting away. lol...prob because they are not used to me at this size yet. but anyway, i have 5 more pounds to go. and i'll be acoomplished.

i went to target the other day and wanted so badly to buy the hungry girl book and a few more books. so i've decided to make that my present for when i hit my 25 pound mark. that should be in about 2 pounds. so maybe thats motivation for me to stop shoving things like 6 point doughnuts in my mouth. *sigh*

weigh in 20

2009-02-03T22:14:00.003-05:00

the results are in! i weighed in today at 155.6 pounds. which is a loss of 1 whole pound this week. which is what i was aiming for. woot!

so the simply filling technique really does work. hehe. i recommend it to anyone who wants a break from tracking and portioning. you just have to know your body signals and when you are full.

i have really started slacking off on my exercise though. and what do you know i walk in to my weight watchers meeting today and the book i get is "book 9: beyond walking". for the past 2 weeks i have only done my exercise video once. once! in two weeks. i used to do it at least 3 times. i still get my walking in because of my dog and the fact that i pretty much try to walk everywhere i go. but besides that i'd really love to have an exercise routine. i would join a gym but i don't have the money for that at this time. so i'm going to stick to my dvd's and walking until i'm able to join. but sometimes its hard to push yourself to exercise when you are sitting at home. but i must make it a routine!

back to counting tomorrow

2009-02-02T17:56:00.003-05:00

so its back to counting my 22 points a day tomorrow morning. the simply filling technique was a nice break from tracking my points. but if felt too limited at times. its much more structured because there are many more rules but I don't work on a planned and prepared kind of day when it comes to food. i wake up and choose from what i have in my house. with the simply filling technique you need to be prepared. it is doable and it wasnt as hard as i thought it was going to be. but i would love the option of grabbing a sandwich or having real sugar to be back in my plan. lol. so back to counting.

i did try a new recipe and was open to a few more things with this technique though. i might try it again if i ever feel i need more of a structured diet until i reach my goal.

i'm going to try and aim for 1 pound a week. it'll be great to make my first goal by my 23rd birthday (march 12th). but i'm not gonna stress it. i think slow and steady wins the race. :)

weigh in 19 + simply filling technique

2009-01-27T19:52:00.005-05:00

shocking, very shocking loss of 2.2 pounds this week!!! i am currently at 156.6 pounds. i drank massive amounts of alcohol and went a little o.d. on doughnuts and i finally lost weight. wow. i love when weight loss doesnt make sense.

but i guess one thing is certain. i am one persistent woman. if you keep going, no matter what the scale says every week you will succeed. we get discouraged sometimes but i think...no....i know, if you stick with it that you will have some sort of success. as long as you are committed. this is my 20th week on weight watchers. i have never been committed to a "diet" this long in my entire life. i'm so proud of me.

i went to an extra meeting this weekend. it was fun to visit a new group of people. i'm also going next saturday to my friends meeting. i think it keeps me motivated to go to even more meetings.

so this week i have committed to following the simply filling technique. if you've been on weight watchers for a while you'll see that its pretty much identical to the core program. i'm not going to count points for a whole week and i'm only eating filling foods. and anytime i eat something that is not part of the list i have to count it as one of my weekly points (which thank god i still have). i chose to do this to have a change and to say that i tried it and it wasnt so bad. i will probably go back to counting points next tuesday unless i fall in love with this new plan. heh. although today it felt nice to not look up food points and just eat. but it just feels more limiting. but i can still do it.

anyway, wahoo for a loss!! i'm only 6.4 pounds away from my goal. :) i spoke to my leader and she said to talk to her again in 3 pounds so i know for sure about being 150 or if i want to go further. i'll see in 3 pounds.

Damn donut

2009-01-25T22:16:00.002-05:00

I'm typing this on my itouch cuz my computer died on me. Ugh! But anyway, why did I just eat that. LOL everytime I feel good aboutmy weightloss I sabatoge it. LOL and I know in life im able to have a donut but I made a commitment to lose this week and now I may have ruined that by getting drunk yesterday and eating crappy food. Ugh I hate the scale. But I'm still going to face it on Tuesday or else ill never know how I'm progresing or not progressing. I hate hangovers...

OMFG

2009-01-24T21:30:00.004-05:00

so i go into target today looking for a dress for my friends bday party tonight and i saw a pair of jeans. it was a size 8 but it looked big for a size 8. i don't know if its bigger cause of target brand or whatever. but anyway i go in knowing they werent going to fit. cuz i mean, c'mon. so i get in the fitting room put one leg in and it goes in. then the other...then i'm like ok, maybe it wont zip. and OMFG! it zips!!!! huh? what crazy. this was my first time trying on jeans since i started weight watchers. and if this size 8 fits, then that means i have surpassed my goal of a size 10. but to make sure of this i'm going to try on my usual jeans in a size 10 and then if thats fits then, wow. i made it. but until then, yay! so no matter what the scale says this tuesday i still have a victory! woot!

weigh in 18, grrrr

2009-01-20T20:54:00.005-05:00

158.8?????????? shut up! this is not fair. i didnt over eat, i stayed within points, but yet i still gain. 0.2 of a pound.

i'm mad. yes. but i have to take it and move on. atleast it wasnt a whole lot of weight. and i guess i still am in the 150's. but if i keep going this way...ugh.

i wanted to try the simply filling technique. because i was thinking maybe my body is getting to used to this and needed a change. but i need to plan that better and i'm not prepared. so i'm going to try it next week for one week. i need to learn when i'm full and be a little bit more limited with my foods. especially since i keep eating sweets. i need some boundaries to get my ass in gear. so next week will be sort of a fresh start. something new.

in the mean time, i just have to keep tracking and checking my portions. i've been walking more than anything (yet i still gained...don't get it *sigh*) but i got the next move dvd and i'm going to start that tomorrow.

my goal this week is to lose 1 pound. so i need to be 157 by january 27th! i'm sick of 158....

the new year, new resolve challenge, week 3 tasks:
1)try a new recipe
2)dance
3) go to an extra meeting

last week was good, i ate more than 2 filling foods each day and had 11 activity points. i felt good. but the scale depressed me today. i just have to re motivate myself....

mmmm

2009-01-15T01:45:00.008-05:00

i made dinner for myself tonight. i feel like its been forever because all last week i ate out a lot. i need to really start eating in more because its healthier, i can eat more and not feel guilty, and its cheaper!

so this meal was extremely easy and yummy and low in points. i cut up (and sauteed with a little onion and garlic) 1 ounce of polska keilbalsa sausage which i count as 1.5 points because the serving is 2 ounces and that's 3 points so i just cut it in half. then i also prepared 1 cup of near east whole grain brown rice pilaf which is 4 points when prepared with olive oil. man oh man. this will definitely be a new staple for me. i need it in life. lol. then i shredded up some spinach and put a little bit of 0 points taco sauce on it for a kick. all in all, i had dinner that only came up to 5.5 points. woah, shocking. my dinners are usually 9 points at least. yay for brown rice pilaf and sausage!

hmmm what can i make for tomorrow?

weigh in 17, challenge week 2

2009-01-13T19:38:00.005-05:00

*sigh* i gained a little. very much expected. today i weighed in at 158.6. which is a gain of 0.2 of a pound. you know what. not bad. especially considering my week. to me, its as if i maintained my weight which is so much better than really going backwards.

my week involved food from mcdonalds, chinese food (twice!) and other junk i ate because of my period. i also didnt really stick to any of my good health guidelines. so i'm pretty happy that i didn't gain much. i think thats because i've been walking a whole lot more! i got a dog and it lives at my boyfriend's house so i walk to his house every morning (which is like a 15 minute walk), then walk the dog then walk back home. so i've been moving more and all i need is my toning.

this week i've made a promise myself to sticking to the momentum plan. choosing filling foods first, follow the healthy guidelines, and checking my portions. also i'm going to challenge myself NOT to use my weekly points allowance and instead work for my induldgences. like if i want a piece of 1 point chocolate i will earn an activity point and swap it for that. like working for your supper. lol. i'm gonna try it for one week and if i feel too deprived, then next tuesday i'll get back into using my weekly points allowance.

the new year, new resolve challenge, week 2 tasks:
1)add two filling foods everyday
2)earn two more activity points values than last week (that means i need 8 ap's this week)
3) ask for help
.....so week 1 didnt go so well. i mean, i guess i did add more activity. i didnt plan my food, and i didnt take my measurements. but i can take that this week. i just can't plan food, i wont stick to it even when i write it down. i eat whats available to me.

i want to atleast lose a pound this week! its a new year. i need to get motivated and get to goal! anyhoo, its dinner time. i'm lazy so i'm having a smart ones with a salad and my healthy oils. later guys. :)

weigh in 16

2009-01-06T20:30:00.003-05:00

wow my ww meeting was packed today...guess everyone wants to lose that holiday weight. anyway, i weighed in today at 158.4 pounds. not surprising. but i did lose 0.4 of a pound which is half a pound in ww. so all good even after i drank everyday. lol.

so i'm just gonna focus on my challenge this week and well see what next tuesday will look like. not gonna push myself mucho hard though because i know my period is coming. i'll just make sure to eat filling foods so i don't crave junk as much.

have a good week!

The 2009 New Year, New Resolve Challenge, Week 1

2009-01-06T14:12:00.002-05:00

i'd like to start this year off well! today is my first weigh in of the new year. i'm not expecting too much because i feel like i'm bloating from my period and i havent made the smartest choices this past week....but every week is a fresh new start. especially since its a fresh new year! if you are a weight watchers member, you'll know this is from the website. i think its a fab way to kick start the new year!

my goal over the next four weeks of this challenge is to:
stick to all of my good health guidelines. especially since i've been slacking on them the past holiday season. and of course, to lose weight!

the tasks for this weeks challenge is to:
1) plan a week's menu
2) add 5 minutes to my daily activity
3) take my measurements

this is truly a challenge for me because i never plan my meals. ever. i always feel like i'll never stick to the plan. but now with my points becoming fewer, i should be planning ahead so i don't run into disasters. adding more activity shouldnt be a problem. i might just stick to the 30 minutes a day rather than adding 5 since i havent done much activity besides walking and a little toning. and oo i havent done measurements in a few months. itll be cool to see if anything has changed.

i'll be back after I weigh in. :)

happy new year

2009-01-01T22:26:00.007-05:00

one of the scariest things about losing weight is realizing that just as you lost it, it's even easier to gain it back. i'm hoping that when i make it to goal i'm able to learn how to maintain my weight. which has been a constant struggle. i've lost weight before. and even though it was never the amount i wanted, i still have never been able to maintain my losses. so i hope weight watchers can teach me. but i'll cross that bridge when i get to it. anyway, that's a pic of comparison. its only face shots but you can see the difference from january 2008 to...well, today actually!

happy new year! i hope we all choose to make healthier choices for our bodies and continue to do well so that we can be even more fabulous come january 2010!

weigh in 15

2008-12-30T20:28:00.006-05:00

OMG! it seems as if every time i belly ache about over eating i lose weight! lol. goes to show you i totally under estimate the good things i do to my body.

but anyway, i weighed in today at 158.8 pounds! a shocking loss of 2.6 pounds. i'm skeptical about it though. cuz i felt starved before my meeting. lol. i usually eat before....but ah, it is a loss no matter what. maybe its all that wii-ing i did this week. trishia got a wii and so did my bro. i was hitting that up. lol

one down side about being in the 150's...i have lost a daily point! lol. i mean its only one point. but sometimes one point can make all the difference in your day. its ok though. i can manage with 22 points. plus, i'm a supporter of dipping into your weekly's.

but anyway, other than that nothing exciting has happened. i got offered to join the weight watchers team. maybe become a receptionist. i could use the part time money. i'm gonna check out an informational about it on january 11th. it should be interesting. and plus itll help me stay on plan.

so i added it up. and even though i gained a pound and a half the first week of december, all together for the month of december i've lost 6 pounds! woot! who says you can't lose weight during the holidays? ;)

anyway, happy new year!!! a new year and new goals to make. :)

3 days to make it right

2008-12-26T23:56:00.002-05:00

i feel guilty for not eating so healthy this christmas week. now i have saturday, sunday and monday to make up for this with activity points. i have faith that i can stick to my 23 daily points and move a lot more than the past few days.

if at the end of these three days, on tuesday i weigh in and there is a gain, or some sort of maintenance then at least i know i truly tried this week. other wise, i'm gonna feel like a fat shlump. and there will be none of that! makes me depressed.

so since i seemed to have no control over what i put in my mouth these past few days...i'm going to turn to my book and try out 3 days of the weight watchers planned meals that they have for us. this way i wont have to think of having healthy meals. its all done for me!

ok i'm crossing my fingers. and sticking to this.

weigh in 14, 10% reached!

2008-12-23T19:18:00.003-05:00

*drum roll* I ACHIEVED MY 10 PERCENT GOAL!!!! *bows* man, i feel like i'm walking on air.

lol, i weighed in today at 161.4 pounds. a loss of 1.4 this week. wow. omg! how did i do it? i would really loooooove to know. i mean, what? i was like..."are you sure" when i saw the scale. but it really happened! i got my little key chain for accomplishing that too. its cute.

wow, so this week is definitely proof that eating all of you weekly points and doing close to no activity can still bring you success if you don't go so overboard with eating. i'm just so proud of myself. what a perfect christmas gift to myself.

alright, now i know i don't wanna see a gain on the scale for next week. it's christmas and i may indulge on dec 25th....hell i KNOW i will indulge. but that's what excercise and weeky points are for. i'm gonna do some yoga this week. just got my hair done cant sweat this out just yet. ha. i'm excited to bring in the new year with a smaller waistline. :)

ooo omg, i found these weight watchers peanut butter cups that tastes like reeses. which is my weakness! and its only 2 points! what? i need to purchase this in bulk!

boo december

2008-12-21T20:58:00.003-05:00

ugh, the holidays is not a time for weight loss. man, there is always something to detour you from making smart choices. lol. like cookies, and egg nog, and liqour, and every other jolly food! lol yes i know, we should have more will power. but sometimes its hard. i stayed the weekend out. i'm finally home. i was in long island for a few days and at my babes house for 2 other days. so that means i was out for 4 days. that is 4 days of trying to stay in points but doing a bad job by waking up late, eating bigger breakfast's and believing that the day was all down hill from there. plus, no activity, hardly any fruits and vegetables and no healthy oils in for atleast a week. *sigh*

i can't beat myself up about it because its inevitable. it is the holidays. i just don't want to go back to bad eating habits. last christmas season i gained almost 15 pounds from the holidays. i don't want that to happen again.

but anyway, i know for sure that the scale will not be my friend this tuesday coming up. but i'm going to try and get some activity in tonight and tomorrow during the day. i just hope i can atleast maintain and not go backwards. lol...i just gotta make it through christmas and new years! where is january! lord! lol

weigh in 13...omg christmas is next week!

2008-12-16T21:44:00.003-05:00

i weighed in today at 162.8 pounds which is a loss this week of 0.6 of a pound.

i kind of expected more of a loss. i mean, i worked out. i may have used ALL of my weekly's but i felt like i put in work man. although, some days i just didn't care because i was sick. i ate things that were bad but i still counted them. but i'm not complaining too much. cuz i guess i still lost half of a pound. :) and plus i'm on my period. but damn, i'm only 0.4 of a pound away from my 10 percent goal! grrrr. i was so close.

but you know what? i'm happy to lose at all during the fattest month of the year. lol. can't believe next week is christmas already.

so i really do want to reach my 10 percent next week. i think that would be a nice mini goal to accomplish (and present) for christmas. i mean....0.4 of a pound? i can do that! right? lol. although, this upcoming weekend could hinder me. i have a christmas party this weekend and i will be with friends. and we know how those go. i'm gonna do my best though!

no matter what, 16 pounds down in december seems pretty sweet to me! last year this time i was almost 190. i feel good :)

new goal weight

2008-12-12T14:48:00.005-05:00

so yesterday i had these jeans on that i'm wearing in the picture next to this. this picture is from my 21st birthday in march 2007. the jeans are a size 13/14 ish and yesterday i wore them and was able to slide them off with out unbuttoning or unzipping. they just slid down. so i'm uber excited to go to a mall and try on some jeans. cuz you know my true ultimate goal was to wear a size 10 jeans.

so my first goal was to weigh 160 pounds. (which is pretty much losing 10 percent of my body weight. and is what ww starts you off with as a first goal.) when i'm 17 pounds down i would have hit that milestone. (not too far) but i've officially changed my goal weight on weight watchers to 150 pounds. and i figure i may as well annouce my new goal. i'll be going to the mall sometime this weekend to see if i can squeeze my ass into a size 12. if so, then progress baby! on my way :)

meetings: surprisingly enjoyable

2008-12-10T14:08:00.003-05:00

i was surfing through the official weight watchers myspace page and saw this. when i first joined weight watchers in september, i was really nervous. i never before joined a group of people who were trying to lose weight and talk about it. i didnt know if it was going to be like some AA meeting where i have to stand up and say something like "hi, i'm danielle....and i like food." lol.

i didnt know what to expect so i guess the unknown was the scary part for me. but that first day when i walked in and sat down and my leader asked all the "joining memebers" to introduce themselves and say why they wanna lose the weight, i thought "FUCK!!! i thought i didnt have to talk". i didn't want to be judged for wanting to lose weight and i'm also not one to talk in front of a bunch of a people. but i said it quickly and after that it wasnt painful. it was actually just a bunch of women sharing stories about why they want to lose weight and troubles they were having and any success they had that week.anyway, after the first meeting i never felt pressured to speak in the meetings again.

weigh-ins are another nerve racking thing for me because i like seeing success. and weighing in at a meeting makes me actually accountable for what i ate or how active i had been the last week. i like that about it, because i have a feeling if i weighed in at home....it wouldnt be the same. i'd probably check my weigh everyday and become obsessed with the scale. going to the meetings and weighing in actually makes me motivated to do good all week. i never want to disapoint myself (or the receptionist who records my weight every week lol). i like that it is also confidential and i've never heard someone say their actual weight in a meeting.

week after week after i saw some familiar faces it got easier to share a tip, or ask questions about things i was having trouble with on the program. and when you get to know members its like a little weight loss family you see once a week. we laugh, and share stories. and now it's something i actually look forward to going to!! so if you are someone who is hesitant about going to a meeting (which is only about 45 minutes a week by the way), i say just go! get it over with....and get the support. it's actually fun. :)

weigh in 12, momentum program

2008-12-09T22:04:00.003-05:00

i weighed in today at 163.4 pounds. so that's a lost of 1.4 pounds this week! yayyyyyyyyy!!!! i basically lost most of the weight i put on during thanksgiving week. whew! even though i chomped on honey nut cheerios every night when i didnt have points. lol, bad! i'm never buying them again.....or if i do, i must measure it out. but i have to kinda thank my friend stacy. she let me into her gym for free yesterday and i did a good workout. i also did one of the workouts on the get moving mix that i bought from weight watchers. so i feel good about activity for last week. i'm going to keep that going. i'm just SO happy to have lost weight after i gained weight last week. :)

so weight watchers has this new program called the momentum program. we learned all about it today in our meeting. i like it cuz i have new book material and i get excited about these things. i'm a loser, lol i know. so far, week 1....its pretty much the same as my flex program. so not much of a change. but my leader told me to focus on filling foods this week (there's a list). so i'm going to do that.

i also toned this afternoon. with some weights and the weight watchers dvd. i think if i do that twice a week (tuesdays and thursdays) and get atleast 20 minutes of some activity in a day i can work up some activity points. so monday, wednesday, friday: cardio. tuesday, thursday: toning.

welp....i'm gonna go read up on the momentum program. this is exciting, its like another fresh new start!

weigh in 11

2008-12-02T21:44:00.004-05:00

i'm sad. it's my first gain. *sigh* i weighed in today at 164.8 pounds, which is a gain of 1.6 pounds! :(

totally self inflicted though. must learn from mistakes. i basically went crazy after thanksgiving and didnt track what i ate, had mad liqour, stayed in the house and didnt move much. it was the holidays. when i stepped on the scale i expected it. i didnt go too overboard, but i did over indulge. which is not so bad. i think the problem was that i also didnt get my fruits and vegetables and healthy oils in like pretty much at all this week. these do affect your weight loss.

but even though i'm sad that i gained a pound and some, it is pushing me to lose lose lose! i bought the weight watchers get moving mix cause lets face it, the only excercise i get for the week is walking to my weight watchers meetings on tuesdays. basically nothing! i need to move and get back in gear. i am too close to my first goal to become lax now.

so this week: no dipping into the weekly's and i'm going to try the get moving mix. i think i might do it tonight actually. i'm actually a little glad i gained something. i needed something to push me more, because i was definately settling into this 'i'm ok, i dont need to lose more weight thing'. NO! i want to meet my goal. no matter how long it takes and how many mistakes i make, i'll get there.

i entered my weight in my tracker on the weight watchers website and it said:

So, you gained a little bit this week.

Is this what you expected? If so, today's a great day to make a fresh start. If you're stumped, talk with your Leader to assess your week and get advice on how you can make some changes to get back on track for next week.

Good luck in the coming week.

that's why i like weight watchers....so you had a lil set back. keep going!

weigh in 10, happy (almost) thanksgving!

2008-11-26T01:07:00.004-05:00

another careless week. hmm maybe not so careless though. i did pretty much record most of what i ate and tried to stay in the range of portions i should have. but i definitely drank almost every night last week and had cake and shit. but guess what. i weighed in at 163.2 pounds! (a loss of 1.8 pounds) haaaaa. i cant even say maybe its activity because the most activity i did all week was walking to the fridge. i did nothing cause i felt all tired from my period. hmmm. so. i'm 16 pounds down and i'll hit my 10 % body weight at 161.3 pounds. which is not far! so it's coming soon, yay!!!and my goal is 160...psht. thats changing, i'm not satisfied! i know what i need to do though.....tone. i'm just having a hard tme trying to start.

so this week is thanksgiving week. its sometimes scary to think of the holidays because usually thats when we all gain weight and then try on new years to lose it. im determined to atleast maintain my weight this week. i mean, thanksgiving is only one day....and i dont eat that much anyway. i'm only really into ham and sweet potatoes...oo and pie! i'm looking forward to that. so every other day of the week i'm just making sure to stay within my daily points so i can save my 35 weekly points for thursday. this way if i make some sort of slip, i wont feel guilty about it on thursday.

i really want to increase my fruits and vegetables intake also. on a good day i usually get about 3 servings. i'm supposed to get 5. so i'm gonna try and get them in better. gotta look up ways to do that....alrighty. it's bed time. night!

weigh in 9

2008-11-18T20:16:00.003-05:00

stupid period. gotta blame myself too though. i didn't do my best this week because i was all willy nilly with not writing my food down and eating out almost every night. can't be doing that though. not only can i not afford it but neither can my health. anyhoo. i weighed in at 165 pounds on the dot. so i lost 0.4 of a pound...in weight watchers that's half a pound.

i'm hoping i'm just bloated and not showing real weight loss. i'll see if there are results by next week. but i'm soooooo close to 15 pounds down and my 10 percent. woot! still motivated to do better...

weigh in 8 + no more blt's + new recipe!

2008-11-12T01:34:00.010-05:00

man, i complain about nothin. i don't know how i loss this week. maybe it was the dancing....i duno. i dont understand the science. but i love it! so i weighed in today (well yesterday since it's after midnight) at 165.4 which is a loss of 1.8 pounds this week. after i overate, had chocolate, cake, margaritas. soooo bad! lol. but hey, i don't know what i did. but i need to still make improvements ofcourse.

i think one of my downfalls is my blt's. in weight watchers blt's are: bites licks and tastes! yes they count depending on what you are tasting. so i'm gonna challenge myself not to bite, taste, or lick random things and just eat the food in front of me that was made for me. just so i see if there is a difference it will make.

today i was so excited about losing after being a pig, that i decided to try another rachael ray recipe. i made rachael ray's turkey sweet potato shepperd's pie. man it was goooood. ofcourse i tweaked it a bit to make it more figure friendly. it came out to about 10 points for a huge slice, 5 for half a slice. anyhoo...i need to make even more and more recipes. why am i obsessed with food network and cooking now? lol.

photos of the process (lol):

(my piece!)

i probably shouldnt be up right now.....

2008-11-09T06:13:00.003-05:00

...but i can't sleep and i might as well blog about my bad times. lol. so the guy im seein made breakfast for me this morning...well really yesterday morning, but my day has yet to end. so anyway it turned out to be 11 points!!! leaving me with 12 points left for the day. which was fine at the time.

for lunch i had a 5 point salad. then time went by and i didnt eat dinner. we were at dave and busters at midnight and i was hungry so i split an appetizer with him. it was a crispy chicken mini burgers..small so i figure it couldnt be that much but now i fear it is. plus i had 10 french fries which is 5 points :( and then i had a margarita! which im sure was like 10 points because of the amount of ounces. i went waaaay into my weekly points. i think i only have 6 left. so im scared i either gained this week or won't lose anything at all (which would be better than gaining)

i just hope it turns out ok. can't psych myself out because i had one bad day. but i wish i had more willpower when i eat out. but anyhoo, i have 2 more full days before my weigh in day....so i'm gonna make good light meals full of fruits and veggies! anyway, i'm gonna hit the hay....

motivation

2008-11-06T13:16:00.002-05:00

sometimes, to get motivated i look back at pictures. this was taken in late May of 2008 when i felt so sluggish and my tummy was always hidden behind those pregnant top shirts and dresses. i'm so happy i started weight watchers. me and trish look/feel better. :)

weigh in 7

2008-11-04T20:14:00.002-05:00

stepped on the scale today and it read: 167.2 pounds! whew. so wow, a week goes by mad fast! i didn't even really get to my challenge. this week i'm continuing the same challenge of activity since i didn't achieve it.

but this week, man i craved fat ass food. and i kept tasting things. lol, so basically i'm happy that i still basically lost. and it's november 4th, and i'm still in the 160's! so i feel good about that. now i'm officially 7 pounds away from my [first] goal and 5.9 pounds away from reaching my 10%. my goal is really close to my 10 percent, i know. but i'm calling it my first goal because i'll talk with my leader when i get there and see where to go from there.

i've been watching thanksgiving things on food network and i wanna see how i can make atleast one figure friendly thanksgiving dish. i don't mind eating the fattening things as long as its well portiened but i think it will be fun to make a new dish that tastes good and is good for you.

so that makes 12 pounds down! i wonder if i can hit my goal by the new year.....

weigh in 6 + new activity challenge

2008-10-28T20:53:00.004-04:00

reaching my girls early man!! so i weighed in today at 168 pounds! that's a (shocking) loss of 4.4 pounds this week! woot! woot! i'm in the 160's even before halloween! all smiles baby!

so last week i only ate rice on one occasion. i usually had rice a few times a week. so i cut that out and i followed my oil challenge! i also went dancing on friday night. so i earned some activity points while having fun. and i did not drink during the week. i'm a lil scared that this 4 pound thing is a fluke. lol. cuz i usually wear jeans to my weigh ins and today i wore spandex. but i don't think jeans adds so many pounds to the scale anyway. i'll take it as it is and keep following my success.

this weeks challenge is activity! i usually get activity by walking to the store (15 minutes) and doing slight weight lifting. (not much.) i'm gonna try and get double the amount of activity points i usually get in a week. i usually get about 3 so i'm working on 6 activity points this week. time to pull out the old DDR again.

you know what i'm scared of? that i'll reach my goal weight and i won't be satisfied. i'm officially 8 pounds away from my goal weight and i don't feel like i look that much different. my waste is smaller but to me, that's about it. i need to tone more. so i can see the difference in my thighs which will change my actual jeans size. that's when i know that i have success. when i go into a store and i'm not looking for a size 14 jeans. i'm not sure if i'll ever get to size 10 because i have wide hips and maybe my body wasn't made for that size....but i'm sure i can get to a 12. my jeans are already fitting loose on me. :) but anyway, when i reach my goal, then i will re-assess a new goal. it just might be 150-155. i'll see when i get there.

anyway, good begining of the week so far, i'm happy!!!!!!

rachael ray, chicken brajole!

2008-10-25T16:44:00.003-04:00

mmm. so i've told you i've been obsessed with food network lately. lol. so the other night i decided to be all domestic. i cleaned and then decided to try out this 30 minute meal rachael ray was cooking up. she said it's "figure friendly" so i thought i should try it. chicken brajole is basically stuffed chicken. but this was stuffed with a stuffing of whole wheat bread, parmesan cheese, and parsley. i put the recipe in the weight watchers thingy and it ended up being 5 points for the chicken. i also added a cup of whole wheat pasta (3 points) and had a cup of spinach and diced tomatoes on the side. talk about yummy!!! and so filling....and an 8 point dinner is great for me. :) i felt very proud of cooking for myself. plus i had some left over for lunch the next day. my mom was also uber excited because she loves when i get domesticated (so i can learn for my children she says, ha!).

well anyway, that was my new dish for the week. i've been keeping up with my challenge of my daily oil intake. i find that if i have it at around lunch time i wont forget to factor it in later....so this week: so far so good. i havent been drinking! except for last night, cuz it was friday. lol. i havent banned myself on the weekends. but it was all pointed. i had a vodka tonic (3 points) and a korona light (2 points). all in all. i feel good about this week so far.

i gotta get my activity points in though....although...i danced last night. maybe that counts. i'm sure it does.

weigh in 5 + challenges

2008-10-21T21:42:00.007-04:00

my weight today on the dreaded scale was 172.4. which was a loss of 0.2 of a pound.....basically the same weight to me. so young carter go harder, go farther!!! LOL. naa....but its time to really push myself.

my leader has given us all a 10 week challenge thingy because there are 10 more weeks till january! can ya believe it? yeah. so along with my goal of being in the 160's by November 4th, i'm going to follow my leaders challenges every week. this week's challenge: get healthy oils in. i sometimes forget or am not sure if i get enough of my oils. so i'm gonna do that challenge this week.

also, i have found that a problem for me with weight loss is my liqour intake. i have basically had a glass of wine or a beer almost everyday. i don't wanna say i have a drinking problem. cause i don't. but i do go out a lot, or hang out....and when i'm with others there are usually drinks. so instead of just giving in and drinking, now i'm gonna go cold turkey on the weekdays. because it's definetly affecting my weight loss goals and i don't need to drink like that anyway.

even though i didn't lose much weight today, i felt really good when i left my meeting because i realize people are going through my struggles and you can get feedback from others and tips and just support. and you're not judged and you just feel better when you leave no matter what little success you had. so i felt ok about losing 0.2 of a pound. and i feel so motivated to even go harder.

ooo....i have been totally obsessed with food network lately. i have to try and make one of the healthier dishes....so this week, it's on. can't wait to see how it goes. :)

bloaty

2008-10-21T15:59:00.003-04:00

so today is weigh in day. in about an hour actually. and i feel really bloated cuz my period should be starting tomorrow. i wonder if that will affect the numbers on the scale. i'm not gonna panick or anything though.

but i know this. by halloween...i need to be in the 160's. so for the rest of october i'm pushing myself to eat better and move more. i have 10 days till halloween. although i won't know what my progress will be till the tuesday after halloween which is nov 4th (election day!). so November 4th is really the moment of truth. lol. it'll be my 7th weigh in.

anyway, im gonna get myself all set. i'll blog about my weigh in later.

non scale victory!

2008-10-18T17:31:00.007-04:00

april 2008
ok....woooh. i feel so proud of me. lol. i have a victory to share. last night i was trying on some outfits in my closet to wear to this lounge i went to last night. and i tried on this green dress. (the dress in the picture, which was taken in april of this year.)

i remembered the last time i put that dress on it was like skin tight. and my friend had to zip me up and i had to suck it in! lol. not this time....around my waste was like super baggy! yay! so even if my weight has not significantly gone down so much, my inches are changing. which makes me happy! *dances around*